Sissy Faggot

      

Above right: sissy slut eating and licking shit out of bowl like a fucking pig....

Weekly Assignment Replies:

08-12-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i knew as soon as i read YOUR instructions for so generously allowing me to wank that it was going to take some strategic planning on my part.  my wife hates dirty laundry, so she does it every morning the first thing when she gets up.  Nothing we ever wear lays in the hamper longer than overnight.  Often if i take off something at night that isn't dirty and i have only worn for a couple of hours before bed, if i lay it at the foot of the bed intending to put on in the morning, when i get up it is gone, she has collected it with the clothes in the hamper and it is already in the wash or hanging on the line by the time i get up.  (she gets up at 5:00 AM even in the summer)
 
So...on Wednesday afternoon after receiving YOUR e-mail i went up to the bed room and took a pair of her clean panties out of her drawer.  All her panties are white, so i did not have to worry about her noticing that these were not ones she had worn.  i hid those panties in the bathroom linen closet.  After we went to bed and i was sure that she was asleep, i got out of bed and replaced the clean panties from the linen closet with her dirty ones from that day.  On Thursday when she had gone to town to get her hair done, i followed YOUR instructions put on my stockings, and lipstick and eye makeup and then got a large carrot from the refrigerator and used it to fuck my sissy pussy.  Leaving the carrot inside me, i sat on a hard wooden chair and with my wife's dirty panties i began to pull on my little clitty.  As YOU know, i am not very well endowed, so it was hard keeping a hold of my little clit with that smooth slick material being pulled over it.  It took a long time, but when i finally came it was one of my biggest cums in some time.  i actually shot three squirts of cum into the panties, and then even dribbled some more.  As YOU instructed i brought the cum filled panties to my mouth and began to lick and suck my cum out of them.  Right away i knew that i had a problem, my lipstick was leaving large red smears across the crotch of her panties.  i continued sucking on the material and licking it hoping that i could suck some of the lipstick stains out with the cum, but the stains just kept getting larger.  After i had the crotch soaking wet with no cum left i still had panties with red stains all through the crotch.  i tried to wash them out by hand with liquid soap, but the crotch is still slightly pink.  So now i have a pair of my wife's panties with a pink stain in the crotch hidden in the trunk of my car.  Should i dump them or keep them hidden for later use?  Please advise.  If YOU should have me ever repeat this performance i just don't want her to notice that the panties in her drawer are beginning to disappear.
 
i do hope that this amuses YOU and YOUR friends and that YOU will let me know what anyone says to YOU about it. 

your slut

 

08-08-06: Dear Mistress Patty
 
my wife did not get home until after six o'clock last night so i had lots of time to play with my carrots.  i fucked myself with the carrot that was in my sissy pussy then would pull it out and suck on it like it was a real cock (all the time wishing it was) then i would re-insert it into my sissy fuck hole and repeat the process all over again.  i did this about a half dozen times before finally eating it that last time that it came out of me. 
 
While i was sitting at the computer with it inside of me i looked at pictures of TVs sucking each other off.  Then i went to a web site that talked about make up techniques, and came up with a way to make my mouth have that cock sucking look that many of the TVs in the pictures had.  i took an old dark plumb color lipstick and outlined my lips slightly outside my natural lip line and then colored in my lips with the Certainly Red lipstick.  i practiced with the dark shade until i finally had a perfect bow on my top lip and a nice fat lip on the bottom.  i must say that the look was exactly what i was looking for.  i got so turned on just sucking on that carrot and then re-applying my lipstick in this perfect cock sucking lip look.  Oh how i wish that YOU could have seen it. 
 
i hope that i am not bothering YOU with this early report, but i was so anxious to tell YOU about it.  i can't wait to get further instructions from YOU.
 
YOUR slut

 

08-07-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i followed YOUR instructions today and just got home.  i knew that i could not go to Krogers in XXXXXXX with my nail polish on so i drove the extra miles to Logan instead.  i had to go to the post office and to the grocery store.  i went to the post office and sent a package to my son.  i tried to hide my red fingernails, but the lady at the post office did notice them.  i removed my ear rings but left my lipstick on.  i pressed my lips together and frowned trying to hide my red lips.  i kept my head down hoping that she would not notice.  She was chuckling and took her good time to print the postage out and slap it on the box.  She was giggling the whole time but never said anything about my fingernails, though she did keep trying to make conversation, to which i just muttered yea and uh uh answers.   
 
Next i went to the Wall Mart in XXXX and bought what was on my wife's list along with a package of large carrots.  Again i left my ear rings off but left my lipstick on.  i followed the same procedure keeping my lips tight together and keeping my head down.  i tried not to reach for anything on a shelf or in the meat cooler unless i looked around to see that no one was near. A couple of women shoppers did notice my red finger nails though and were laughing at me.  Not loud hysterical laughter, but chuckling and pointing all the same.  i ignored them and turned to push my cart away from where they were.  When i checked out the girl at the cash register really got a kick out of it as did the older woman helping to bag the groceries.  The girl on the register did a double take on my hands and then just looked at me like i was from outer space.  The older one asked me who painted my nails, i kept my head down and answered that "i did."  She seemed to get a good laugh at that.  i think that they both noticed my lipstick when i answered her.  They both seemed to look at me with a combination of laughter and disgust.  The younger girl who was working the cash register, though she didn't say anything to me, looked at the older lady and shook her head and made some comment that i didn't quite hear.  They both laughed and the older one told me that my nails were very pretty, then laughed. 
 
i bought a bag of carrots as instructed and sucked on a big fat one all the way home.  i had to keep applying my lipstick as it kept coming off onto the carrot.  i ate it when i got home and now i have another shoved up inside my sissy pussy.  i am going to fuck my sissy ass with it soon and then eat it too. 
 
So far today i have only smoked two Capri Menthol 120s.  Today was the most humiliating assignment that i have had to date and i hope that YOU will take it easy on me for my assignment Wednesday.  i don't know if i could do this again.  But it did make my little clit wet with pre cum and i would desperately like to wank, i do hope that YOU will give this request some consideration.  i am going to go now and reapply my eye make up.
 
i do hope that this makes up for my disappointing performance last week at the Bottle Cap.
 
YOUR slut

 

08-06-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i bought the girls anklets at Target as ordered, they were white socks that when the tops are folded down have yellow and green ruffles on them.  i was very nervous about wearing them into the bar, but though i was nervous, nothing embarrassing happened.  The day i wore them into the Bottle Cap there were two men sitting at opposite ends of the bar and two women sitting together between them.  The bar maid had her back to me as i walked in as she was at the cash register.  i took a seat at the bar and ordered a beer.  i don't think anyone paid any attention to my feet.  One of the women who i know by name only said hi to me and then went back to talking to the woman she was with.  i bought them both a beer and they thanked me for it but didn't seem to notice my pretty anklets.  i stayed for a half hour as ordered and the only other person to come in was a beer truck driver and sales person.  The bar maid got busy with him and when i left if any one noticed they didn't say anything loud enough for me to hear about it.  i was on pins and needles the whole time that i was in there though.  Afraid that even though the people in the bar were not paying attention to my feet, that someone might come in and notice.  But that did not happen. 
 
i followed YOUR other instructions all week, saying my mantra, and smoking my four Capri Menthol 120s every day while wearing my Certainly Red lipstick while i smoked them.
 
i did not have an opportunity to be home alone this week or to get on the computer and look for fags like me sucking cocks. 
 
my wife will be gone all day Monday so i should have some time to get girly and do some girly things.  i also have some errands to run in Lancaster that day.  i anxiously await my assignments for next week.
 
YOUR slut

 

07-30-06: Dear Miss Patty 
i have continued my assignment for the rest of the week after seeing YOU on Tuesday.  i have continued to use my Secret Rose Scented deodorant all week and to say my mantra as YOU taught me every day for a half hour.  "my mouth, my cunt, and my clit are YOUR'S to do with as YOU please Mistress, such a filthy little shit eating fag am i."  i have smoked only four cigarettes a day, my Capri Menthol 120s, as instructed, and i have wore my Fire and Ice lipstick while in my car.  i have not had much opportunity to get on the computer to look at cock sucking bitches like me, nor to dress at home.
 
On Thursday while i was out i had on my lipstick and i needed to stop and get something to eat.  i stopped at Root's Restaurant on Memorial Drive  to eat.  i wiped the red lipstick from my lips and went inside and sat at the counter.  The young lady who waited on my seemed to be giggling about something and when i asked for a glass of water to go with the coffee she had already served me while i waited on my food she sent the older waitress down to my seat to get it.  She was also smiling at me as she sat my glass of water down on the counter in front of me. .  When my food came i began to eat and i was using my napkin to wipe my mouth several times.  When i got ready to pay the bill i looked and to my horror, i saw red lipstick stains all across the white napkin laying beside my plate.  i quickly paid (left a $2 tip) and left the restaurant taking the lipstick stained napkin with me.  i evidently did not do a good enough job wiping the lipstick from my lips in the car before going in.  i don't know how many other customers saw me.  Fortunately i did not see anyone i knew.   
 
Thank YOU for seeing me on Tuesday and i am sorry about my intolerance for the pain and for my knee causing so much trouble. 
 
YOUR slut

 

07-23-06: Dear Miss Patty
At 12:30 PM yesterday i began to remove my nail polish, and eye makeup.  i still had my shit lipstick on and the two turds i was using to refresh it were still on the vanity.  On a hunch, i called my wife and she was running late, she said that she was going to see our granddaughter and would be a couple of more hours.  So when i got YOUR e-mail saying that it was alright to wank, i did.  i crammed what was left of the two turds into my mouth and began pulling on that tiny little piece of worthless flesh between my legs until it squirted my silly sauce all over my hand.  With that much shit in my mouth, and it was a mouthful, it was running down my throat and by the time i came i began to gag.  i no more than shot my wad  when i had to get up from the toilet seat and turn to spit my mouthful of shit into the pot.  i thought that i was going to retch, but i didn't. 
 
Now, the item that i hope will make YOU proud of me.  Today i stopped at a roadside stand to buy some sweet corn.  They also had some other produce including nice long carrots, about seven to eight inches long and about an inch and a half in diameter at the top tapering down to a point at the other end.  i hope that YOU will be happy to know that as i sit here typing this to YOU i have an eight inch carrot shoved all the way up my sissy pussy, and when i finish this i am going to pull it out and eat it. i must tell YOU that sitting here with my pussy full of carrot is making my little clitty as hard as it gets these days.  i do hope that YOU and YOUR friends will get a good giggle out of this.  i can't wait to hear what YOU and they have to say about it.  

i just wanted to let YOU know that i finished my night time snack.  The top third of my carrot had a nice thick coat of brown over it, the bottom two thirds had a slight brownish stain, but was definitely still orange in color.  Lucky for me a nice long log followed the carrot from my ass, so after i ate the top third that was coated in shit, i used the turd in the toilet bowl for dipping sauce for the rest of it.  Now i must go brush my teeth and gargle about a half dozen times before going to bed.

YOUR slut

 

07-16-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i have had a very exciting week.  i would first like to tell YOU and YOUR friends about buying my lipstick and mascara.  i went into Walgreen's to pick up a prescription and while i was there i went over to the cosmetic counter and began looking for the two shades of lipstick that YOU told me to get.  Fire and Ice and Certainly Red.  They have a checkout counter just for the cosmetic area and a young (twenty something) female clerk asked me if she could help me find something.  i had been standing in front of the Revlon display looking at lipstick for just a couple of minutes.  At that time there were no other customers around so i told her that i was looking for two shades of lipstick and gave her the names of the shades.  She began helping me look and she found the Fire and Ice right away but had to take some time finding the Certainly Red shade.  By the time she found it there were two other women standing near by looking at cosmetics.  She asked me if there was anything else that she could help me with and i took a deep breath and said softly that i would like a mascara that was not water proof, something that would come off with soap and water instead of make up remover.  She gave me a funny look and i had to look away, i could not look her in the face.  i don't know but i do believe that at least one of the other two customers standing near by heard me because though i did not look directly at her i got a glimpse her watching me, and i could just feel her watching.  The sales clerk began looking at different mascaras and reading the labels.  She finally found the one i bought, Intense XXL with two wands and two mascaras, one for lengthening and the other for coloring by Maybelline.  She was visibly smirking at me as i paid at her register and i just know that her and that other woman buying make up talked about me as i left.  i saw the sales woman approach the woman who was watching us to help her as i was leaving. 
 
On Friday, i went to the bar that YOU told me to go to in Lancaster.  It was about 2:00 PM and there were two lesbian couples and one man in there besides the woman behind the bar.  Two of the women and the bar maid were women that i know only by name, just from going in there a couple of times a week.  i took a seat down at the far end of the bar right across from the men's restroom.  The other people were setting at the bar just a couple of stools down to my left.  The bar maid began to bring me a beer because she knows that  is what i always drink when i come in.  i told her that i wanted to try something else and asked her about wine coolers.  She recommended a malt drink that was watermelon flavored by Smirnoff.  It was in a clear bottle and the liquid was also clear.  So i ordered that.  i am a beer drinker, so it was too sweet for my tastes, but on this occasion that didn't matter.  i could taste the alcohol though very faintly.  When i was about half done with it i very discreetly took my bottle over by the jukebox which is just outside the men's room door and stuck a dollar in it and played three songs.  Then i carried my bottle into the rest room and took down my shorts and began to pee into the bottle filling it back up.  It had a small neck and opening so i spilled quite a bit of my piss down the sides.  Now, instead of clear, the liquid in my watermelon malt drink looked more like lemon-aid.  i quickly came out of the men's room and went to my seat on the bar and looking strait ahead, not wanting to engage in conversation or even a smile with the two women sitting to my left i began drinking my new drink as quickly as possible.  i quickly left the bar leaving the empty bottle and a dollar tip on the bar.  The piss in my drink definitely overpowered the watermelon flavor.  i do hope that YOU and YOUR friends get a good laugh at this.  
YOUR slut

 

07-08-06: Dear Miss Patty
i have completed my assignment for this week.  i have faithfully applied my Secret Rose scented deodorant each day, not only under my arms but also i have put a thick coat on my ball bag as well.
i have repeated my mantra every day, "my mouth, my clit, my cunt are YOUR'S Mistress to do with as YOU see fit, such a dirty little shit eating fag am i."
i have worn my red lipstick each and every time that i have left the house.  i am going to have to buy a new one, i have worn this one down to less than an inch of lipstick left in the tube.  Do YOU have a suggestion as to what shade i should buy this time?
i must confess some days i have smoked more than my allotted 4 Capri Menthol 120s.  Some days i have had to make as many as three trips to Lancaster and i smoke two on the way over and two on the way back.  So some days i have smoked as many as six or seven.  Each time i apply my lipstick to leave my sissy red lip print on the skinny little butt of the fag, fag that i am.
i have not had time to get on line to look at sissies sucking big cocks, though i have been fantasizing about sucking cock all week. 
i have not had any time alone at home this week to dress in my girly clothing or makeup. 
i am going to try to find an excuse to get to Columbus soon, i desperately need a real life session to continue my training.
YOUR slut

 

07-02-06: Dear Miss Patty
i followed YOUR instructions and used my Secret Rose scented deodorant every day, i repeated my mantra, "my mouth, my clit, and my cunt are YOUR'S to do with as YOU please Mistress, such a dirty little shit eating fag am i."  i smoked my four Capri Menthol 120s every day wearing my red slutty lipstick and leaving a nice red lip print on each of them.  i also wore my lipstick and ear rings while in my car. 
 
On Wednesday my wife went to town and i was able to get all girlied up.  When it was about an hour from the time i expected her home i cleaned myself up washing off my eye makeup and my lipstick, taking off my panties, bra, thigh-highs, and white top.  and removing the red nail polish from my finger nails.  Then she called and said that she was going to run up to the Home Depot at Canal Winchester.  i decided to try a new pink nail polish that i had bought when i bought a new bottle of nail polish remover i had bought the same day that i went to K-Mart.  i had just finished painting all ten nails when all of a sudden i heard her driving into the garage.  It turned out that she had changed her mind.  i panicked not knowing what to do i was in the bathroom with my nails painted a pretty shinny shade of pink and my remover was in the garage.  i heard her come in the back door and call my name,  i stuck my hands in my pockets and ran out the front door.  i ran around the house and into the garage and went to where the polish remover was hidden along with my other girly things.   i was over by my tool bench getting the nail polish remover when she came back into the garage, i was scared to death and just dropped down behind a partition that separates the side of the garage where we park the cars from the side that is my workshop and stayed quiet.  i could hear her getting something out of her car and then go back into the house.  i grabbed the remover and jumped in my car and drove to the park and sat in my car removing the polish.  i did a hurried job and still had pink down in the cuticle.  i then went to the store and bought some stuff so that when i got home and she asked me where i went (and she did) i could tell her that i ran to the store.  She was still very suspicious, but i had the remover in my pocket and made a beeline to the bathroom and locked the door and turned on the exhaust fan and cleaned my cuticles better.  i just hit the polish remover on a shelf in the bathroom behind some other things and returned it to it's hiding place later.  (She doesn't wear nail polish, so the remover would have been a tip off to her if she found it.)  She doesn't know what i was up to but i am sure that she knows that i was up to something.  It was just too close a call, and i hope that it never happens again, my heart was racing. 
 
As for my wanking all week, by Thursday my poor little clitty was very sore to the touch and it was painful to pull on it as long as it takes me to squirt now.  But i did persevere and finished my assignment.  i wanked every day from Monday through today and i must say that as the week has gone on, it is not only taken me longer and longer to cum, but the amount of my silly sauce has gotten smaller and smaller.  i kept it in a small tupper-ware sippy cup in the refrigerator in the garage behind a lot of other stuff.  i was worried all week that she would find it, but she rarely goes out there into that refrig, so i was lucky.  There is so much stuff in there that she would have had to have decided to clean it out to find it i believe.  i drank the whole weeks worth about a half hour ago and it was cold, gooey, and sticky.  i had the cup about one forth full, as YOU know, i don't have much sperm when i spill and it takes forever just to get that to shoot out.  To be truthful i only shot Monday and Tuesday, the rest of the week it just kind of dribbled it out. 
 
Thank YOU so much for allowing me to release my sissy sperm and for making this shit eating fag drink it. 
 
YOUR shit eating fag
06-25-06: Dear Miss Patty 
i wore my black panties twice this week and even had some time to myself on Thursday evening to get all girlied up with my bra and nail polish, lipstick, and eye shadow.  i wanted to e-mail YOU but half way through the attempt the electric went off and i lost the e-mail.  It didn't come back on for about two hours so all that i could do was sit out in the back yard and smoke my Capri Menthol 120s and then use my candle to fuck myself in my sissy pussy. 
 
i almost made some purchases for myself at K-Mart on Wednesday.  i was over town and my wife called me on my cell to stop at K-Mart and get laundry detergent because it was on sale.  i was browsing in the big women's section of the store and found a pair of khaki women's shorts that were on sale.   Then i went into the shoe department and found a very cute pair of flip flop sandals that had about an inch and a half heel on them in sizes that would fit my feet.  As i went on toward the laundry detergent i passed the women's purses and saw a cloth hand bag that had Tinker Bell from Disney's Peter Pan embroidered on it.  i went on and got the detergent and then on my way back to try to make up my mind which thing to buy i ran into one of my wife's friends.  That scared me off and i didn't buy any of the things i was looking at.  It was a good thing because when i got up to the front of the store to pay for the detergent there were only two registers open and both were being run by people i knew.  i am going to have to find a K-Mart somewhere else if try to buy any of those things.  i really don't have anywhere else to hide any of that stuff anyway. 
 
i followed YOUR instructions this week and smoked my 4 Capri's every day, said my mantra twice every day for a half hour each time, wore my sluttiest red (and some dark burgundy) lipstick every time i went somewhere in the car and i put my Secret Rose scented deodorant on every day.  i did not have and opportunity to look at big cocks and cock sucking sissies on the computer this week. 
 
i am not sure about my coming to Columbus on the 29th now, i am going to have to play it by ear because of my mother and my sister and wife's schedules.  i am very anxious to see YOU though.  i will try to let YOU know for sure by Tuesday what is happening. 
 
YOUR sissy slut

 

06-18-06: Dear Miss Patty  
i wore my very red lipstick when i was out in the car and when out on the highway i even wore my longest pair of dangly ear rings.  
 
When i went to buy my Capri Menthol 120s this week, the girl at the drive through brought me Misty Menthol instead, the time before the same girl had brought me Virginia Slims instead of my Capris.  i didn't think too much of it that time.  Both times i told her that she had the wrong cigarettes and that i wanted Capri.  The first time she just said oh, and took the Virginia Slims back and brought me my Capri.  On Wednesday when she brought me my Capris after taking the Mistys back she made the comment that she couldn't remember which "women's cigarettes it was that i smoked"  and then she told me that i should switch because Capris are more expensive. i just grinned at her and said that i would stick with the Capris. 
 
i have been repeating my mantra a lot this week, "my mouth, my clit, my cunt are YOURS Mistress to do with as YOU see fit, such a dirty little shit eating fag am i." 
i have not had any time alone this week. 
YOUR slut pig

 

06-11-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
my wife left the house at 6:00 this morning to go help my daughter in law get ready for a yard sale today and tomorrow.  As soon as she left i got up and went to the garage to get my girly things.  i am sitting here writing to YOU wearing my red crotchless panties, my black thigh highs, and my fascia bra.  i have the cups stuffed and my little clit is hanging out through the slit in the panties.  i have my cock harness on that has the strap that comes up from the back of my ball sack and separates them.  i am wearing my longest dangly ear rings and my newest brightest red lipstick.  my fingernails, which need clipped badly (they are sticking out just beyond the tips of my fingers) are painted a dark red.  i have just finished smoking my first Capri Menthol 120 of the day and am drinking a cup of coffee leaving bright red lip prints on the rim of the cup.  When i finish this e-mail to YOU i am going to smoke another Capri and then find something resembling a big dick to practice sucking on. 
 
On Tuesday i was running some errands in Lancaster so i stopped in at the "lez" bar.  There were four women (two couples) in there and just one older man with a scraggly grey beard.  i sat there drinking a beer and soon he got up and went to the men's room.  When he came out i waited a few minutes, as YOU instructed, and then went in.  i felt safe because he was the only other male in the bar and he had just used the restroom, so no one should walk in on me.  i squatted in front of the urinal and holding on to the sides, began licking the rim from the bottom up both sides, then i stuck my face in the urinal and took one long lick from the bottom all the way to the top.  Then i hurriedly left the mens room.  i went back to my seat at the bar and ordered a straight shot of vodka which i drank in two gulps, swishing both around in my mouth before swallowing.  Then i left the bar. 
 
i have been wearing my Secret Rose scented deodorant every day, applying it under my arms and across my chest and coating my ball sack with it.  i have not had an opportunity to look at porn on the computer, but i have been making time to be by myself to repeat my mantra "my mouth, my clit, my cunt is YOURS Mistress, to do with as YOU see fit.  Such a dirty little shit eating fag am i."
 
i do hope that if YOU get this e-mail in time YOU will give me permission to release, i am so horney.  If i could get a hard on i would be walking around with one almost constantly, since i can not get it hard, it just leaks pre cum constantly. 
 
YOUR pig slut

 

06-04-06: Dear Mistress Patty
 
i have completed my assignment this week.  i wore my fusia panties and pantyhose to work each day, with no socks.  i wore my cock harness each day and put on a heavy coat of rose scented Secret Deodorant under each arm and also coated my little ball sack and clit with the sweet smelling rose scented Secret. 
 
i wore my dark red lipstick in the car to and from work each day and smoked my four Capri Menthol 120s each day wearing my slutty red lipstick.  i would repeat out loud in the car on the way to work each day, "my mouth, my clit, my cunt are YOURS Mistress to do with as you please, such a dirty little shit eating fag am i."
 
Each and every time after i shit this week i would retrieve a turd from the pot and holding it in my hands with the toilet water and my piss still running down over my hands from fishing it out of the toilet i would put it up close to my nose and inhale deeply smelling my shit for the five minutes YOU required, and though it was not required, on a few occasions i would lick the turd from end to end before returning it to the pot and flushing down the sewer. 
 
i hope that i will be seeing YOU soon and i will let YOU know when i can make arrangements to come to Columbus.
 
Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU.
YOUR sissy shit eating fag

05-28-06: My sissy slut has had a family emergency happen recently so the new update for her will take place next week. Keep an eye out.

Mistress Patty

05-14-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i wore my panties to work every day this week and used three pads and three tampons each day.  On Thursday i needed a new box of tampons, so i followed YOUR instructions and applied my lightest shade of mauve lipstick and trying to keep my lips pressed together went into Walgreen's to buy a new box.  The woman who waited on me at the check out counter smiled at me but didn't say anything, i don't know if she could tell i was wearing lipstick or was only smiling because i was buying tampons, or both. 
 
i did not get paid until Friday and had no time to get my money sent to YOU for the items YOU want me to buy.  i will send YOU $80 Monday.  If YOU are buying any of these items for me, i believe that i only take a 3X, or size 24-26. 
 
i believe that i will be coming to Columbus after work sometime the week of the 22nd. i will let YOU know when i know more for sure. 
 
YOUR slut

 

04-30-06: Dear Miss Patty
 my assignments this past week were very humiliating and exhausting.  i went to my doctors appointment wearing my black panties and my stockings, i had my toe nails painted a slutty shade of bright red.  i was scared to death that he may want me to disrobe for some reason, or want to check my pulse at my ankles because of my diabetes, but fortunately none of that happened.  When i got out to my car i put on my slutty red lipstick and a pair of my longest dangly ear rings.  i drove directly to the Speedway station across from Meijer and parked my car.  i removed my ear rings but left my lipstick on.  i pressed my lips tightly together and went into the station, i felt very exposed on my way to the restroom door and walked very quickly.  Luckily for me no one was in the restroom.  i entered and locked the door as YOU ordered. i removed all my clothing except for my panties and stockings.  i pulled my panties down and peed a small puddle on the floor just in front of the toilet.  After just a few seconds of peeing on the floor i knew by the size of the puddle that if i emptied my bladder thee would be no way for me to lick it all up in a reasonable time.  So i finished emptying my bladder in the toilet.  i then got down on my hands and knees as YOU instructed and began licking the piss from the floor.  Besides the wet urine, i could feel the grit from the floor on my tongue.  The floor was cold to my knees, toes, and arms.  To get my face on the floor i braced myself on my forearms rather than my hands.  It was most difficult to lick up.  When i used my tongue it seemed like i was just pushing the puddle into a wider circle and licking up more grit than pee.  i ended up placing my puckered lips to the puddle and sucking in as much of my piss as i could.  i was still down on my arms and knees and there was still a large wet spot on the floor when someone knocked.  i jumped up and said just a minute.  i hurriedly put on my pants, shirt, and shoes.  i then pulled a large wad of toilet paper off the spool and tried to wipe up what was left of the puddle as quickly as i could.  i also used some toilet paper to quickly wipe the lipstick from my lips.  i threw the tp into the toilet and flushed, while the toilet was flushing i tried to check my  face in the mirror.  i quickly exited the restroom, who ever knocked had moved away from the door, and i made a be-line for my car outside.  i smoked two cigarettes before i got out of Lancaster and headed towards home.  When i got home i just felt so dirty, and i knew i had to stay in my panties and stockings until an hour before my wife was due home, but i had to take a shower, i just felt so dirty.  After my shower i put my panties and an different pair of stockings back on.  When it got to be about 2:30 PM i began to change out of my panties and stockings.  It took a good bit of time to get the nail polish off of my toe nails.  i feel that i may becoming too addicted to these dangerous and unhealthy humiliations, but as disgusting as they are they do give me a rush afterwards.  i must be crazy.
 
i do hope that my adventures this week amuse YOU and YOUR friends.  i am anxious to serve YOU in person soon.
 
YOUR sissy pig slut

 

04-23-06:

Dear Miss Patty
 
i have worn YOUR black panties every day since i got YOUR e-mail on Wednesday.  i have also worn my black thigh-highs and my cock and ball harness.  i went to Meijers this week and bought myself a new lipstick, it is a dark brown.  i have never worn this shade before.  i have been wearing my slutty red lipstick and my long dangly ear rings when in the car all week as YOU have ordered. 
 
As for my toilet licking assignment, i must admit that i was only able to complete my assignment in 3 public toilets this week instead of the 5 YOU ordered.  i did not get YOUR instructions until Wednesday and there was just not an opportunity to complete my assignment.  i again went to the Bottle Cap and was lucky that on Friday when i was there, there were only a few people in the bar and they were all women. It was early in the afternoon and i quickly went into the men's room and licked the rim. On Thursday i went to Meijers, to get some garden soil and mulch, and when i left i went across 33 to the Speedway station, i used the men's room there and was able to complete my assignment for the full five minutes. Today i had errands to run in town and stopped at a restaurant in Lancaster and rubbed my sissy clit until it came on the rim of the toilet, i then licked my cum from the rim as instructed, some of it did slide down into the toilet though. 
 
YOUR slut pig

 

04-16-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i have completed my assignment for last week.  It was quite exciting and scary as well.  my wife is over town, she just left about 40 minutes ago and i immediately got all girlly with my eye make up, ear rings, nail polish, and red lipstick.  i am sitting here in my black thong that YOU so generously gave me and my cock and ball harness on.  i also have on my bra, stuffed of course, and my black knee highs.  i have to meet her over town at 4:30, and i have to mow the grass before i leave which will take about 30 minutes, so i will need to start cleaning up around 3:30 or so.  i have smoked 2 of my Capri Menthol 120s so far and am my clitty is all tingly and wet. 
 
On Tuesday i had a hair cut appointment at the beauty salon, so that was my first public rest room to get on my knees and lick the porcelain toilet ring.  i locked the bathroom door and lifted the seat then began licking.  There was a curly black hair on it and i licked it up while cleaning the rim with my tongue.  It thrilled me to know that it was mostly women who had been sitting on that seat.  On Wednesday, after work i stopped in Lancaster at a bar called the Bottle Cap.  It is on South Columbus street and is a pretty rough place, but a lot of lesbians hang out in there.  i stop in there about once a week.  i sometimes get lucky (about once or twice a month) and find a receptive lesbian couple that will allow me to sit with them and buy them drinks.  On Wednesday there were no men in the bar when i got there and only three women.  Two of which i know are lesbians.  i bought them a round and then went to the men's room.  The door to the rest room does not lock and there is just one urinal and a toilet in the men's room.  i got down and quickly began licking the toilet rim like instructed.  i probably only licked it for about two or three minutes though as i was scared to death that someone would come into the bar and have to go to the rest room.  It was pretty disgusting as it was wet.  Someone had missed the pot and there was piss on the rim and floor.  i thought that i might retch coming out of there.  i finished my beer and left.  When i got home i washed my mouth out and gargled about a half dozen times.  my third public rest room was at Meijer.  While my wife was out in the garden center looking at flowers and plants i went to the rest room, went into the stall and closed and locked the stall door and got down and licked the rim of the pot for five minutes.  One person came in and used the urinal while i was in the stall.  i quickly turned and sat on the toilet until i heard them leave.  That was on Saturday. This was the most risky and disgusting assignment that YOU have given me in some time.  But i had to do it.  Of course i licked the rim at home and work all week. 
 
i have not had much computer time Saturday or Sunday and just got on today to e-mail YOU my report.   i will begin looking for sissy fags like myself as soon as i finish this e-mail to YOU and then i will have to get cleaned up and mow the grass before leaving for Lancaster.   
 
i will check my e-mail about every 10 to 15 minutes up till the time i leave.  i do hope to hear from YOU.
 
YOUR sissy slut slave

 

04-08-06: Dear Miss Patty  
i am sitting here now with my crotchless panties, my old cock and ball harness that covers my cock and balls completely, my bra with the breathing mask titties in the cups, my new top, and a pair of thigh highs on.  i have pink nail polish on my fingernails, dark blue eye shadow, eye liner, mascara, and the lipstick i bought that does not come off unless i use baby oil to get it off.  On top of the lip paint i have a heavy coat of shinny lip gloss that makes my lips look all wet and ready to suck.  i also have three pair of my longest dangly ear rings hanging from my ear lobes.  Three on each ear.  i have already smoked two of my Capri Menthol 120a and will probably violate my 4 cigarette limit before noon today.  i apologies in advance for that.
 
i have been looking at pictures of T-girls sucking each other off and have read a story about a male slave forced to get butt fucked by a dog while sucking off another dog while a group of Women watch and laugh at him.  Am i a pervert or what? 
 
Wife won't be home until early afternoon, and though i have a few chores to do, i will be dressed all morning.  Please e-mail me if YOU get this before noon and give me some more instructions.  i took my morning shit in the upstairs bathroom and didn't flush, so it is still there if YOU decide to have me make some use of it. 
 
i followed YOUR instructions this week with my period and used 12 tampons and pads.  Chewing those used tampons is hard on the teeth and jaw.  It especially gets difficult if there is a thick coat of shit on it.  Kind of makes you want to gag.  
 
i do hope that YOU are around and that i will hear from YOU today. 
 
YOUR slut whore

 

04-02-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i am sorry that i was not able to e-mail YOU yesterday.  i have been having computer trouble and i don't know how long this thing is going to keep working.  For some reason it keeps freezing up on me and the only thing i can do is keep turning it off and trying to start over. 
 
i did have quite a week.  First of all my crotchless panties with no underwear kept my little clitty head rubbing against my trousers and a couple of times i had little nickel size wet spots in the front of my pants.  i had to continually worry about my stockings showing between the bottoms of my pant legs and the tops of my shoes.  i did wear my crotchless panties at home two different days, but i could not risk the thigh highs.
 
It was extremely hard to smoke only one cigarette in the car on the way to and from work.  All together i ended up eating 16 spoonfuls of shit this week (2 per cigarette over my limit of two a day for a total of 8 cigarettes over my limit) After the first day i got an old measuring spoon and used it to measure my two tablespoons of shit for each cigarette over 2. Taking that much into my mouth at a time and having to actually chew each spoonful ten times was tough, i gagged on about half or more of those spoonfuls.  It is much easier to take little marble size bites and allow it to dissolve between my tongue and the roof of my mouth. 
 
YOUR slut

 

3-26-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i have worn my fuchsia panties and cock harness all day this week.  i even wore them when i went to the blood lab and when i had lunch with my son.  i have been using my deodorant all week as well. 
 
Every day on my way to and from work i repeat my mantra, "my mouth, my clit, my cunt are YOUR"S to use as YOU see fit Mistress, such a dirty little dicked shit eating slut am i."
 
i have been smoking my Capri Menthol 120s as well.  i smoked one on my way to see my son at lunch the other day and when i met him in the restaurant he commented that i smelled like smoke.  i told him that i didn't know why.  i believe that he must have said something to my wife because yesterday when i came in from the garage she also accused me of smoking. She said that i reeked of tobacco.  i am going to have to be more careful.
 
i have just finished looking at some pictures of girls sucking big cocks and imagining that it was me sucking on those monster cocks and taking all that cum in my mouth and having it smeared all over my face.  i have also been reading some good stories that are getting me all hot and bothered about forced CBT, chastity, and cock sucking, pussy eating, and ass licking, along with a few i found with a scat theme. 
 
i have been spending my time in the bathroom all this week pulling on my little clity until it spewed it's silly sauce then licking it up as YOU have ordered me to do.  after just two days the head of my clit was so sore that it hurt to touch it, i began using baby oil to lubricate and ease the pain.  Reading all this porn and looking at all those pictures have made it easy to stay aroused, but it does take a long time for me to shoot my load.  i just spent about a half an hour in the bathroom while my wife was away and had to apply my baby oil three times before i finally came. 
 
i do hope that all this amuses YOU and YOUR friends.  i look forward to seeing YOU again so that YOU can use me in person.  i know that i can get up there some time in early May, but i will work to try to find a way before that.
 
YOUR slut

 

03-19-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i have followed YOUR instructions this week, wearing my crotchless panties and cock harness all day at work.  i feel so exposed when i wear those panties without my own underwear over them.  The head of my little clit rubs against my trousers making me all horny all day.  i continue to use my girly deodorant every day and will soon need to buy more. 
 
my wife has left for church and is then going to Lancaster to my son's house.  i am supposed to meet them there at 9:30, so i am a little rushed since i decided to take the time to put on my bra and new top this morning.  i am also wearing my fuchsia bra and panties and a pair of long dangly ear rings with my dark plum lipstick and a little mascara on my lashes.  i was in Lowes the other day and picked up a pack of the white safety masks that you wear working with insulation or fumes.  They are shaped just like breast forms.  So i have those inside my bra giving me a nice pair of large breasts.  They are not nearly as nice as the silicone forms that i left with YOU, but they do give me some shape up there.  Especially with the little belt that is attached to the back of my top pulled tight and tied in a bow in the back.  It pulls the front of the top in under my breasts and makes them stand out even more. 
 
i have been smoking my Capri Menthol 120s and looking at cock suckers sucking cock on the web as instructed.  i am getting so horny.  Especially since my little clitty was kept so aroused all last week.  i say my mantra every day in the car on my way to work and on my way home. 
 
i must confess to taking very small (marble size) bites of my shit this week as YOU instructed.  If i just rolled it around with my tongue against the roof of my mouth it mostly dissolved and then i would swallow the melted shit and any that did not dissolve.
 
i can't wait to model my new top for YOU.  i do hope that i can come up with a reason to get to Columbus soon.  The next time i know of for sure is sometime in early or mid May. 
 
YOUR sissy shit eating slut

 

03-12-06: Dear Miss Patty 
i just got home from work and my wife just called and said she was going to Odd Lots in Lancaster and that she would be home in about an hour.  i am now wearing my dark plumb colored lipstick and my dangly ear rings.  i smoked my four Capri Menthol 120s today.  Friday, Saturday and Sunday i only got to smoke a total of 6, three Friday, two Saturday and only one yesterday.  i just could not get away or even out to the garage. 
 
i got YOUR e-mail on Tuesday morning and was able to try my assignment Tuesday when i got to work.  After getting to work on Tuesday i put my new top on under my shirt but it definitely showed through.  So instead of wearing it at work every day, i wore it on the way home each afternoon.  On Wednesday i went into Carnival Foods and just had my jacket on over it with the jacket unzipped half way down. The lace at the top showed through the opening of my jacket, i did get a lot of stares from female shoppers and the black girl at the cash register got a big kick out of it.  She asked me to see my top.  i quickly unzipped my jacket the rest of the way down and showed her.  Then i zipped it back half way up quickly. She just smiled and told me that she liked it.  Now i am afraid to go back in there with my wife. we do shop there occasionally.  On Thursday i did the same at Value City.  The clerk there, an older lady just looked at me and smiled, but she did not comment. 
 
i have been saying my mantra every day and wearing my panties and cock harness as instructed.  i also had my period this week and have gone through about a dozen tampons and about half that many pads.  i did have a good excuse to lock the bathroom door here at home on Friday and Saturday,  the major problem those days was what to do with the wrappers.  i smuggled them out and threw them away in the bottom of the garbage bag. 
 
i do hope that this was alright.  i am anxious to here from YOU and to try to make arrangements to come to Columbus soon. 
 
YOUR slut slave

 

03-05-06: Dear Mistress Patty 
i am sorry that i could not make it down to Lake Hope.  i bet YOU had a good time though.  i wore my black panties and stockings all week at work as ordered, smoked my faggy Capri Menthol 120s and have been looking at cocks being sucked on the internet all week.  At least every chance i got.  i say my mantra every day and have been fantasizing all week about serving YOU and sucking cock and eating pussy for YOUR amusement.
 
i went to Value City last Thursday and bought a white pull over top that fits me.  It has lace around the top and lace across the chest, just over and under where the boobs would be in a large woman.  It hangs down long, below the waist, and has a white belt that can be tied around the mid section.  It is a real fine material and is cut low, though it is not a V neck, it is like something a larger woman who wants to show off her boobs would wear.  i do hope that it meets with YOUR satisfaction. 
 
i do hope that YOU will tell me about YOUR weekend at Lake Hope and i am anxious to see YOU again and to know what YOU want me to do with the blouse.  my wife is not home from work yet so i am wearing my dangly ear rings and some very dark plum lipstick. 
 
i hope to hear from YOU about my assignment for this week soon.  In the meantime i am continuing to wear my black lace panties and my black pantyhose.  Though thigh- highs would be soooooo much easier. 
 YOUR shit eating faggot

 

02-26-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
This has been a busy week.  i would like to know if YOU have given me an imposable assignment, just so YOU could laugh at my frustrations.  i have been to Fashion Bug Plus, Cathrines, Value City, and two other women's apparel stores at Westland Mall in Columbus (which is practically empty i might add.  i had a meeting in Columbus Thursday afternoon and stopped there on the way home)  i have never heard of Sizes Unlimited, is that in Lancaster?  Any way, every place that i have looked, there are no short skirts in size 24 -26, which is according to the Penneys Catalog what i take.  Everything was at least mid calf or longer.  i couldn't even find a dress that was less than mid calf.  A little old gray haired lady followed me around Fashion Bug Plus and when i finally told her what i was looking for she just shook her head and said that they didn't have anything like that.  i will look at Sizes Unlimited if YOU can tell me where they are located.  Or... If YOU approve, perhaps YOUR friend who sews could make me one and that way YOU could even pick out the color and the material.  i would of course pay for the materials and for her work.  i am not trying to avoid the humiliation of buying one in a store, it's just that i can not find one to buy. 
 
i have taken a small bite of my shit each and every time i have a BM as YOU have instructed me to.  i will admit that i have taken very small bites.  i continue to smoke my faggy Capri Menthol 120s every day, just four a day, and to say my mantra.  i have gone to the web site with the cock sucking and smoking pictures that flash and almost become mesmerized by them twice this week.  i am still fantasizing about eating a cream pie from the pussy of a disgustingly dirty and smelly woman and then licking her dirty ass hole. Such a disgusting pig am i. 
 
i hope to hear from YOU soon. Especially about what to do about not finding a skirt.
 
YOUR slut

 

02-20-06: Dear Miss Patty
Since i did not get orders from YOU for last week, i continued to do my usual assignments.  i wore my black lacy thong that YOU so generously gave me to work each day along with my cock harness.  i wore my lipstick and smoked my Capri Menthol 120s every day on the way to and from work.  i repeated my mantra, "my mouth, my cunt, and my clitty are YOUR'S to use as YOU please, such a shit eating sissy faggot am i"  every day.  i used my rose scented deodorant three times a day also.  i hope that it will please YOU to learn that i also gave myself a toilet assignment.  Every time that i took a shit, i would wipe myself, then before dropping the toilet paper into the toilet i would lick the shit stain on it.  Then before flushing i would stick my face into the bowl and kiss each turd.  i do hope that the thought of that gives YOU and YOUR friends a good laugh. 
 
Since it is President's Day i did not have to go to work today.  my wife went over town and i have to meet her there soon.  But right now i am sitting here in my red crotchless panties with my cock and balls harnessed and sticking through the slit in the panties.  i have on a bra and i am wearing lipstick and long dangly ear rings. 
 
i read sissy britany's report and she is right, i am very much more into degradation and humiliation than she seems to be.  But i do think that she is a very sexy slut and would enjoy meeting her again. 
 
i can't help but fantasize about being degraded and humiliated.  i imagine myself naked crawling around on the floor oinking and grunting like a pig while YOU and YOUR girlfriends laugh at me and swat me with a crop.  i am forced to eat slop out of a trough and to stick my nose and face into piles of shit. 
 
i think of myself as being used to bring pleasure to both men and women using my mouth and tongue.  One fantasy i keep having is being made to orally satisfy a smelly unwashed woman who has not douched since her last period.  Or being made to eat out an old and ugly prostitute who has two or three loads of cum inside her from her last customers and then to tongue out her ass.  She is yelling at me telling me how pathetic and worthless i am while YOU are watching and laughing at me. 
  
i hope that i will hear from YOU soon.
 
YOUR shit eating slut

 

02-12-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i had a great visit with YOU and YOUR friends.  i only wish that YOU had allowed me to suck a cock.  But it was very humiliating laying on the floor with my face in a bowl of shit while YOU and YOUR friend laughed at me and degraded me. 
 
i have been wearing my pads and inserting tampons in my pussy all week.  i have sucked the used tampons clean for five minutes as YOU have ordered.  A few times they were quite nasty, with the tip being all brown.  Perhaps someday i will have an opportunity to suck a tampon from a superior Female that will be red instead of brown.  Again, that is something that is up to YOU. 
 
i hope to hear about my next assignment soon. 
 
YOUR shit eating whore

 

02-05-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i am getting more and more excited as the time draws near for me to come and see YOU.  i have been following YOUR instructions this week and have been sucking on anything that i can find that even resembles a cock.  i have sucked on a cucumber, a banana, a tube of hair gel, my two fingers, a candle, and the neck of a wine bottle.
 
i have taken small bites of my shit and swallowed them this week, but yesterday i took too big of a bite and ended up gagging and heaving.  my successes with swallowing were with very small bites.  Yesterday i took about half a mouth full and that was too much to swallow.  i didn't have any trouble holding it in my mouth but when i began chewing and trying to swallow i started gagging. 
 
i found a really good website to condition me for my cock sucking and for smoking.  It is Hypnotic Wishes.  It is a large site with lots of pages but i found a page with "hypnotic flash automation"  it flashes pictures of women sucking big cocks really fast, another one flashes pictures of women smoking long cigarettes really fast.  The address at the top of the page is http://www.hypnoticwishes.com/adult/feminized/index.shtml i don't know if that will connect YOU or not if YOU want to check it out.  The ones i clicked on were "cock suck" and "cock sucker program 1"  i also clicked on the different smoking animations too, "smoke" and "glamour smoke".  i have also gone to adult sites that match people up and searched for TVs that are listed with pictures.  i have begun to have fantasies about making out with a TV in public.  What is happening to me?
 
i hope that it will amuse YOU and YOUR friends to know that i had a heck of a time at work this week with my little tiny dicky sticking out of those red crotch less panties and the head rubbing against the front of my trousers all day.  i didn't do much standing in front of people, i was constantly trying to find a reason to sit. 
 
i hope that i will hear from YOU Sunday or early Monday about any further instructions for Tuesday.  It seems that the weather i going to be cooperating ( i will keep my fingers crossed on that, don't want to jinx it ) i do hope that YOU have considered my request about my trip home.  i hope to hear from YOU soon. 
 
YOUR cock sucking, shit eating slut

 

01-29-06:

Dear Miss Patty
 
i have completed my assignment for this week, holding and smelling one of my turds for at least five minutes each and every time i had a BM.  i could not resist the last two times i took the turd in my hand and after smelling it for the required 5 minutes i licked the entire length of it like it was a giant brown poop-sickle, without the stick of course.  i licked each turd about a dozen times before disposing of it in the pot.  i even got a little brown on the tip of my nose both time i did this.  It is a good thing that i looked in the mirror before leaving the bathroom.  i repeated my chant to myself each time i was inhaling the aroma of my shit for YOU and YOUR friends amusement. 
 
On Thursday i stopped to get a pack of my Capri Menthol 120s and they were out.  i didn't know what to say, so i asked for a pack of Menthol Virginia Slims, i got a pack of Luxury Ultra Light Menthol 120s.  i am now finishing that pack.  They seem so big around after smoking my Capris for so long.  They are milder than the Capris and i do enjoy them i just wish that they were not so big around.  When i asked for the Virginia Slims after having to think of what to ask for when the girl told me that they were out of Menthol Capris she got a big grin on her face (when i told her that i wanted the 120s) and i could tell that she was thinking, "what a fag"  i could have just asked for the Capris that were not menthol, but i have always smoked menthol and didn't know if i would like or be able to handle regular cigarettes. 
 
i bought my rose scented deodorant Thursday also, they did not have it in roll on or gel so i had to get the solid deodorant stick, i do hope that is okay. 
 
i am very anxious to see YOU on the 7th and do hope that YOU will have some of YOUR friends there to share in my humiliation and to degrade me and laugh at me, and see what a worthless shit eating cock sucker i am. 
 
i hope that i will hear from YOU soon.
YOUR shit eating slut

 

01-22-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i completed this weeks assignments without too much trouble.  The hardest part was when i was at work, licking the toilet seat and the rim of the toilet while repeating my mantra "my mouth, my clit, my cunt, are YOUR'S to do with as YOU see fit Mistress, such a dirty little shit eating fag am i."  Staying in the men's room with the door locked for a full ten minutes after i did my business, pee or poop or both, caused there to be someone waiting for me to come out a couple of times.  Doing it at home after work while my wife was not home yet was much less intense.  i could take my time and do my task and say my prayer for a full 30 minutes. 
 
my lacy black panties caused me to be sexually excited most of the day at work and at the end of the day i would have a wet spot in the front of them.  Then by the end of the week those continued wet spots became one larger spot of dried pre-cum.  i hope that YOU do not mind, but i sucked and licked the dried cum from them on Friday afternoon.  That made my little clitty all the more excited.  
  
YOUR shit eating slut whore

 

01-14-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
It was a scary week at work wearing my black stockings and no socks. After Monday i wore a different pair of shoes the rest of the week.  i have a pair of shoes that come up over the ankles and i felt a lot safer wearing them.  One of the women i work with was looking down toward my ankles on Monday, she never said anything, but when she saw me look at her she looked away. 
 
As for my other assignment, all went well except for Thursday night.  At work i just took a small, dime size scoop of shit to allow to dissolve in my mouth while pulling on my little sissy clitty and reciting my chant. That was two of my BMs.  On Thursday afternoon, when i was home, i took a huge mouth full, with my cheeks bulging i sat on the pot and pulled on my clitty for the five minutes.  Then as i rose from the pot to turn and push the shit from my slut mouth, i began to gag and though i managed to spit most of it out, some did slide down my throat.  i was able to taste shit and even burped shit the rest of the night.  Then about 3:00 AM on Friday i woke up nauseous, and ended up going to the pot and throwing up.  It was mostly my supper, but it did have a slight shit smell to it.  Fortunately my wife did not wake up and when i got back to bed, around 3:40 AM my nausea had ended and by 5:30 i was feeling normal when i got up.  i took a much smaller amount in my mouth Friday when i sat on the pot and was able to bring my clitty to climax.  Thank YOU for allowing me to do that. 
 
i guess i am a stupid whore, since i am sitting here writing to YOU drinking another of my special coffees, YOU know the one, my CRAP-A-CHINO.  There is a nice half dollar size lump of shit floating in my coffee cup. 
   
 
YOUR sissy shit eating whore

 

1-08-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i want YOU to know that i am sitting here having my second ever cup of CRAP-A-CHINO.  This time i shit directly into the cup, one of those big soup bowl cups, then poured the coffee directly over it.  No sugar, no cream, just Folgers Dark Roast and about 8 inches of turd.  It was quite a feat hitting the bowl, i put newspapers down in case i missed, and my first turd did miss, but my aim improved with the second one.
 
i had my period this past week, and wearing a thong with a tampon up inside you is not exactly a fun thing to do.  Also the panty liners were in the front covering my little tiny boy clit while the tampon was in the back being pushed up inside me even more because the thong kept riding up. 
 
i am a very horny slut and i do hope that YOU will consider allowing me to cum this week.  i am very anxious to come up to see YOU in Feb.  For some reason i have been fantasizing about sucking cock, keep adding to the fantasy i sent YOU. 
 
i hope that i will hear from YOU soon. 
 
YOUR cock sucking, piss drinking, shit eating, whore

 

01-01-06: Dear Miss Patty
 
i hope that YOU had a great New Year's Eve and have an even better New Year's Day.
 
i am home alone and since it is the first day of 2006, i decided that YOU would probably expect me to start the new year in some way that would reflect what a worthless piglet i truly am.  i do hope that this is not too presumptuous of me. 
 
After my wife left to go to the grocery store over town, i put on my new black thong that YOU so generously gave me, some lipstick, a pair of dangly ear rings, and my sweet smelling deodorant.  Naturally i also have on my cock and ball harness.  Then i felt the urge, and had to go to the bathroom.  So while sitting on the pot taking my first shit of 2006, i tried to think of some creative way to amuse YOU and YOUR friends.  At first i considered taking a big mouthful of shit and holding it for as long as possible, but i have already done that many times for YOUR amusement, next i thought of applying a coat of shit lipstick over the dark red lipstick that already covered my cock sucking lips, but i have also done that for YOU and YOUR friends amusement many times.  Then as i reached for my coffee cup to take a drink it hit me.  i reached into the toilet and took hold of a turd that was about four inches long and i plopped it down into my cup.  Then i went to the kitchen and poured more coffee into the cup filling it to within a quarter inch of the brim.  i took a spoon and swirled the coffee around the turd for a few seconds, and now i am sitting here writing this e-mail to YOU while drinking my cup of brewed shit-coffee.  i am going to have to make sure that i rinse this cup out and wash it good before my wife gets home, but i am going to finish the pot of coffee in the coffee maker first. 
 
i do hope that YOU and YOUR friends find this amusing and that all of YOU have a great New Year's. 
 
i hope that i will hear from YOU soon for my next assignment and i do apologies for being so tardy with my last report. 
 
YOUR slut piglet and cock sucking, shit eating whore


 

12-30-05:  Dear Miss Patty: Thank YOU very much for using me as YOUR toilet last week.  i want YOU to know that i greatly appreciated the black thong YOU gave me to wear.  i have worn it for at least a couple of hours every day since YOU gave it to me.  i have it on right now.  YOU gave me that assignment to fantasize about sucking the cock of one of my co-workers.  i do hope that my fantasy amuses YOU and YOUR friends.
 
Normally i will get to work early so that i can put on my panties and cock harness in the men's room before anyone gets there.  But this day i am late.  i have removed my pants and underwear and put on my cock and ball harness and have removed my shirt to put on my lilac scented women's deodorant, and have just kneeled on the floor in front of the pot which i have just shit a big turd into and am reciting my mantra..."my cock, my cunt, and my mouth are YOUR'S to do with as YOU please Mistress, such a cock sucking sissy fagot am i."  When all of a sudden the restroom door flies open and in walks the custodian.  This man is about 5' 10" tall and real skinny except for a small pouch for a stomach.  He has a short cut salt and pepper beard and wears his hair long enough that it covers about half of his ears.  He is about 40 and has a strong body odder about him.  i doubt that he showers or bathes more than once a week.  You can never find him when you need him, though he regularly sits in the employee lounge in the middle of the day reading the paper.  Because of his BO some women have complained about him being in the lounge at all, especially at lunch time.  He catches me in my panties kneeling in front of the toilet bowl and even hears part of my mantra.  He threatens to expose me if i do not do exactly as he says.  He leads me from the men's room down to the boiler room in the basement of the building.  There is an old dinette set there with four chairs.  He drops his pants and underwear and sits on one of the chairs.  He orders me to kneel in front of him and then to beg to suck his dick.  i hesitate and he slaps me in the face then grabs me by the hair on my head and asks, "Isn't there something you want to ask me?"  i beg to be allowed to suck his dick.  He laughs and then i start sucking his cock.  His crotch stinks of urine and sweat.  He takes his hands and puts them on the back of my head forcing my face into his crotch.  He tells me to start sucking his dick and calls me fagot and cock sucker.  His cock is long and thick and he forces my face down so that it is deep in my throat.  He orders me to start sucking or else.  As i bob my head up and down on his manhood i get many of his pubic hairs in my mouth.  He keeps calling me names and telling me how he knows how much i enjoy sucking cock.  He tells me that from now on i will come to the boiler room each morning to put on my panties and cock harness and that i will begin each day sucking his dick.  He even threatens to bring some others to watch or get their dicks sucked too, whichever they prefer.  When he is ready to blow his load into my mouth he warns me that i had better swallow every drop, or i will be licking up any i drop from the floor while he will be beating my ass.  When he has quit squirting his semen into my mouth and i have swallowed it all i begin to wipe my mouth and try to spit out the pubic hair that is still in my mouth.  He slaps me and tells me to savor the taste and that i am not allowed to spit out the hair.  Then he laughs at me and insists that i thank him for allowing me to suck his cock and swallow his cum.  i thank him and then he orders me to show my appreciation by kissing his ass.  i try to just kiss his ass cheeks, but he orders me to stick my tongue into his ass hole, it is dirty and stinks.  Then he tells me that after work i am to report back down to the boiler room and that i will have the privilege of sucking his cock again and then since i must like to be on my knees in the bathrooms he is going to allow me to scrub the toilets and urinals and the bathroom floor on my hands and knees as soon as everyone has left the building.  He tells me that i had better do a very good job because if there are any spots that he does not think are clean enough i will be using my tongue to clean them again.  Before i can leave that evening i must kiss his ass again and thank him for allowing me to clean the toilets and suck his cock.  He tells me he will see me bright and early the next day for his blow job. 
 
i do hope that YOU enjoy my fantasy and that YOUR friends all get a good laugh at me as well. 
 
i anxiously await YOUR next assignment, though i don't blame YOU if YOU make me wait for it.  i do know that YOU will make it interesting.  
 
YOUR cock sucking, cum eating, shit licking, piss drinking, whore

 

12-17-05: Dear MsPatty
i believe that YOU and YOUR friends will find this e-mail quite amusing.  i am anxious to hear what they have to say about last weeks assignment as well as this weeks. 
On Tuesday afternoon when i got home from work i knew that my wife would be late because she had an appointment at the hair dressers.  i felt the urge and went to the toilet.  When i had emptied myself, there were three turds in the pot, each about as big around as a quarter.  There were two that were about six inches long and one that was about four inches long.  i took one of the longer ones out of the pot and folded it over and shoved it into my mouth.  my little girl clit was all excited by both the smell and the taste.  i then took the other long one and did the same with it, my mouth was very full, but i figured what the hell and took the remaining one and stuffed it in as well. my cheeks were bulging and my lips were puffed out.  i truly had  a full mouth, one that was full of shit.  i sat on the pot to hold it for the required five minutes.  The problem was that my mouth was so full that i began to drip watery shit out the corners of my mouth and down over my chin as the shit began to melt in my mouth.  To try to keep from gagging i had to use my tongue to push the mouth full forward so that i could swallow the liquid that was gathering quite quickly in the back of my throat.  i had to swallow it to keep it from running down my windpipe.  As i did this it caused more liquid to squeeze out the corners of my mouth and run down my cheeks and neck and onto my shirt.  i held it for a good ten minutes and when my time was up i turned and opened my mouth to have it drop into the toilet, the problem was that it was such a big lump it wouldn't drop out, i had to use my tongue to push it out.  i had liquid shit all over my chin and neck, the front of my shirt, and strands of shit all over the inside of my mouth.  YOU would think that it would have made me sick and i would have upchucked, but instead my little girl clit got hard and i began fantasizing about YOU and YOUR girlfriends cramming my mouth full of shit and then putting a strip of duct tape over my mouth and around my head to keep it there for a long time while YOU all laughed at me and called me names and even took turns slapping me in the face, knocking some of it down my throat.  i fantasized that YOU made me swallow all of it before YOU would take the duct tape off.  i had to remove my shirt and put it into the washing machine before my wife came home. 
 
my next BM was at work on Wednesday morning.  i locked the men's room door and took my shirt off (i had to put my sweet smelling deodorant on anyway) and took a much smaller amount of shit from the pot and held it for five minutes.  While i was sitting on the pot holding the bite of shit in my mouth, there was a knock at the door.  i couldn't answer so i just made some noise and stood and turned the water on in the lavatory.  As soon as my five minutes were up i spit this mouth full out into the pot, wiped my mouth, flushed, put my shirt back on and left.  Who ever had knocked was not out there when i left. 
 
i repeated Tuesday afternoons exercise Thursday afternoon, Friday night late, and again this morning right after my wife and kids left to go shopping. i must admit that the BM this morning was not nearly enough to completely fill my mouth as i did on Tuesday, Thursday and Friday.   i must also admit that though being somewhat repulsed by my actions, i do get sexually excited and my clitty even produces some precum when i did this exercise thinking of how much i hoped it would amuse YOU and YOUR friends.  Even the smell of my BMs now produce a sexual excitement in my clitty and in my mind.   
 
YOU said red panties this week so i took that to mean my crotch less ones.  Because the head of my clitty sticks out and rubs the fabric in my trousers i was constantly worried about a wet spot.  i wore sweaters three days just so i could pull something down over the front of my fly just in case.  It was a long week at work. 
 
i do hope that YOU are amused and that YOU will share this with YOUR girlfriends and that they will all get a good laugh as well.  i am very anxious to see YOU again and see what further humiliations YOU have in store for me. 
 
YOUR shit eating slut

 

 12-11-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
It has been an interesting week, and i do feel so slutty and sissified. Every morning i would go to the men's room at work and put on my fuchsia panties and cock harness and then remove my shirt and apply my sweet smelling roll on deodorant.  i would put a panty liner in my panties and then insert a tampon to wear that morning.  Then i would change my tampon at lunch time, putting the tampon i removed from my sissy fuck hole in my mouth and sit on the pot and while sucking on the used tampon i would repeat my mantra "my mouth, clit, and cunt are YOURS to use as YOU see fit Mistress, such a dirty shit eating fag am i"  i would begin pulling on my tiny little clitty while doing this.  i must say that i had some rather disgusting fantasies while doing this all week.  In my mind i was sucking cocks, eating pussy, and licking ass holes.  i was drinking piss and eating shit. i was being dressed in female clothing and wearing heavy whorish makeup and being used by YOU and YOUR friends in all sorts of degrading, humiliating ways.  When i felt like i was near a climax i would stop my pulling and then pull my panties up and remove my shirt and i would apply a second application of deodorant.  Then after putting myself back to together i would go to the lunch table to hurriedly eat my lunch then go back to work for the afternoon.  When my work day was over i would hurry down to the men's room to remove my tampon and panty liner, remove my panties, cock harness and shirt, reapply another coat of my floral scented deodorant and then after getting redressed, head home with the afternoon tampon in my mouth.  Three times this week the tampon acted like a suppository and i ended up sucking on a tampon that had a thick coat of shit on about the first inch or so of the tampon.  On Friday i repeated this and saved my release for after work.  i still did my mantra at lunch time but then again after work as well.  my release was explosive, i actually had two big explosions of cum, more than i have cum for a long time.  As YOU know i usually just dribble my jism out my sissy stick, but this was a genuine cum.  Thank YOU so much for allowing me to have this cum this week.  YOU are so kind.  i do hope that YOU are amused by this. 
 
i smoked four cigarettes each day as YOU have instructed.  On Friday on my way home i did light a fifth cigarette but realized what i was doing and after about three or four drags i threw it out the window. 
 
Thank YOU for using me and allowing me to humiliate myself for YOUR amusement.
YOUR shit eating, sissy whore

 

12-04-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i am sorry that i am so late with my report this week.  i have not had any time to myself yesterday or today.  my wife finally went to bed and i am taking this time to send YOU a quick reply before she yells down for me to come to bed.
 
i wore my crotch less panties to work Monday and Tuesday as YOU ordered.  i must say that i was worried to death that some one would be able to tell i had them on.  i made sure that i wore dark pants since the red panties may have shown through light colored ones.  my little sissy clitty was sticking through the slit in the panties and rubbing against the inside of my fly all day and despite the cock harness i was wearing my clitty was getting tingly and trying to grow.  my little cock head would rub against the inside of my zipper and cause me a painful pinch sometimes as well. That made me feel all the more self conscious as i was scared that it would be noticeable.  Since YOU only ordered me to wear the crotch less panties on Monday and Tuesday i wore my black lacy ones the rest of the week.  i do hope that was okay. 
 
i was able to stick to my allotted four cigarettes a day this week.  On Tuesday i bought my Secret Deodorant and have been wearing it under my arms every day since.  i am still wearing my wife's in the morning when i leave for work.  i have my new one i bought at work, and apply it every day at the end of the day when i remove my panties before leaving work.  i brought it home over the weekend and wore it before we left the house yesterday and i also put it on this morning.  i have already put it back into my car to take back to work with me tomorrow.  i feel so feminine wearing my floral scented deodorant. 
 
my mouth, clit, and cunt are YOUR'S to do with as YOU please Mistress, such a dirty little shit eating fag am i.  Please use me for YOUR amusement.  Thank YOU Mistress.
 
i hope to hear from YOU about my assignment for this week soon.  i also hope that YOU will let me know what any of YOUR friends have to say about me. 
 
YOUR shit eating, cock sucking, sissy fag

 

11-27-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
Since i only went to work one day last week i only got to wear my black panties and stockings with no underwear and no socks once.  Still it caused a lot of anxiety as the lacy black panties cause me to leak pre cum a lot and of course i had to always worry that my pant cuffs were low enough on my ankles to hide the fact that i had on black hose instead of socks. 
 
On a brighter side, i was home by myself two days last week, so i got to dress up in my panties, bra and stockings for long periods of time.  i wore my lipstick, and eye shadow and some of my wife's mascara and blush.  i also got to parade around for a while smoking my Capri Menthol 120s swishing my tush and acting like a gay transvestite.  At least in my head, i am sure that in reality i looked pretty pathetic, trying to impersonate a real trany. 
 
i smoked four Capri's every day except the two days i was home alone, i couldn't help myself, the urge to suck on those cigarettes and leave a nice lipstick print on the butt and to try to use mannerisms that were sissy and gay was too strong.  i did keep it to just six both those days.  i hope YOU are not too angry with me. 
 
i was able to wear my lipstick every day for at least 15 minutes, though except for Tuesday and Friday the days i was alone, i was always taking a chance that someone would walk in on me.  But there were ample opportunities every day. 
 
On Saturday after receiving YOUR e-mail, i was able to find some time to sneak into the bathroom and have my BM, then as instructed, i took a turd from the toilet and used it to coat my lips with a thick layer of shit lipstick.  my wife was next door visiting a neighbor and my daughter was at her friends house, so i took a chance and came out of the bathroom and went to the garage for one of my four Capri's that day.  After smoking it and leaving a brown stain of the butt, i stayed in the garage until my 15 minutes were up and then licked my lips clean.  Swallowing every savory bit of the shit that had coated my lips.  Thank YOU so much for allowing me to have a taste of my shit over the Thanksgiving holiday. It made my little clitty all excited.  What would Thanksgiving be without turkey, stuffing, yams, and of course...shit!  At least for a sissy shit eating faggot like me. 
 
Tomorrow it is back to work, i am very anxious to receive my assignment for next week.  my little clitty and ball sack are straining on the edge of excitement, i do hope that YOU will consider allowing me to relieve the pressure there. 
 
i do hope that YOU will include some comments or remarks from some of YOUR friends about my adventures, i do love to know that my pathetic actions are causing others to laugh and think what a worthless little shit he must be. 
 
YOUR shit eating slut

 

11-20-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i wore my fuchsia panties and cock harness to work every day as instructed.  The second part of my at work assignment was not as easy.  On Wednesday night i went to the upstairs bathroom and locked the door.  i took a shit in the toilet and then opened the condom package.  i unrolled about an inch of the condom to give me some space to try to begin sliding the turd down inside it.  Let me say that anyone with only two hands that can fill a condom with a turd has my respect. Things started well as i picked up a the turd with the smallest diameter and began to slide it into the opening of the condom.  Then as that first inch filled and i began to try to roll the condom up the side of the turd, the turd kept breaking.  i ended up getting shit all over the inside and outside of the condom.  The more shit i pushed into it, gently i might add, the more of it settled to the bottom of the condom so that there was a huge bulge of shit at the tip of it.  i got about five inches worth of shit into it and tied it off in a knot as YOU instructed.  But the knot was full of shit and the part of the condom above the knot also had shit smeared all over it.  i used toilet paper to wipe it clean as best i could and then wrapped it in toilet paper and hid it on a high shelf in the linen closet.  i was afraid that it was going to stink and maybe even break so i went down stairs and got a small snack size zip lock bag and took it upstairs and put the shit filled condom in it and sealed it and then re-hid it.  The next day when i went to get it to put it into my pants pocket as ordered, i could tell that the condom had leaked in a couple of places with small tears.  There was shit smeared on the inside of the zip lock bag.  So i kept the shit filled condom in the zip lock bag and stuck it in my pocket and went to work.  i can assure YOU that i rubbed it more than the required ten minutes an hour.  i was scared to death that the baggy was going to leak and that i would have shit stains coming through the material of my pants.  i must have stuck my hand into my pocket about every five or ten minutes checking to see if i could feel any shit leaking from the bag.  i made it through the day, but instead of flushing the condom at work, i brought it home.  When i got home i took the condom out of the baggy and then put the whole thing into my mouth and sucked on it for about a minute.  It didn't take long at all before the roof of my mouth, the insides of my cheeks, and my tongue were coated with shit.  i then spit the condom which still had most of the shit inside it into the toilet and flushed.  i took the zip lock baggy out to the garbage can and put it down deep into an already filled trash bag.  Then i began using my tongue to dissolve the shit that covered the inside of my mouth.  It took about 15 minutes before i could not feel any more in my mouth and about another half hour before i began loosing the taste.  (my wife had errands to run after work and did not get home until much later)
 
i hope that YOU are amused and that YOUR friends are also amused.  i am sorry about not being able to just put the condom in my pocket, and that YOU are not too disappointed in my efforts.   i am very anxious to get my assignment for next week.  Though i will only be at work Monday and Tuesday, then off for Thanksgiving the rest of the week.  i hope to hear from YOU soon.  i am also anxious to hear any comments about this last assignment.
 
YOUR cock sucking shit eating slut

 

11-14-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
my wife left the house at around 8:00 AM to go to a Christmas Craft Show with a group of women she works with so i am home alone this morning.  i am sitting here with my lipstick and eye shadow on.  i also put on some of her mascara and blush.  i am wearing my bra, stuffed with socks, since i left my breast enhancers at YOUR house, my black lacy panties and my black thigh highs.  i also have my cock and balls encased in my old cock and ball harness that covers them completely.  i wish that there was some way to lock it on me.  But then that would be a real problem when i have to go pee, since it has to be removed to go pee.  i have smoked one of my Capri Menthol 120s already this morning and will probably go have another when i finish this e-mail to YOU.  i smuggled a tampon and pad into the house last night from my car where i keep them and after my wife left this morning i got dolled up and then smoked my cigarette and then went to the bathroom and put a tampon in my sissy cunt, then i found a plastic tube/can of hair sculpturing gel that is about an inch and a half in diameter and about eight or nine inches long and has a rounded plastic cap.  i began sucking on it like it was a big cock and practiced my cock sucking while repeating my mantra "my mouth, my cunt, and my clit are YOUR'S to do with as YOU please Mistress.  Such a sissy shit eating fag am i."  over and over while sucking on it.  i think i am ready for the real thing soon.  (i had to wipe the lipstick off of it when i was finished) After about twenty minutes of sucking on it while sitting on the pot the tampon began to make me have to go.  So i pulled it out and plopped it into my shit eating mouth and did my business.  Now as i write this to YOU the shitty end of the tampon is in my mouth and the string is hanging out between my pretty red cock sucking lips.  The very familiar taste and smell of my shit is filling my senses and making my little clitty all twitchy and wet.   
 
This week, i don't know why, but when getting ready on Monday, i happened to notice my wife's floral scented roll on deodorant on the bathroom vanity, and when she left the bathroom to go down stairs, i put it on instead of my own stick deodorant.  So i repeated this every day and wore her deodorant all this week.  i was scared that she might notice the fragrance before i left the house so i tried to stay a good six to eight feet away from her in the kitchen before leaving. 
 
Sucking the shit out of those tampons at work this week was also a chore, i was always trying to avoid getting too close to anyone for about an hour afterwards, scared that they would be able to smell shit on my breath.  That might have been some mix of scents, shit on my breath and floral odor from my arm pits. 
 
We had meetings Tuesday and Thursday evenings, so after getting off work at 3:30 i had to be back by 5:00 and stay until 8:30.  So both of those days i ended up smoking 6 of my Capri Menthol 120s instead of the 4 i am allowed. 
 
i am very anxious to hear YOUR response and to hear anything that any of YOUR girlfriends have to say about me.  i am even more anxious to receive my assignment for next week. 
 
YOUR sissy shit eating, piss drinking, pig slut

 

11-06-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
Thank YOU again for allowing me to serve YOU in person last Tuesday.  my little clitty was hard all the rest of the week from both the fantasy of sucking that man's cock while he watched his wife get fucked in every hole and from the head of it rubbing against my new black lace panties. 
 
I'm so happy and thrilled to hear that YOU and YOUR girlfriends had a good time laughing at me being pissed on by YOU. 
 
i had a scary conversation with a girl at work on Friday.  She told me that she had tried to get my attention and waved at me when i was leaving work on Thursday.  i asked her where and she said that i drove right past her house.  i said that i don't remember seeing her and she said that i was too busy looking in my mirror putting on chapstick and didn't see her wave at me.  She seemed to be Innocent of trying to embarrass me, and since i do use chapstick at work i am guessing that she really believed that was what i was doing.  Though i was actually putting on my lipstick so that i could smoke my Capri Menthol 120 on the way home.  After she told me where she lives i took note that night on my way out of town and noticed that her house sits about a 100 feet back from the street, so i am guessing that she really couldn't see the red on my lips. i guess that i am lucky that she made the assumption she did and that i didn't already have my lipstick on and was not lighting up one of my Capri Menthol 120s.  She never made any more comments about it and i saw her and talked to her a couple more times that day.  i guess that i am going to have to wait until i get further out of town to put on my lipstick from now on. 
 
i am anxious to here my assignment for next week and to hear any comments or suggestions any of YOUR friends may have had about how to use and abuse me. 
 
YOUR sissy slut, cock sucking, shit eating, piss drinking pig

 

11-02-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
Thank YOU so much for expanding my limits.  i must say that going out of your house dressed in a maid's uniform, wearing my lipstick, and smoking one of my faggy Capri Menthol 120s on an errand was very scary and very exciting at the same time. 
 
It was also a great honor to be allowed to receive not one, but two golden showers from YOU.  i want to thank YOU for that honor.  YOU certainly know how to push my buttons and make my little sissy clitty get all tingly and try to grow even if it is too small to be of much use. 
 
YOU telling me about the couple from down here in Lancaster that liked to swing, with the husband liking to watch his wife get gang banged made my little clitty all wet all the way home.  All i could fantasize about was being made to suck his cock while he watched her get fucked in every hole and then each time her cunt or ass was dripping cum, being made to suck and lick it out of her and to clean the cum and shit off the cocks that had just been inside her.  Then having her spit any cum from her blow jobs into my mouth and making me swallowing that cum as well.  my little clitty gets all wet just fantasizing about something like that.  Something like that would be a fantastic assignment and session for a worthless pig like myself. 
 
Again thank YOU for pissing in my face and open mouth and for sending me out into the world to show what a worthless sissy slut i really am.   
 
i am anxious to suck a real cock and eat cum and then to serve YOU and YOUR friends as the toilet slave i deserve to be. 
 
Please let me know what YOU and YOUR friends think of that fantasy and idea. 
 
i smoked four cigarettes on the way home.  i know that was a lot.  All together two on the way up to see YOU, one on my errand for YOU, and four on the way home.  All together that was almost twice as many as i am supposed to smoke.  The more i kept fantasizing about sucking that guy's cock and eating the cum from his wife whom i don't even know and about being pissed on by YOU, the more i just had to smoke. 
 
YOUR piss drinking, shit eating, dick sucking and cum eating slave

 

10-29-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i wore my fuchsia panties and cock harness to work every day this week as instructed and for 30 minutes each day i went to the potty and repeated my mantra "my clit, my mouth, my sissy cunt are YOUR'S Mistress to do with as YOU please."  while pulling on my tiny little clitty bringing it close to climax, but not allowing it to spill it's sissy silly sauce until Friday.  i licked it all off of my hand and smeared it across my red sissy lips before licking it off and swallowing it all.
 
i have smoked four of my sissy Capri Menthol 120s every day this week. 
 
YOUR sissy shit eating, cum sucking slut 

 

10-23-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i followed YOUR instructions this week and wore my new black panties every day.  They are very lacy and really rubbed against the head of my little sissy clitty because my new cock harness keeps the head of my clitty protruding out instead of down.    They really kept the head of my little clitty stimulated and wet as they rubbed against it all day. 
 
Every day when i had a BM (including this morning) before wiping, i would stick my middle finger up inside my sissy fuck hole as far as i could and rub it around inside of me.  Scooping as much of my shit onto my finger as possible.  When i would remove it my finger would be covered with my brown shit from the tip of my finger to the knuckle.  i would then begin licking the length of my finger and then stick it in my cock sucking mouth and suck the rest of the shit from it until there would be no brown to be found.  It took quite a bit of sucking to get my cuticle clean of all that brown shit that would get under the nail and in the creases around the edges of the nail.  i must say that i do believe that i have acquired a taste for it.  i know that this sounds sick, but i began to look forward to my BMs this week.  First the smell would cause my little clitty to begin to twitch, and then when i would feel that coating of shit over my tongue and press it against the roof of my mouth i would get excited all over again.  Do YOU think that shit, like so many other things people eat, is an acquired taste?  Licking and sucking it from my finger is so much less difficult than taking a mouth full.  my first instinct to a mouth full (which YOU have required of me in the past) is to try to avoid gagging, but licking and then sucking it from my finger does not require that big lump in my mouth and does not require chewing.  The chewing is what starts the gagging i believe.  All together i have had 8 BMs since receiving YOUR instructions. 
 
After cleaning my finger each time i repeated "my mouth, my clit, and my cunt are YOURS to use as YOU please MISTRESS, such a shit eating fag am i."   i would, as usual, also repeat it in the car on the way to and from work each day.   
 
i have limited myself to four of my Capri Menthol 120s each day this week.
 
i am anxious to see YOU soon and to receive my assignment for next week.
 
YOUR shit eating fag pig

 

10-16-05:    Dear Miss Patty
 
i have completed this week's assignment.  i was able to wear my new cock harness every day for most of each day.  i smoked my four Capri Menthol 120s each day as instructed.  i collected my spermies every day, including Saturday.  i was able to keep my collection secret and safe by hiding the container in my car.  Yesterday, Saturday, i smuggled my collection cup into the house and took it into the bathroom.  i added my Saturday donation to that of the rest of the week and took it all into my mouth in one big gulp.  i was able to hold it in my sissy cum drinking mouth for the required ten minutes and then i swallowed it.  It again had an acidy musky taste.  i fantasized that i had just gotten it straight from the source and after swallowing i got on my knees and thanked YOU by softly repeating my mantra out loud, "Mistress Patty my mouth, my cunt, and my clit are YOUR'S to do with as YOU please." 
 
i do hope that this amuses YOU and YOUR friends.  i must admit that it was a lot sexier the last time when i was home alone and could dress up and put on my lipstick, eye shadow, ear rings, panties and bra with my breast enhancers before drinking my sissy sauce.  But that was not the case yesterday.  That day i felt so whorish and slutty.  Yesterday i felt like a sissy pervert, sneaking around in my cock harness and eating sperm in the locked bathroom.  my little clitty dicky is very sore and by Saturday my squirts were small and it took a long time to cum.  As YOU know my sissy stick is very short and to get it to cum i must pull and rub the head of it for a long time to get it to squirt.  Right now the head of my dicky feels like i was rubbing it with sandpaper, so i think it will be a couple of days before i want to give it much attention with my hand. 
 
i am very anxious to come and see YOU and be used by YOU in person.   
 
YOUR shit eating, piss drinking, cum swallowing, piggy bitch-boy

 

10-09-05:  Dear Miss Patty
 
i am setting here writing YOU this e-mail with my bra and breast enhancers on, my black lace panties, (with a pad in the crotch and a tampon up my pussy) my new cock harness, and my black stockings.  i am also wearing my ear rings, lipstick, eye shadow and my finger nails are painted a pretty pink.  my wife is shopping for the afternoon.  i sure hope she does not come home early.  i also have a shit stained tampon in my mouth with the string hanging out between my painted red lips. 
 
my week at work with the tampons and pads went well, though my new cock harness does seem to make me much wetter than usual with pre cum.  Every day this week my panties and pads were soaked with my pre cum when i took them off at the end of the day.  i do hope that YOU will give some consideration to allow me release.  i have not cum since YOU last ordered me to.  
 
i am very anxious to come and see YOU later this month.  i will send YOU details of when it will be when i have it finalized. 
 
i have done very well this week with my faggy Capri Menthol 120s, smoking no more than four each day.  i have smoked two already today and will try very hard not to smoke more than two more the rest of the day.
 
YOUR shit eating, cum drinking, sissy, faggot slut

 

10-02-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
The black stockings with no socks was very scary.  It felt like i was wearing no socks at all in my shoes, and i was scared to death that someone would notice.  i kept pushing my slacks down so that my pant legs would cover my ankles between the tops of my shoes and the bottoms of my trouser legs.  i got through the week with no one noticing, or if they did they did not say anything.  But i was vary conscious of it all week. 
 
We were gone all day yesterday (Saturday)  we went to visit my daughter.  We went to a large shopping mall near where she goes to college. On the way to the mall we passed an adult store, like the lions den, it was about a quarter of a mile from where the mall was.  While my wife and daughter were shopping i told them that i was going to run over to a large sporting goods store across from the mall.  Instead i headed down to the adult store and while there i bought a new cock harness.  It is leather and straps around my cock and balls and then has another strap that comes up from under the balls separating them and then splits into two straps with one going each direction to snap onto the strap going around my cock and balls on each side, so that my balls are pushed out and separated.  i found a public rest room and wore it the rest of the day.  When we got home last night i went to the bathroom and took it off and hid it in my car so that i will have it to wear now.  Along with the other two i have that YOU have already seen. 
 
i had a near disaster buying my pads and tampons.  i was wearing my mauve lipstick and when i got into Target there in the same area of the store where the female hygiene items were was a lady i work with.  i had to go browse around a while and wait for her to leave while pressing my lips together tightly so that they were not showing that i had on my lipstick. i was scared to death that she would see me and come over to talk and i didn't know what i would do if she did.   After she moved on i quickly picked up the pack of pads and tampons and cautiously moved to the checkout watching to make sure i was not going to get into line and find her there too.  i could not smile or talk to the checkout girl though for fear that she would see my lips.  She must have thought i was some kind of weirdo buying pads and tampons and keeping my mouth tightly shut with my lips together and not looking at her. 
 
As for my "shit lipstick" assignment.  That went very well.  i guess it covered two of my fetishes at once.  The first time i took a turd from the toilet and smeared it over my hand and then used my finger to apply it to my lips, it was still too wet from the water in the toilet, it ran down my chin.  i wiped it off and started over.  i got several layers of toilet paper and patted as much of the water out as i could and then re-applied.  It went on a lot better.  From then on i patted the turd dry each time before smashing it up in my hands and applying it.  It went on very thick, i would guess it was about a sixteenth of an inch thick on my lips and though brown in my hands, it was more of a brownish gold on my lips.  By the time the five minutes were up the shit had dried and become somewhat crusty.  For some reason applying this shit lipstick, and then looking at my self in the mirror wearing it, made my little clitty very hard.  Twice during the week i even went out to the garage while still wearing it and smoked a cigarette leaving a very light brownish gold lip print on the butt.  To clean it off my lips i would just lick it off.  i had to be careful not to let anyone near enough to smell my breath until i could use some mouth wash though.  It did suck the moisture out of my lips leaving them very dry, so after the second day i began using chap-stick on my lips on a regular basis to try to keep them moist, otherwise they became very dry and achy. 
 
i do hope that this assignment particularly amuses YOU and YOUR friends, and i am anxious to hear anything that is said about me. 
 
i smoked only four cigarettes every day but one.  i smoked six on Thursday.  i am trying very hard to cut down, because YOU are telling me to and because i know that it is in my best interest.  Thank YOU for being concerned about my health. 
 
Late October is still looking good, i will let YOU know as things develop. 
 
YOUR shit eating, cum drinking, pig slut

 

09-24-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
This was one of the most demanding and difficult assignments that YOU have ever given me.  In some ways it was even more difficult than when i have my monthly period.  i read YOUR e-mail Monday morning and on the way to work i stopped at the Kroger store in Lancaster and bought a plastic cup with a snap-on lid.  The kind that would be used in a lunch pail for caned fruit or something.  It is about two and a half inches wide at the bottom and about three inches high.  When i got to work i went into the men's room and before putting on my panties and cock harness i pulled on my little sissy clitty until it finally exploded, pointing it into the cup.  When i had milked all the cum out of my pathetic little dicky into the cup, i put the snap-on lid on it and put on my cock harness and panties.  i had to find a place to hide the cup.  For the rest of the day i kept it in my desk drawer.  i took it home that afternoon and before my wife got home i added a little more of my cum to the cup.  i kept it in my car at night and in my desk drawer at work in the day.  i must say that after that first cum on Monday, my ejaculations got smaller and smaller.  All week i had to smuggle it to and from work, playing with my little clitty each morning at work and again in the afternoon when i got home.  By Thursday afternoon the head of my little sissy cocket was sore.  As YOU know when i pull on my clitty there isn't much a shaft there to play with so my stimulation has to come from rubbing the head.  By Friday afternoon i had about a third of a cup of cum.  As YOU know i don't shoot very much sissy sauce even when i do have an ejaculation.  my wife left the house about an hour ago and i added one final squirt to my collection and then put on my lipstick, eye shadow, ear rings, bra (with enhancers), cock harness and panties and chugged my collected cum keeping it in my mouth for about five minutes before swallowing.  i do hope that amuses YOU.  i made sure to smear some over my painted lips and licked the sides of the cup as much as possible.  It was warm and though it didn't have a salty taste, it had more of a musty taste to it.  i still have some on my lips and at the corners of my mouth. 
 
i was able to smoke only four cigarettes every day except Tuesday and Friday this week.  i had seven on Tuesday and six on Friday.  i am trying, but i find that some days i just automatically light up a second cigarette when i am in the car without even thinking until i have taken the second or third drag from it. 
 
my mouth, clit, and cunt are YOUR'S Mistress, to do with as YOU wish, such a dirty little shit eating, cock sucking fag am i. 
 
i am anxious to hear what YOU and YOUR friends think about me after following my last two assignments for YOUR amusement.  i do hope that i will be able to come to Columbus sometime soon.  i am thinking it may be sometime around the end of October.  i do hope that will work out for YOU and that YOU will be able to humiliate me in front of some of YOUR friends.  i hope to hear from YOU soon, and i will keep my new cum cup ready just in case. 
 
YOUR shit eating, cum drinking, sissy faggot pig

 

9-17-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i completed my assignment this week and it was quite exciting.  Thank YOU so much for allowing me to cum. 
 
i went to Fashion Bug Plus wearing my red thong, cock harness, and my clear lip gloss, it was on too thick and my lips were very shiny.  As i walked into the store a clerk asked if she could help me.  i told her i was looking for panties.  She gave me a big smile, i think she noticed my lip gloss, and then took me to a table where there were lots of panties and thongs laid out and there were some racks with panty and bra sets around it.  She left me to browse and went to help a large female customer.  i found about four or five different panties and thongs in black, i chose a pair of thongs that are black lace.  When i took them up to the counter to pay for them another very well endowed large female, who looked to be in her late twenties smiled at me and called me honey and told me that she would be with me in a minute.  She was finishing ringing up the customer in front of me.  i stood there for about three minutes holding my new black thong in my hand in plain site of everyone.  When the other customer had paid and turned to walk away, she also smiled at me.  i guess i was a little too heavy on the lip gloss.  The clerk who was showing a lot of cleavage then smiled at me and asked if i had found everything alright and if anyone on the floor had helped me.  i pointed to the lady who had directed me to the panties and she then asked me if i was interested in buying two more pair to get a fourth pair free or half price i can not remember which now.  The pair i bought cost me $12.50 plus tax.  So i told her no.  She then asked for my phone number to put into the computer.  i paused, and i know i was caught off guard, but i made up a number and gave it to her.  i think she realized that i was giving her a false number because she asked me to repeat it and when i did i had trouble remembering the first two numbers after the Lancaster exchange that i had given her.  She just smiled and asked are you sure i can't help you find anything else honey.  i told her that these were just fine.  She smiled and told me to come back if i needed anything else and then told me to have a nice day.  i know that i was blushing brightly as i left. 
 
i went to Speedway and put on my lipstick in the parking lot.  i quickly made my way into the store and straight to the men's room.  The door was locked so i had to stand outside and wait for the person in there to come out.  When they finally did i turned my face so that they would not notice my lipstick and hurried inside.  i dropped my trousers and removed my cock harness from inside my red thong.  Then i began rubbing my tiny little clitty so that i could cum.  i must have been in there for about fifteen minutes before i finally cum.  Luckily no one knocked on the door, i don't know what i would have done had that happened.  After filling the front of my thong with my sissy sauce, i removed the thong and began sucking the cum from the inside of the front panel.  i had only had them in my mouth for about two minutes when there was a knock at the door and i told them just a minute.  i pulled up my trousers, wiped the lipstick from my lips and balled the thong up and put it in my pocket and then left, keeping my head down and my eyes to the floor, not wanting to look at the two guys standing outside the rest room door.  When i got to my car and pulled out of Speedway, i turned north on 33 and then put the thong back into my mouth sucking out the rest of the cum that i could. 
 
This was very embarrassing and after getting back on the road, i thought to myself, what is wrong with me.  This is stupid for a grown man to be doing all this stuff, why can't i help myself?  Then i remembered, my mouth, my clit, my cunt belong to YOU and i must please YOU, such a stupid sissy fagot am i. 
 
my wife is over town right now and as i write this to YOU i am wearing my new black thong, my pink bra and breast enhancers, my cock harness, and my thigh highs.  i also am wearing my red lipstick and blue eye shadow.  i will have to go clean my face and remove my sissy ware soon. 
 
Thank YOU again for allowing me to cum this week and thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU.  i do hope that YOU and all YOUR girlfriends get a good laugh at me for this assignment.  i would love to hear what YOU and they have to say about what a stupid fucking wimp i am. 
 
YOUR shit eating, cock sucking, sissy slut

 

09-11-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i followed YOUR instructions this week as i always do.  i wore my panties, stockings, and cock harness all week at work.  i put a pad in my panties each morning and a tampon inside my sissy fuck hole.  Each time i went to the potty, to pee or otherwise, i replaced it with a new one and put the used one into my cock sucking mouth for five minutes and sucked and chewed on it.  It really wasn't too bad except on Wednesday, the tampon i inserted at 10:00 AM acted like a suppository and i really had to go bad by 12:00 Noon.  When i removed it a very large turd followed and the white tampon was very brown almost all the way from one end to the other.  It even had a little string of shit trailing off from the bottom.  i gulped and inserted it into my mouth with the string hanging out, as always and began sucking and then chewing.  i could taste the shit for the rest of the day.  i tried to stay at a good arms length from everyone i came into contact with the rest of the day.  That was difficult.  i don't know if anyone smelled my shit on my breath or not.  Then again Friday afternoon the same thing happened, but this time it was at the end of the day, so i was leaving work as soon as i came out of the restroom, not going back to work.  On both those occasions the shit and the tampon stuck to the roof of my mouth until i got enough of it sucked and chewed out.  It was almost making me gag.  i kept reminding myself that my mouth, clit, and ass belong to YOU and that i must please YOU.  i do hope that this pleases YOU and that YOU and YOUR friends get a good laugh at my expense. 
 
i did a pretty good job of staying at four cigarettes a day until Friday.  i had a flat tire on the way to work and had to change it and was late.  i smoked two from the flat to work, then two more at lunch time and then two more on the way to a garage to get a new tire and two more on the way from the garage to home.  It was a stressful day.  i have already smoked my four today, and since we are going out of town tomorrow, Sunday and i probably will not be able to smoke any until late Sunday night when we get home, i will probably smoke a couple more today.  my little clitty gets so hard from the red lipstick print left on the butt, and the smoke feels so good going down into my lungs. 
 
i think i had my cock harness on a little too long and too tight one day this week my little balls were a light shade of blue when i took it off.  i am desperate to spill my sissy sauce, i do hope that YOU will consider allowing me to cum sometime soon. 
 
Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU.  i am such a disgusting, little dicked, shit eating pig.
 
YOUR sissy faggot shit eating whore

 

 

09-04-05: Dear Mistress Patty
 
 i had quite a mess in my panties and panty hose Wednesday.  i went into a stall in the rest room at work and played with my little sissy clit as YOU instructed.  It took me about fifteen minutes to finally get it to shoot it's pathetic little load.  into the front of my thong.  i pulled my thong and panty hose up and wore thme the rest of the day while my sissy spunk made a gooy mess in my crotch.  i was afraid that it would show through my dark blue trousers, but i don't think it did.  The cum did not dry completely in my thong, i must have been dripping as the day went on.  i did have a mess in my pubic hairs and my little sissy clit was all wet and slimy still at the end of the day.  i took off my pantyhose and thong and sucked as much of the cum out of them as i could at the end of the day.  i was in that stall for a good twenty minutes sucking on my thong and pantyhose and holding my breath every time the rest room door opened.  Just as i was dressed and ready to leave with my thong and pantyhose stuffed in my pants pocket a female custodian opened the door and yelled in to ask if anyone was in there because she was ready to clean. 
 
i am still having a hard time adjusting to only one cigarette on the way to and from work.  i am afraid that three days this week i smoked two, both on the way to and from work.  i did limit myself to only one at home in the evening each day though. 
 
i bought a new lipstick Thursday while i was in Target.  The girl at the checkout asked me if i found everything all right and then gave me a big grin.  i don't know what she was thinking. 
 
i am anxious to hear from YOU.  i know Monday is a holiday, and YOU may be gone or busy, but i do hope to hear from YOU as soon as YOU can find time for this pathetic shit eating sissy. 
 
YOUR slut
 
8-28-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i have completed my assignment this week as instructed.  i wore my panties and cock harness every day and repeated my mantra, "my mouth, clit, and cunt are YOUR'S to use as YOU see fit Mistress, such a dirty little shit eating fag am i."
 
i am afraid that i must be more hooked on the faggy Capri Menthol 120s than i thought, i ended up smoking two on the way to and from work and i couldn't help myself i also left work for lunch every day and smoked one at lunch, i really felt like i needed it.  Then i smoked one at night before bed.  That was my routine every day except Wednesday when i smoked two in the evening instead of one. 
 
It is now Sunday morning and i just smoked my first one of the day.  i will try very hard to limit myself to only four today.  Yesterday (Saturday) we were gone all day and i was only able to smoke one quick one in the morning before we left and one last night before bed. 
 
i am very anxious to receive my instructions for this week.  Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU.  Since i am back to work i am afraid that my days of being here alone so that i could get all girly are going to be much fewer. 
 
Thank YOU for using me for YOUR amusement.
YOUR sissy faggot, shit eating piss lapping, cock sucking whore

 

8-21-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
Thank YOU so much for allowing me to come and see YOU last Thursday.  i especially enjoyed being able to wear my panties most of the day.  It was also exciting to wear my thigh highs on my legs and my confining cock and ball harness on the way up to see YOU as well. 
 
Filling the bowl with my own piss and then having YOU add most of the Happy Meal from 
Mc Donald's into it and having it soak up my piss and then having to eat it from the bowl like the dog that i am was very humiliating, especially when YOU got on the phone with YOUR Sister and was telling Her about how pathetic i looked doing it and then putting Her on the speaker phone so She could laugh at me and call me names.  i only wish She could have been there in person to see me eating my lunch.  Even though i gagged a few times i am very happy that i did not throw up and that i was able to lick the bowl clean.  The chunks of hamburger and the pieces of pickle were the hardest to get to go down.  When YOU told me that someday YOU wanted me to suck off the neighbors dog i was so degraded but knew secretly that the idea of YOU laughing at me doing it and telling all YOUR friends about it really did turn me on.   
 
i smoked four of my faggy Capri Menthol 120s on the way home wearing YOUR lipstick that YOU so generously allowed me to put on before i left. 
 
i have been drinking from the toilet every day as YOU instructed and repeating my mantra, "my mouth, cunt, and clit are YOUR'S to do with as YOU please, such a shit eating sissy faggot am i." 
 
Also, thank YOU for allowing me to try on those beautiful black knee high platform boots.  They are soooooo sexy. 
 
YOUR sissy slut, shit eating, piss drinking, faggot
 
YOUR property

 

08-12-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
It is finally Friday and i had my cum just about a half hour ago.  i had to use the bathroom and as instructed when i wiped my ass i put the soiled toilet paper into my mouth and began chewing.  Then i started pulling on my very tiny clitty.  i fantasized that YOU put me into a male chastity device and told me that i would never be allowed to cum again.  Then YOU brought a dirty looking street person into the room and told me that i would have the privilege of sucking his dirty cock.  But first i had to lick his ass hole.  Then when he had shot his load down my throat YOU brought into the room a young woman who also looked like she was living on the street.  She had on a dirty cotton dress and nothing else.  YOU told me that she was one of YOUR female slaves who was also into degradation.  That YOU had not allowed her to bathe or shower for a month and that is why her body odder was so strong.  YOU also told me that she had been fucked by derelict street people every day for the last two weeks and had not been allowed to douche and that she had just finished her period two days ago.  She had also not been allowed to wipe her ass for the past week and then YOU ordered me to lick her ass clean.  It was dirty and smelly and she had a skin rash from not cleaning herself.  After cleaning her ass with my tongue i had to eat her pussy until she had several climaxes and then i was ordered to give her a tongue bath.  Her skin was dirty and smelled of sweat.  Her feet were black as the only shoes she had been allowed to wear were flip flops.  YOU and YOUR girlfriends all watched all of this and made humiliating comments to me as YOU laughed at me.  Then i was ordered to get down on my hands and knees and two Dobermans were brought into the room, one of them mounted me from the rear and the other one mounted my face and stuck it's cock into my mouth.  YOU and YOUR girlfriends all agreed that it must really suck to be me and all of YOU laughed at me and called me a dirty little bitch.  i finally came into my hand and then licked it all from my fingers and the palm of my hand. 
 
Thank YOU for allowing me to cum today.  i am very anxious to see YOU and things are looking good for next Thursday, i do not have a time yet but i will let YOU know as soon as i know. 
 
YOUR sissy shit eating faggot slut

 

08-11-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i am home from New York, we got home yesterday evening.  This is the first that i have had a chance to e-mail YOU.  (if this is the second e-mail YOU receive from me today that is because i had a letter mostly written and almost ready to send when for some unknown reason it just went away, i don't know what key i hit or what i did, so i am starting over.)  i was able to buy, hide, and smoke three packs of Capri Menthol 120s in New York.  They cost $7.50 a pack there.  i have been out in my car twice already today wearing lipstick and smoking my sissy cigarettes as well. 
 
i have repeated my chant "my mouth, my clit, and my cunt are YOUR's to do with as YOU please Mistress, i am YOUR sissy shit eating faggot please use me for YOUR amusement."  several times each day and i have eaten my soiled toilet paper as YOU ordered every day as well.  i am very horney right now from playing with my clitty every day and not cumming and i can not wait to be able to cum tomorrow.  my fantasies have been about sucking cocks, licking ass holes, and being used as a toilet and garbage disposal.  i have even had thoughts of sucking off a dog with a large cock while YOU and YOUR girlfriends watched and laughed and called me "bitch" 
 
It seems like forever since i have heard from YOU.  i know YOUR last e-mail was just a week ago Sunday, but that seems so long ago.  i do hope that i will hear from YOU soon. 
 
i may be able to come to Columbus next Thursday, that is a week from today on the 18th.  Nothing is set for sure yet, but i am working on the details and believe the chances are very good.  i do not have any idea about the time yet but i will let YOU know as soon as things begin to firm up.  i do hope that day will be suitable for YOU.  i am very anxious to see YOU and hope that YOU will be able to meet with me that day.  my imagination is running wild about how YOU might use me when we meet.  i am excited and very scared at the same time.
 
i do hope that i will hear from YOU soon. 
 
YOUR slut shit eating faggot sissy

 

07-28-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
Not much exciting happened.  i took six cigars and smoked four of them to ease my craving for a cigarette.  my wife and the wife of the couple we went to see (whom i will call Beth) were disgusted by me smoking my cigars each morning and again in the evening.  The husband thought it was funny and even smoked one of my cigars with me pissing his wife off.  This is the same couple we were with when we found the falsies in that JoAnn Fabric shop that time. 
 
We were always doing something so i didn't have any time alone...except...(when i was bad).  They gave us their bedroom to use and they slept in their daughter's room, she was away.  In their bathroom Beth had all her cosmetics in a big wicker basket sitting on the bathroom vanity.  it was about a foot in diameter and about six to eight inches deep and it was piled high with lipstick and nail polish and eye make up.  When i would go to the bathroom i tried on about a dozen of her lipsticks over the three days we were there.  Then i couldn't help myself, when we were getting ready to leave yesterday, i took a lipstick and a nail polish from the bottom of the basket.  The lipstick is Cover Girl Antique Rose and the nail polish is a bright dark red, i can not find a color printed on it.  The Antique Rose lipstick is a light burgundy.  i am wearing it now.  (my wife is at the neighbors and my daughter is at work)  i can't wait to try the nail polish. i don't think she will miss them as the basket was piled so high with cosmetics.  i took them from the botom because i figured those were the ones she dosn't use any more.  i know i was bad. 
 
i smoked about 6 Capri Menthol 120s last night after we got home and my wife went to bed.  i have smoked four already today and have only been up for an hour.  i do hope that this amuses YOU and YOUR friends.  i am anxious to hear from YOU again.  i have my cock harness on and my little clitty is all wet fantasizing about being used and humiliated.
 
YOUR slut whore pig

 

07-23-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i have faithfully repeated my new mantra every day this week, usually at least a dozen times.
"my mouth, clit, cunt is YOUR'S to do with as YOU please, what a dirty little shit eating fag i am."  i thank YOU Mistress for allowing me to become YOUR shit eating slut fag.  i have smoked six packs of Capri Menthol 120s this week and have been able to paint my fingernails and wear eye shadow four times.  i only had one occasion where it was safe enough to get all my girly things out and wear them this week.  i do sooooo much enjoy being able to put on my bra and wear my breast enhancers.  i am constantly horney and am continually fantasizing about sucking a real cock for YOU and YOUR friends amusement.  As i suck on a carrot or cucumber i visualize YOU standing there laughing at me and calling me names. 
 
my shopping trip to Eastland Mall was very scary and very exciting at the same time.  i do hope that YOU will take me shopping when i come to see YOU the next time. 
 
we will be out of town Monday through Wednesday this week, so i don't know how much i will be able to do.  The thing i am most worried about is not being able to smoke.  Right now i almost have to have that first Capri in the morning soon after i get up, i won't be able to do that since we are staying at a friends house.  i just know that i am going to be on edge the whole time we are there.  It is too bad that tobacco companies don't sell small packages of just two or three cigarettes for people who just need one or two to get them started on the day but for some reason cannot buy a whole pack.  i could sneak of by myself, buy my two or three and smoke them before going back, and no one would know.  But there is no where to hide a whole pack and not risk having it found. 
 
Even though i will be gone the first half of the week i do hope that i will hear from YOU this weekend.  i am anxious to hear what YOU thought about my trip to the cosmetic counter in Macys.  Since i did not buy any eye shadow, do YOU still want me to get some?  i was also thinking about fake eye lashes, that would really show my eyes off, then i could practice batting my eyes...
 
i do hope to hear from YOU.
YOUR slut pig

 

07-14-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
After i talked to YOU on the phone on Tuesday i headed to Eastland Mall on Hamilton Road.  my Tawny lipstick was in the trunk in my tool box with the rest of my girly things so instead of getting it out i used the most natural shade of lipstick i had with me in the glove compartment of my car.  It was Rosewood, it is a light Burgundy with a hint of rose in it.  It looks like a skin color but is darker than my natural lip color and does show especially up close.  i blotted my lips after applying it in the parking lot.  i didn't want it to stand out too much.  Then i headed into the mall.  i walked briskly and if any one noticed i did not notice them as i kept my eyes straight ahead.  When i got to the Esti Lauder counter a young woman who looked to be in her late 20s told me that she had a customer on the phone and would be with me in just a moment.  She asked me what i was looking for and when i told her eye shadow she took her first real close look at me.  She kind of did a double take, so i think she noticed but she told me where to look and said that she would be with me in a moment to help me pick out a shade. 
 
Before she got off the phone an older clerk came in behind the counter and she told her that this gentleman wants to buy some eye shadow and could this other lady help me while she was on the phone.  The older lady didn't show any sign of noticing my lipstick, and i don't know if she did or not, but a black lady who was looking at lipstick right by the eye shadow sure did.  She kept giving me sidewards glances and had a big sneer on her face.  She never said anything to me, but she definitely noticed.  i told the clerk helping me that i needed a fall color and she began showing me browns and beiges.  i asked if there were any fall colors in a blue and she showed me a three color compact that had a silverish blue,beige, and brown in it.  i asked about the price and the single colors were almost $30 and the tri color compact was $42.  i thought that was to pricey and told her i would look some more.  i went over to the Lorial counter and a blond lady who had waited on my before when i last bought a lipstick in there asked if she could help.  i don't know if she noticed my lipstick or not because she too did not show any sign of shock or amusement.  She helped me find a tri color pack that had beige, rose, and brown in it.  i asked about the price and she told me it was $29.  i told her that i was going to look some more and then began to leave the mall.  i didn't see any need to pay those prices when i can buy eye shadow at Kroger, Wallgreens, or Target for $12 or under.  On my way out of the mall i held the door open for two young women who were coming into the store and the one closest to me stared right into my face as she passed me and as they walked into the store and i was walking out i could hear her laughing and asking her friend if she saw me.  
 
i smoked 7 more Capri menthol 120s on the way home.  i do hope that this amuses YOU and YOUR friends. 
 
YOUR slut pig

 

 07-07-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i had a harrowing experience yesterday, (Wednesday)  my wife left for the morning and my daughter was at work.  i put on my panties, (i was already wearing my cock harness) thigh highs, bra and breast enhancers, lipstick and eye make up.  i put on a pair of my long dangley ear rings and painted my fingernails a dark red.  i smoked two of my sissy cigarettes and then found a large cucumber in the refrigerator and began practicing my cock sucking as ordered.  The phone rang and it was my wife telling me that she had the wrong day and none of her co-workers had shown up for lunch and shopping, she had called on her cell and found out that it was tomorrow (today) that they were meeting.  So...she was on her way home.  i panicked and asked her to stop at the grocery store and with my mind racing came up with a quick shopping list.  i then headed to the garage to remove my sissy apparel and then to the bathroom to remove my nail polish, lipstick and eye shadow.  As soon as i came out of the bathroom the door bell rang and it was one of my male co-workers who had told me the week before that he was going to stop by sometime this week.  i had totally forgot.  He said that he had been here about a half hour ago and that since no one answered the door, (it must have been when i was in the garage) he had come around back to the garage but couldn't find me.  So he went to get some gas and then stopped by one more time to see if i was home.  If he did catch me in my sissy dress he didn't let on, but i am worried none the less.  i had not hidden my stash out in the garage yet and he was sitting in the living room and my wife would be home any time soon.  i got him something to drink, made some excuse and sprinted to the garage and just threw everything into the trunk of my car.  i had just came back into the house when my wife came in the front door with the groceries i had asked her to get.  He stayed about an hour and i kept trying to read his face and comments to see if there was any hint of him catching me.  i don't think he did, but i am still not 100% sure. 
 
So now my wife and daughter are both gone again today and i have repeated my actions of yesterday and i sit here typing this e-mail to YOU in my panties, bra, breast enhancers, and cock harness, wearing my lipstick, and eye shadow, with my nails polished and my long dangley ear rings on.  As soon as i finish this e-mail i am going to go look for that cucumber so that i can practice my cock sucking for YOU.  Then i will look for porn sites with pictures of real men with big dicks just as YOU have ordered.  i am still a little nervous though and have all the doors locked and about had a heart attack when i heared the mail man come up on the porch just before i began writing this to YOU. 
 
i do hope that this amuses YOU even though it scared the hell out of me.  i do also hope to hear from YOU soon.  i will be here alone until about 2:00 PM if YOU have any further instructions. Also i have been lapping my piss from the toilet faithfully as YOU have ordered.   
 
Thank YOU for a allowing me to serve YOU. 
YOUR slut pig

 

06-26-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i do hope that YOU received my last two e-mails telling YOU about my trip out on Monday and then again about my "golden shower" on Friday.  i am very anxious to hear YOUR thoughts on these adventures as well as the thoughts of YOUR friends.  i hope that my actions meet with YOUR approval and that i am not doing too much on my own.
 
i have been able to get out in the car about eight or nine times this week and each time i have applied my lipstick and smoked my sissy cigarettes.  Leaving my nice lip prints on the cigarette butt which does excite me very much.  i have also followed YOUR instructions and drank from the toilet bowl each time i used the bathroom here at home.  After the incident at Value City last week when the cleaning lady was knocking on the bathroom door and then again at Meiji's on Monday when the restroom filled up and there only being one stall i have not drank in public restrooms this week.   
 
i had an extremely close call this morning.  my wife was in the kitchen when i got up and i got my cock harness from it's hiding place in our bedroom and then put it on.  i was standing facing the dresser pulling out a pair of boxers when my wife unexpectedly came into the bedroom to get dressed for church.  i had my back to her and i very hurriedly put the boxers on keeping my back to her.  i began loosing my balance since i was in such a hurry to get them on before she could see the black strip of leather around my cock and balls.  i fell into the dresser and was still pulling the boxers up as i was falling forward.  She wanted to know if i was all right and insisted i go get something to eat.  She was sure that my blood sugar was low because i sometimes get dizzy when that happens because of my diabetes.  i did get my boxers on and if she did see my cock harness she didn't let on.  i am sure she didn't see it as she began lecturing me about taking care of my self and eating and taking my medicine.  But it was close. 
 
i am anxious to hear from YOU and will be checking my e-mail all day in hopes of YOUR reply and further instructions for this week.  We will be going out of town to visit with friends all day Tuesday, so it will be difficult if not imposable to do anything that day. 
 
YOUR shit eating, piss showering, piss drinking, pig whore
 

06-22-05: Dear Miss Patty

 
i must say that Monday's assignment was very hard and very embarrassing.  First, when i left the house i only had my fuchsia panties on under my light weight beige shorts.  i couldn't leave with my thigh-highs on because of the shorts.  my wife would have known i was wearing them.  i was scared she might notice my panties under my shorts.  So...after my meeting i left to do some other errands and then headed for Meijer's to pick up some plants and soil my wife wanted.  When i got there i got the soil and plants first and then i got back into my car and pulled into the far end of the parking lot and removed my shoes and socks, then slid my nude shade thigh-highs up over my legs and then put my shoes and socks back on.  i hurried into  the store feeling like everyone was looking at me.  i found the condoms and quickly went through the check out line to pay for them.  i don't thing the lady running the cash register noticed because of the counter between us, but i do think the man who came up behind me in line might have.  When i went into the rest room it was empty, i felt relieved.    There was only one stall and a urinal, i went into the stall and had no sooner pulled my panties down and began pulling on my tiny minuscule clitty when the place seemed to fill up.  i was scared someone would look under the stall door and see fuchsia panties down around my ankles so i pulled them up between my knees.  It took about five minutes for me to fill the condom with my sissy juice and then i carefully unrolled the condom from my clit and put it into my mouth and began chewing.  i stood and pulled my panties up the rest of the way and then my shorts and came out of the stall.  There was a guy standing at the sink washing his hands and another man at the urinal and another waiting to use it.  i was sure they were all looking at my legs as i hurriedly left the rest room.  i hustled back to my car and again headed to the far end of the parking lot to remove my thigh-highs.  Then i headed home still wearing my panties, i put on some lipstick and smoked four of my faggy cigarettes on the way home. 
 
i have been drinking from the toilet every time i have to use it as YOU have instructed.  i must comment on how low to the floor one has to kneel to stick one's face into the bowl far enough to drink.  i am sure that it is a very funny site, i only hope no one here catches me and sees it.
 
i am anxious to see YOU again and do hope that i can find a reason to get to Columbus sometime soon.  i also hope that i might hear from YOU soon.  i do wonder what YOU think of my adventure.

 

 06-19-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i have faithfully drank from the toilet bowl after each and every use of it this week, even when i was not at home.  i do hope that pleases YOU. 
 
i know now that i will be running several errands tomorrow, Monday, i do not know what time that i will be gone, but i will be out running around for about 3 hours tomorrow.  i know that i have to meet some co-workers for about an hour (or less if i can get away) at 11:00 AM but then have several errands to run after wards.  i will be going as far up State Rout 33 as Meijer.  So if YOU have any errands to add to those i already have please let me know. 
 
i am finding it harder to get to Lancaster by myself to buy my cigarettes at the drive through and that is making me crave them even more.  Tomorrow i will probably buy one pack the first thing when i get to town and then buy another pack before i leave.  That will give me two packs and i will still be buying only one pack at a time.  i do hope that is okey with YOU. 
 
If i have an opportunity to be home alone again i will e-mail YOU on that day, if that is all right with YOU.  i do not want to become a pest.  But right now the errands on Monday is all that i know about for sure. 
 
i anxiously await YOUR assignment for me.
 
YOUR shit eating, piss drinking, whore slut

 

06-11-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
It is Saturday and i have eaten my shit every day this week as instructed.  i sent YOU a partial report on Wednesday about my first three days.  i must tell YOU that on Monday i did gag and almost throw up my shit, but some how i did manage to keep it down.  The rest of this week went smother.  On Tuesday as i have told YOU i was able to relieve my ball sack of my spermies, and that was the day i looked like a real pig with shit all over my crotch and my face.  i dutifully ate my bite of shit every day this week including this morning. 
 
i have been able to get out of the house and six times to wear my lipstick and ear rings and smoke my sissy Capri Menthol 120s.  i have smoked two and a half packs this week, smoking several in the garage or when no one was around the house.  i smoked them outside though so the house would not smell of smoke. 
 
On Thursday i was home alone for the afternoon and was able to wear my bra and breast enhancers, along with my panties, (the pink ones) and my thigh-highs.  i also wore my red lipstick, my ear rings, cock harness, and even put on some of my wife's eye make up, eye liner, mascara, and eye shadow.  That was too hard to get off and even that evening my eyes were red and sore from rubbing them with a warm soapy wash cloth.  my wife asked me what was wrong with my eyes and if i had been crying.  i told her that for some reason they had been itching and that i had been rubbing them. (that was true, i had been rubbing them like crazy trying to get the eye liner and eye shadow off)  i told her that i thought it was allergies because my nose had been running all day as well.  i only wished that i had had a pair of heels to wear too so that i could have heard the click click click as i walked across the kitchen floor.  Shoes would be just too hard to hide though and imposable to explain, like a bra, panties and breast enhancers would be easy?   i stayed "dressed" for about two and a half hours before i started my clean up.  Luckily my wife didn't get home until late because if she had been home any sooner i don't know if my excuse about my red eyes would have held up.  It did take a long time to keep washing them to get the black eye liner and mascara to not show. 
 
i find myself very horny again already.  Being home with little to do, (actually there is a lot i could be doing, but there is no rush to do it) i find that i am constantly thinking about being YOUR sissy slut and YOUR pet pervert pig.  That keeps me in almost a constant state of arousal.  i am constantly fantasizing about sucking cock and being humiliated in public or about being on a dirty floor and being shit and pissed on and kicked and beaten for YOUR amusement. 
 
i do hope that i will be hearing from YOU soon and i am anxious to receive my next assignment.  i also hope that YOU and YOUR girlfriends are getting a good laugh about this.  i would be interested to hear some of their comments and suggestions for this lowly slut pig.
 
Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU.

 

06-08-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
It is only Wednesday and already i have degraded myself in the most humiliating way.  Being YOUR pet pig.  i have eaten my shit three times so far this week.  Yesterdays was the worst.  i had corn on the cob on Sunday and my shit was a yellowish brown and full of undigested kernels of corn.  i took my required bite and chewed it for five minutes.  When i was done chewing all that was left was a wad of fiber, mostly corn kernels.  i swallowed the wad saying to myself "i am Miss Patty's pet pig, i eat and wallow in my own shit for Her amusement, thank YOU Miss Patty for allowing me to serve YOU."  i also had the opportunity to relieve my full scrotum yesterday.  i had yellow-brown shit with kernels of corn matted all through my pubic hairs as well as smeared all over my little clitty and ball sack.  After i came in my shit covered hand i began licking the cum from it, also getting plenty of shit along with it.  my hand was so covered with it, between my fingers, under my nails, not only on my palms but on the back of my hand as well.  Just trying to lick it all off i ended up with shit all over my lips, my chin, my nose and the sides of my mouth.  i opened the shower door to look an myself in the mirror and knew i was YOUR pig.  i had shit smeared all over my crotch and my face.  i had wallowed in my own shit for YOU.   i do hope that vision makes YOU laugh and that YOU and YOUR girlfriends will get a kick out of it. i know that i still have the rest of the week to eat my shit, and i must admit that i am looking forward to it, to being YOUR pet pervert pig.  The smell of my shit now causes my little clitty to tingle and try to get hard.
 
i will report on the rest of the week later, i do hope that YOU will respond to this e-mail and give me some encouragement on my piggish pursuit's.
 
YOUR pet pig

 

06-04-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i wanted to briefly tell YOU about my piss drinking assignment from last week since YOU were unable to post it on YOUR site.  i drank one bathroom dixie cup full of my piss every morning after arriving at work and two each night before going to bed.  my piss was very salty, very warm, and left a brackish after taste that lasted quite a while longer than the after taste of my shit. 
 
For this weeks assignment of chewing and eating my soiled toilet paper after each shit, it was a learning experience.  At first i would just shove the shit smeared wad of toilet paper into my mouth and start chewing, but it always would end up in a large un-chewable ball that i would have to remove from my mouth and pull apart to be able to swallow it.  So i learned that if i would just use two sheets folded over and push the shit stained square into my mouth flat instead of a ball, and let it get good and soggy from my saliva that it would begin to dissolve and i could then slowly swallow it in small bits.  When the shit was on the top side it would stick to the roof of my mouth so i began making sure that the shit stain was down towards my tongue. It would take me anywhere from two to five minutes to "flush" that soiled paper down my toilet throat.  i could smell the shit on my own breath for about ten minutes after wards.
 
i must tell YOU about another development in my sissyhood.  While eating lunch on Wednesday, there was only one other person in the lunch room with me for about the last ten minutes of lunch.  It was a female coworker who after eating took out her lipstick and reapplied it.  i noticed that she didn't appear to be wearing any lipstick unless you looked very closely, it was a skin shade.  When she finished applying it, she laid it on the table beside her purse and got up to use the restroom.  i couldn't help myself, i picked it up to see what the brand and shade was.  It was Loriel, and the shade was a blush color called "tawnie"  i laid it back where she had left it by her purse and left the lunch room.  That afternoon after work i went to Kroger and bought a tube of it.  i was going to try to work up the nerve to wear it in public somewhere, but so far have chickened out, always afraid that i am too close to home.  Maybe the next time i get to Columbus?????
 
i am anxious to hear from YOU and to find out my next assignment.  i do hope that i will be able to come up with a reason to go to Columbus sometime soon.  One problem right now is that my car quit on me this morning and had to be towed to a garage. It is now in the garage with my sissy apparel and most of my lipsticks and ear rings and cock harness all locked in a tool box in the trunk.  my wife had to come to pick me up and i was scared to death that for some reason or another she would want to look in the trunk or glove box to make sure that there was nothing in there that we needed to take with us.  Some of my lipstick and one pair of earrings and a half pack of Capri Menthol 120s are in the glove box. 
 
i hope to hear from YOU soon.
YOUR sissy piss drinking, shit eating whore.

 

05-29-05:   While the assignment for this pathetic shit eating pig  was drinking his own piss daily, My computer decided to crash and the email was lost. So little fucks watch for next week's update.

05-15-05: Dear Miss Patty
i have already e-mailed YOU about my fun morning on Thursday.  For my period week i used 18 tampons and pads.  Of course YOU already know that i used one of those tampons twice. i also smoked three and a half packs of my Capri Menthol 120s.  Almost a whole pack on Thursday.  While buying another pack of Capri's on Friday, the girl who usually waits on me was going into the office, but when she saw me pull in she turned and yelled to one of the new girls, "One pack of Capri Menthol 120s"  And the new girl who has only waited on me a couple of times shouted back, "I know, i see him."  Then when she gave me my cigarettes she leaned down in the window and said, "you enjoy those sweety"
 i hope to hear from YOU soon. i am very anxious to get my next assignment.
 
YOUR shit sucking whore

 

05-11-05: Dear Miss Patty
It is a little after 11:00 AM so i must leave, my appointment is at 12:40 but i have some errands to run first.  i didn't hear from YOU so i am assuming that YOU are away from YOUR computer.  i just wanted to let YOU know that since i did not hear from YOU i did find a way to further humiliate myself and i do hope that i will make YOU laugh.  my third tampon of the morning made me have to shit.  So when i took it out it was about three fourths covered with my shit.  So....i stuck the cotton part in my sissy mouth and let the string hang out between my red lipstick covered lips which i kept tightly shut and then after wiping and inserting a new tampon in my sissy fuck hole and a new pad in my thong then i had two tampons inside me.  One in my hole where it belonged and a shit covered one in my mouth so that i could taste my own waste in my mouth. i kept it there for about twenty minutes sucking on it and wishing it was one of YOU or YOUR girlfriends used tampons instead of my own. i have just brushed my teeth for the third time and used mouthwash for the third time as well, after all, i am going to the dentist.  i have removed all my sissy things and am leaving as soon as i finish this message to YOU.  i have my used pads wrapped in a paper towel and must throw them away on the way over to town. i do still have on my thong and a new pad and a new tampon inserted inside me.  i do hope YOU will e-mail me and let me know what YOU think.  Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU and humiliate myself for YOUR amusement. 
 
YOUR sissy shit sucking whore
05-07-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
It is not easy being YOUR sissy slut, and i am afraid that i fucked this assignment up.  On Thursday i left work and drove up to Eastland Mall on Hamilton road, just above Canal Winchester to go to the Penneys store there.  i was afraid that i would run into someone i knew here.  i approached a sales associate in the department where the bras were and asked for the nu form breast enhancers.  She was a woman who looked to be in her late 50s and she was not amused.  She said she had never heard of nu form and didn't have them.  We went to the service desk where she got out a Penneys catalog and looked for them.  She found a Penneys version just called nu bra and said that i would have to order it through the catalog as they didn't have them in the store.  She acted like she really did not want to wait on me.   i wondered around the department looking at all the bras, and was almost ready to buy a Wonder Bra, but then thought better of it so i left and went to Lazarus which is now Macys. i know that if i could find a bra that pushed my own breasts in that i would have natural cleavage, but the tag just said lift and add cleavage and i wasn't sure that would do the trick. When i found the department with bras and panties at Macys i approached a younger sales girl there and asked her for nu form breast enhancers,  she told me that they did not have them in their store either.  She was much friendlier and much younger.  She suggested i try the woman's department at Lazarus, Penneys or Victoria Secrets.  i left and wondered into the Layne Bryant store and looked for them there.  A heavy set black woman asked if she could help and i told her what i was looking for and she said they didn't have them either.  i finally got up the courage to go into the Victoria Secrets store and an attractive woman who looked to be in her 30s asked me if she could help me.  i stammered around a bit but finally told her what i was looking for.  By this time i was getting a bit flustered and embarrassed to continue asking for breast forms. She looked at me with disgust but said that they did not have the nu form breast enhancers but she would show me the breast enhancers that they did have.  i ended up spending $51 and change on a pair that was guaranteed to increase your bust size by two cups.  On the box it said no adhesive necessary.  i took that to mean that they were self adhesive.  But when i finally got them to the car and opened the box they were not adhesive at all, they were silicone breast forms that even had a nipple but they were just to stick inside your bra.  They have a heavy perforated cloth backing and a thin film of clear plastic over the silicone.  There was no way that they would stay on my chest.  i guess that i should have gone to Sears, they say they have everything.  i didn't get home from work until after 6:00 PM and my wife wanted to know where in the hell i had been. i made up some story about running up to Canal Winchester with a friend i work with and helping him pick up some furniture.  (i knew that he was running that errand that day as he had told me at lunch that he had to go there after work.)  After work on Friday i wondered through the Penneys, Elder Beerman, Lazarus, and Sears stores at River Valley Mall looking to see if i could find them on my own. i didn't.  So today my wife went to town and i tried them on in my fuchsia bra, but the cups on the bra were too large, i got out my old pink bra that is a little smaller and they fit inside those cups perfectly.  So to wear these i have to have a bra on. i was hoping that i could find the kind that the nu form are that are self adhesive and i could just pop them on or off quickly and when i wanted to wear them.  But these are going to take some time putting on a bra, and taking it off, which means taking off my shirt to put it on and to take it off.  Since i couldn't wear my fake boobies, i have not yet gone to Target to get my tampons and pads. 
 
Do YOU have any advice about where to look for the kind YOU told me to get?  i was thinking that the next time i can get to Columbus maybe to go to the Garden and they might have them or something similar.  Please advise me.
 
YOUR stupid sissy slut

 

05-02-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
 i told YOU that i would e-mail YOU my fantasy when i had time so here goes.  Please remember this is a fantasy and not my suggestions for how to use me.  i am still scared about cock sucking for fear of HIV.
 
YOU have me strip naked in YOUR front room and order me to remove all my clothing.  YOU have me put on my lipstick and dangly ear rings, then YOU make the rest of my face up really slutty, YOU remind me that i am to follow all YOUR instructions to the letter and that i am to do so enthusiastically. 
 
YOU begin telling me that i am a worthless piece of shit, with a cock so small that it is good for nothing.  YOU remind me that i am so small that i need to make up for my inadequacies by sucking a real cock.  YOU tell me that YOU are going to call a man into the room soon who has a real cock and that i must make him know that i want to suck his cock to make up for my having such a little teeny weeny.  YOU tell me that i will thank him for allowing me to see what a real cock looks like and that i will beg to suck it.  If i don't follow YOUR instructions i will be severely punished. 
 
YOU call him into the front room along with slave angel and another girlfriend.  They all laugh at my slutty makeup and my little tiny cockett. YOU have him set on the bed and make me get on my knees and get in front of him and beg to be allowed to suck his cock.  i tell him that i am so small that to make amends i must suck real cocks and that i want to suck his and i beg him to please allow me to suck his cock. 
He agrees but YOU tell me that to prove how devoted i am to YOU and how much i wish to suck a real cock i must first french kiss his ass.  YOU tell him to stand and YOU have me unbuckle his pants and pull his trousers and under-ware down.  Then YOU have him turn with his ass to me and order me to take my hands and pull his ass cheeks apart and kiss his ass hole.  YOU order me to stick my tongue up in his ass and ream it good.  i must stay on my knees with my tongue up his ass for about ten minutes while YOU and YOUR girlfriends laugh and make fun of me.  Then YOU have me remove my mouth from his ass and YOU tell him to turn back around and sit on the bed.  YOU make me tell everyone in the room how i want to lick his balls and kiss his cock before sucking him off.  i must thank him for allowing a worthless sissy like me to kiss his ass then i begin licking his balls,  As i lick his entire scrotum his large cock pokes me in the face and YOU all laugh.  After about ten minutes of licking his balls YOU order me to kiss his cock all over and to be very enthusiastic about it.  i kiss the shaft from the base of his crotch to the tip of cock all over, on top, underneath, on both sides.  Telling YOU all how much i enjoy being able to serve a real cock.  Then YOU order me to start sucking.  i take his shaft into my sissy mouth as much as i can and begin sucking, slurping and moving my head back and forth making as much noise as i can.  Finally when he is ready to cum, he pulls his cock from my mouth and shoots his gooey cum all over my face.  YOU all laugh some more as he takes the head of his cock and smears his cum all around my face.  YOU tell me that i will not be able to wipe it form my face until after it drys and YOU give me permission.  Then YOU send me to the drive through at McDonald's to get YOU all something to eat.  slave angel  rides along with me to make sure that i do not try to clean the cum or make up from my face.  When we get back YOU all eat YOUR meals while mine is chewed up and spit into a dog bowl which i must eat from the floor without using my hands.  Then YOU allow me to clean up and leave. 
 
YOUR shit eating whore

 

05-01-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i did my assignment this week as ordered by YOU.  i wore my red lipstick to and from work and my fuchsia panties and cock harness at work all day.  i smoked my faggy Capri Menthol 120s to and from work as well, leaving a nice red stain on the butt of each and every one.  i smoked three and a half packs this week.  i also wore my long dangly ear rings on my way to and from work as instructed.  Each time i had to pee, i sat on the potty like a good girl and stuck my hand down in front of my little clitty so that the pee would run down my fingers and then i licked and sucked my hand and fingers clean after wards each time.  i do hope that i did not walk around all week with my breath smelling like a urinal.  Do YOU think there is any chance of that? 
 
On Thursday i went through the drive through to get a new pack of Capris and the tall blond girl who works there waited on me.  She greeted me by saying "Hi sweety, just one pack again." i told Her yes,  She giggled and handed me the cigarettes and said, "you enjoy these now."  i took them and told Her i would, then i handed Her my empty pack and asked if She could throw that away for me.  She said "why sure honey."  and took the empty pack and told me to have a good day. 
 
Yesterday, (Saturday) my wife and i went to see some friends who live near Toledo.  We were gone all day.  While we were there we went to a large shopping mall and the women wanted to go into a huge JoAnns fabric store.  While we were walking around in there we came to a table that had a lot of clearance stuff on it.  There was a sign that said all items were one to four dollars.  my wife's friends husband spotted some large falsies or fake boobs that looked like they were cotton cloth covering some kind of padding, cotton i would guess.  Any way, he picked a really big pair of them up and held them out to his wife's chest, she has rather small breasts, and jokingly told her here was what she needed to get. We all laughed and she told him that we could go to an adult store and buy him something a lot larger too, we all laughed some more.  Then she said that after 30 years of marriage he has all of a sudden decided he likes big boobs.  Then she told him that he made his choice 30 years ago.  i was laughing but i really wanted to pick those breast pads up and look at them.  i didn't, but i did ask my wife later why they had those in JoAnns.  She said that some women who had a breast removed sewed them into their bras so that they would look natural and they wouldn't slip or move around.  i really wanted to shop lift a pair of those for my bra, but of course i didn't. 
 
 
YOUR shit eater whore

04-24-05: Dear Miss Patty

Thank YOU so much for allowing me to see YOU and YOUR friend last Thursday.  i do hope that YOU and She had a good laugh at my expense.  i did enjoy kissing, licking, and sucking on Her toes and feet.  i only wish that YOUR other friend would have shown up so that the three of YOU could have humiliated me and laughed at me even more.  i so wanted to prove my devotion to YOU and my willingness to degrade myself for YOUR amusement.  Going into the Marathon station wearing my long dangly ear rings and red lipstick was very scary as well as humiliating.  The two black girls who saw me didn't comment but they sure did give me sideways glances and i am sure that they had a good laugh after i left.  YOUR comments about the neighbor's dog, the restaurant, and the gay bar made me very excited and scared at the same time.  i know that i will be fantasizing about each of those scenarios.  i apologize for my tiny little clity that makes me so worthless as a male.  But perhaps that is what makes me so willing degrade myself and to please YOU and be used for YOUR amusement.  What ever the reason, "Fuck me, i am YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."  i do hope that i will see Her again and meet even more of YOUR friends. 
YOUR shit eater slut

 

04-17-05: Dear Miss Patty
i did not get a chance to do my assignment on Friday until late at night after my wife went to bed.  That is why i have not reported to YOU about it.  i made myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and used that for my assignment.  While i was standing in front of the toilet repeating my mantra "Fuck me, i am YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."  i fantasized about being used as YOU and YOUR friends toilet.  Laying on my back with a portable toilet seat above my head and one by one YOU and YOUR friends take turns using the potty in my face.  YOU not only shit and piss in my face but spit in it as well. 
 
i am very anxious to receive my instructions for next week.  i am especially anxious to hear any special instructions for Thursday.  i can't wait to see YOU.  Please let me know what YOU and YOUR friends thought about my fantasies this week.
 
YOUR shit eating slut

 

04-14-05: Dear Miss Patty
i did my assignment at work today.  we had something called a turkey wrap for lunch, it was sliced turkey on a soft taco shell with lettuce, cheese, and tomato wrapped over and eaten like a sandwich.  i took a large bite and went to the men's room.  i turned the fan on to make some noise so i could not be heard and chewed it to a gooey mess and then spit it into the palm of my hand.  i repeated my mantra, "Fuck me, i am YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire." for five minutes looking at the mess in my hand and then put it back into my mouth and chewed it for an additional 3 minutes standing in front of the toilet.  i then swallowed it as YOU instructed me to do. 
 
i somewhat amended my fantasy from yesterday.  i was still in my ladies slacks, top, and open toed wedge type sandals with my matching lipstick and toenail polish.  But this time instead of the cosmetic counter, YOU took me to an adult novelty shop, like the Garden or someplace similar.  YOU had me purchase a butt plug, a pink dildo, and a penis gag.  YOU explained to the clerk that i was YOUR sissy faggot in training and that i needed these items to learn how to service YOUR male friends.  YOU asked if there was a restroom where the butt plug could be inserted into my sissy pussy hole and you put the penis gag in my mouth and buckled the strap around my head.  YOU lead me out of the shop with the butt plug inside my sissy pussy hole, the penis gag in my mouth and a leash attached to a collar around my neck.  We then went to a Lesbian bar where YOU allowed the girls to use and abuse me.  They wanted to see my cock and ball harness and to slap, squeeze, punch my balls and cock while they were snugly wrapped in my leather triangle shaped harness just to see if they could make me squeal.  Then YOU had me get on my hands and knees and lick their shoes and take them pony rides around the bar.  YOU allowed them to jerk on my leash and to kick me in the behind.  Everyone laughing at YOUR sissy slut. 
 
i do hope that YOU and YOUR friends get a good giggle out of this fantasy. i am anxious to see YOU next week and can not wait to hear from YOU again.
 
YOUR shit eating slut whore

 

04-13-05: Dear Miss Patty
i am home and the first thing i did was put a left over hamburger in the microwave and heat it up.  Then i put it on a bun and a slice of cheese.  i took a big bite and then shoved a hand full of potato chips into my mouth and began chewing.  i went into the bathroom and chewed it into a gooey mess and then stood in front of the toilet and repeated for five minutes, "Fuck me, i am YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."  Then i took the gooey mess from the palm of my hand back into my mouth and after licking my palm clean i began chewing it for another three minutes.  i hope that this vision gives YOU and YOUR girlfriends a good giggle at my expense. 
 
my fantasy today was being made to buy a pair of women's slacks, perhaps Capri's, (wonder what gave me that idea?) and a women's top, a pair of open toed wedge type shoes with my toenails painted a bright pink and wearing a matching shade of lipstick.  Then being taken to the cosmetic counter of a department store and having YOU tell the clerk that YOUR sissy needs a new shade of lipstick and nail polish. Then after choosing a shade and making my purchase being taken to a friend/slave of YOUR'S house and being made to give him a blow job while YOU laugh and make fun of me.
 
Hope that my latest fantasy is not a disappointment to YOU and YOUR friends.
 
YOUR shit eating slut whore  

 

04-12-05: Dear Miss Patty
Today at work we had chicken nuggets and algraten potatoes for lunch.  i took a whole chicken nugget and a big bite of the cheesy potatoes in my mouth and made a beeline for the men's room.  i chewed my food to a gooey mess and then spit it into my hand as YOU instructed.  i turned the exaust fan on so that no one standing at the door could hear and softly repeated my mantra, "Fuck me, i am YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire." for the required five minutes.  Standing in front of the toilet, i had another fantasy.  Then when the required five minutes were up i put the gooey mouthfull of chewed food back into my slut mouth and chewed it for another three minutes and swallowed. It was not as bad as the lunchmeat and cheese last night.   
 
my fantasy was an amended version of the one i sent YOU yesterday.  Instead of YOUR beautiful bare feet, YOU step in shit wearing a pair of shoes, not flats or heals whith a nice smooth sole, but a pair of old running shoes with tread lines and cracks and crevices in the bottoms.  i then am required to lick the shit from the bottoms of YOUR shoes.  The shit that goes into the tred lines and cracks and crevices i must try to lick out with my tongue and any that i can not get out with my tongue, i must take a match stick or some other thin item and pull it through the tred line getting the shit from the bottom of that crevice out and making the tread line clean.  But instead of wiping the shit from the end of the match stick onto a piece of tissue or old rag, i must wipe the shit from the end of  the match stick on my tongue.  i must make the bottoms of YOUR old running shoes shiny and clean with my tongue. 
 
Please let me know what YOU think of my new fantasies.  i shall keep up my assignment and try to think up more disgusting tasks as my fantasies. 
 
Also i thought that YOU would like to know that i now remember why i quit wearing my old
cock and ball harness that completely covers my little pathetic cock and balls.  i have to completely remove it unbuckling the two straps just to take a leak, then buckle it back on afterwards.  It adds another three to five minutes or so to just peeing. 
 
YOUR shit eating cunt
 
04-11-05: Dear Miss Patty
i was so glad to get YOUR e-mail this evening.  my wife went to bed about an hour ago and i made myself a lunch meat and cheese sandwich.  i took a very large bite and went into the bathroom and chewed it until it was good and gooey.  Then i spit it into my hand, looking at it i repeated my mantra "Fuck me, i am YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire." over and over for three minutes.  i turned the radio on so that it would obscure my voice and my wife would not hear what i was saying very softly.  Then i put the chewed up gooey mess back into my mouth and chewed it some more.  i almost gagged, but was able to get it down without throwing up. 
 
While looking at it and standing in front of the toilet i did have a couple of more dirty thoughts. One was taking a turd from the toilet bowl and smearing it across my lips like putting on a coat of shit lipstick.  Then licking my fingers clean and then licking my lips clean.  Maybe even smoking a cigarette before licking my lips clean. 
 
The other was that YOU or one of YOUR girlfriends step barefoot on a turd, smashing and squishing the shit between YOUR toes and all over the bottom of your foot, then have me lay on my back and stick YOUR foot to my mouth and have me lick it clean, between the toes and everywhere. 
 
Ugh, i really don't know if i could handle that second one.  But YOU said to report my sick fucking fantasies to YOU.  i hope that they do not offend. 
 
YOUR slut shit eater

04-09-05: Dear Miss Patty

i just got in from fixing the gate.  i had a wonderful fantasy while i was outside working and chanting my mantra, "Fuck me, i am YOUR's to do with as YOU please." 
 
i am naked and wearing only a very wide dog collar that is very tight around my neck.  YOU have taken me down into YOUR cellar which has a dusty dirt floor.  YOU have chained me to a post in the middle of the cellar.  The chain is only 2 feet long and one end of it is padlocked to my dog collar and the other similarly padlocked to the end to post, low, only a foot off the floor.  i can not get any higher than on my knees and that is a strain.  my hands are cuffed behind my back and i am laying as best i can on the dirty floor.  i have been kept down here for a couple of days.  YOU and YOUR girlfriends check on me four or five times a day just to laugh at me, slap and kick me and have me lick the dust from the bottoms of YOUR shoes.  Then YOU usually slap and kick me before going back upstairs.  i am living in my own waste as YOU do not allow me to be free to shit or pee.  YOU and YOUR girlfriends even blindfold me and then shit and pee in my living space as well then removing the blindfold after so that i can see how i must wallow in shit and piss,  Twice a day YOU bring me table scraps and chewed up spit out food in a little wooden trough and a bowl full of piss water from the toilet.  YOU like bringing YOUR friends down to the cellar to show me to them and allowing them to abuse me and laugh at me too. 
 
i do hope that this fantasy is amusing to YOU and YOUR friends.  Please let me know what YOU think.
YOUR shit eating slut

 

04-09-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i am sitting here in my panties and bra, wearing my lipstick and dangly ear rings.  my wife left about an hour ago to go shopping in Columbus and won't be home until sometime early to mid afternoon. If YOU get this in time and YOU want to give me any additional tasks to perform while she is away please e-mail me with those orders. 
 
my period this week, as always, was a real pain, having to carry those pads and tampons with me to work all week and having to change them each time i had to go potty.  It is easy to flush the tampon, but disposing of the pad always presents a problem.  i used 19 tampons and pads this week and did have to buy a new box of tampons. 
 
i repeated my new mantra "Fuck me, i am YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire." at least 100 times every day this week.  Sometimes i would change it up to "Fuck me, i am YOUR shit eating pig..." or "Fuck me, i am YOUR cock sucking whore..." or "Fuck me, i am YOUR dog to whip and kick as YOU desire."  i do hope that is alright. 
 
i had a new fantasy about being naked and made to eat chewed up and spit out food from a dog bowl on the floor and being beaten and kicked, and being made to drink from a piss filled toilet.    
 
i do hope that i will hear from YOU today. Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU.
 
YOUR shit eating whore

 

04-07-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
Fuck me, i am YOUR"S to do with as YOU desire.
Fuck me, i am YOUR whore to use as YOU desire.
Fuck me, i am YOUR dog to beat, kick, and abuse as YOU desire.
Fuck me, i am YOUR pig to wallow in filth for YOUR amusement.
Fuck me, i am YOUR shit eating cunt to feed YOUR waist to.
 
i passed a mile stone today, i smoked a whole pack of Capri Menthol 120s in one day for the first time.  i opened a new pack this morning on the way to work and smoked four, then i had to run some errands at lunch time and smoked four more doing that instead of eating lunch, then i smoked four more on the way from work, then i smoked four more on the way home, i then had to run back to town to go to Krogers and smoked four more on the way over and back.  i had to stop and buy a new pack so that i would have some to smoke on the way to work tomorrow morning.
 
YOUR whore, dog, pig, and shit eating cunt

 

04-05-05: Dear Miss Patty
"Fuck me, i'm YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."
i picture myself and another slave, my right wrist is handcuffed to his left wrist, my left wrist is handcuffed to his right wrist.  Are ankles are similarly cuffed so that we are facing each other. Another pair of handcuffs are tight around my scrotum and his scrotum holding us together by our genitals.  we both have a dog collar around our necks and they are clipped together with a very short leash so that our faces are practically nose to nose.  A double ended dildo is in our mouths so that neither of us can turn our face away from the other.  we must do a slow bump and grind dance for YOU and YOUR girlfriend's amusement.  The objective is to see which of us will get hard first.  That person losses and must suck the other ones cock later.  We must then serve YOU and YOUR friends wine and snacks, careful to coordinate out movements so that we can move about without falling down.  We are then paddled by YOU and one of YOUR girlfriends, one of YOU paddling my backside then immediately after my whack, YOUR girlfriend whacks his back side.  After our asses are good and red the dildo is removed i am feed a bite of food which i must chew up and then i must lock my lips around his and must push the chewed up food into his mouth for him to swallow, then it is his turn to chew the food and transfer it to my mouth to be swallowed. This goes on for several bites.  i am sure that there are other tasks that YOU can come up with to make us do as well. 
 
"Fuck me, i'm YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."
 
One of YOUR other male slaves has to take a turd from the pot and use it as lube to jerk his penis to an erection and when he is good and hard and his cock and balls and pubic hare are covered in shit i am told to start licking his cock and balls and to suck him to an orgasm, making sure that i eat and swallow all his cum and all the shit that is smeared all over his genitals. 
 
"Fuck me, i'm YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."
 
YOU have me suck one of YOUR male slaves until he is ready to cum then YOU have him jerk himself off shooting his cum into my face.  Smearing it all over my face with the end of his dick.  Then leaving the cum to dry on my face YOU send me out on an errand to go through the drive through at McDonalds to buy a happy meal.  When i get it home YOU chew it up spitting it out into a bowl and then order me to eat it from the bowl like a dog...OR...YOU take a turd from the pot and smear it onto the bun (like spreading Ketchup or mustard on it) then setting the bun back on the burger and YOU have me eat my shit burger. 
 
"Fuck me, i'm YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."
 
YOU put me in full makeup, foundation, blush, eye liner, eye shadow, mascara, lip liner, lipstick, the whole works, very heavy and very slutty.  Then YOU take me to a wig shop to be fitted with a wig.  After trying on several, YOU make the choice and i buy it, then YOU have me wear it out of the shop.  On the way home we stop at a bar and YOU insist on showing off YOU faggy slave slut. 
 
"Fuck me, i'm YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."
 
i hope that these fantasies give YOU and YOUR girlfriends a good chuckle.
 
"Fuck me, i'm YOUR'S to do with as YOU desire."
YOUR slut alma 
PS.  Please let me know what YOU and YOUR girlfriends think of my wicked fantasies.  Thank YOU.
YOUR shit eating slut

 

04-03-05: Dear Miss Patty
my second shit sandwich did not go down as smoothly as the first.  On Thursday as YOU ordered, i hurried home to be here well enough ahead of my wife to have my second snack. After my BM, i took a turd about four inches long and spread it with my hand over a slice of brown bread, just as i did on Tuesday.  It tasted terrible, but everything was fine until the last two bites, then for some reason i began belching shitty gas, and my stomach began feeling a little nauseous.  i finished those last two bites but i chewed them a little slower and swallowed them with some trepidation.  When i finished i had to go lay down for about an hour for the nausea to pass.  i continued to belch for about a half an hour and each time i did i could not only re-taste the shit, but smell it as well.  i guess i was letting mouth farts. ;)  On Friday i repeated the process and made sure that i spread the shit a little thinner than the day before.  Using about half the amount of shit that i had used on Thursday.  It still totally covered the bread. After my shit sandwich on Friday i drank a big glass of orange juice.  i don't know if that helped better than the milk or not but i did not get nauseous nor did i get the belches. 
 
Other than that my week went well.  There was a new girl working at the drive through where i buy my Capri Menthol 120s yesterday. When i pulled in there were no other cars there and they were just sitting and talking.  The girl who usually gets me my cigarettes had the new girl wait on me and i know that they are having a good joke about me smoking Capri's because she said, "your the guy who smokes these cigarettes" when she handed them to me.  i didn't even have to tell her what i wanted, she just went and got them so i know that the other girl told her what i was there to buy. i smiled and answered yes i am.  She just smiled and took my money.  i told her to keep the change and put it in her tip jar. 
 
i am very anxious to here any comments from YOU or YOUR friends about my snacks this week.  Also my mind is going crazy wondering what is in store for me when i come to see YOU.  i do hope that YOU will give me some small hint???
 
i am also very anxious to get next weeks assignments. Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU.
 
YOUR sissy fagot shit eating cunt

 

03-29-05: Dear Miss Patty
 
i thought that YOU would like to know that i just ate my very first shit sandwich.  i got home and my wife called and said that she was going to be a couple of hours late getting home.  As i had to have a BM i figured that this was as good a time as any.  i went to the kitchen and got a slice of whole wheat bread,  It is Brown berry, which has large slices but sliced very thin, about only a half to two thirds as thick as regular Wonder bread, but with a heavy texture.  i took it to the bathroom and sat on the toilet.  Thankfully my stool was somewhat soft and it spread on the bread amazingly easy.  It went on almost like putting peanut butter on bread.  i used the whole turd, giving the whole slice about an eighth inch thick coating of shit from crust to crust covering the whole slice.  Then i took a deep breath and took a big bite.  i chewed it up until it was next to nothing and swallowed.  It took me six large bites to finish the whole thing, chewing each one for a long time.  i don't think that i would have been able to eat it had it not been for the bread giving it a texture and solidity that was chewable and not gagging.  It has left a very bitter and shitty taste in my mouth and my breath tastes like shit as well.  Since it went down my throat, i believe that this taste is going to stay with me a while longer than when i just hold it in my mouth and then spit it out.  i must admit that it was disgusting yet highly sexually exciting at the same time.  The taste was awful, but knowing that i was doing as YOU ordered and hoping that YOU and YOUR girlfriends will get a good laugh from my willingness to totally degrade myself for YOUR amusement made it highly sexual and exciting.  i could not wait to tell YOU about it.  i do hope that It pleases YOU.  Should i continue having these "snacks" the rest of the week?  Do YOU have something else to have me do?  i do hope that today was not the climax of my week serving and amusing YOU. 
 
i am very excited about coming to visit YOU in a couple weeks.  my mind is going wild trying to figure out what YOU will have me do.  Can YOU give me some hints?  i am going to go have my glass of milk and smoke a Capri Menthol 120 now before my wife comes home.  i will wear my red lipstick.  By the way, my upper lip was stained brown after biting into that shit covered bread so many times.  It looked like i had a brown shade of lipstick on when i finished. 
 
i do hope that i will hear from YOU soon, and i can't wait to hear what YOUR girlfriends have to say.  
 
YOUR shit eating slut whore

 

03-28-05: Dear Miss Patty 
i am up early today so that i can send YOU this report.  my wife went to town to meet a girlfriend for coffee.  i have just had a morning BM and thought that YOU would want me to continue my toilet training so i now have that familiar shitty taste in my mouth.  i held two big mouth full for three minutes each.  i was in such a hurry sending YOU my report on Saturday that i forgot to thank YOU for allowing me to cum. 
 
Last week at work i was really worried about not wearing socks to work over my stockings.  i wore my pants as low as i could and was very careful not to put one leg over my other while setting.  i tried to stay seated behind my desk as much as possible.  It was still very scary i was sure someone would notice that i not only didn't have socks on, but that i was wearing hose.  my feet felt strange in my shoes with only stockings on and no socks.  It made it very difficult to do my job.  i do hope that YOU will not give me that assignment again any time soon as it made me constantly self conscious about being caught.  i really like the red lip print and the way the red lipstick is so shiny on my lips, but i am going to have to be more careful and do a better job of wiping it off.  It seems to stain the lips so much more than the other colors i have been wearing.  It would look so nice as a lip print on a cock though. 
i am very anxious to get my next assignment.  i do hope that YOU had a very good Easter and i hope i will hear from YOU soon.  i also hope that YOU and YOUR girlfriends are having a good laugh at my expense.
         YOUR sissy slut shit eating whore

 

03-26-05: Dear Miss Patty
i am home alone again but my son who stayed with friends last night in Columbus is due home within the hour so i am not wearing my lipstick, earrings, or bra, though i do have my panties and thigh-highs on under my clothes.  i also have that very familiar shitty taste in my mouth. 
 
i did almost get caught three times this week.  On Tuesday at work i was putting on my panties and stockings when someone wanted in the men's room.  i had to hurry to finish getting dressed and they were waiting outside the door when i finally exited the restroom.  They noticed that my lips were stained a little reddish or pinkish from the red lipstick and made some comment about it asking me if my lips were chapped or cracked.  i said yes and hurried away.  Then i went and rubbed my lips making them even more red.  Then on Wednesday after changing into my panties and stockings, i went to get a cup of coffee and after taking the first sip i noticed that there were red flecks on the rim of the white cup.  i quickly turned away from two co-workers and wiped the rim clean then went to rub my lips clean some more. 
 
On Wednesday i hurried home to complete my assignment of toilet training.  i got completely nude and took my shit.  There was one very long turd and two small ones when i finished and wiped.  i reached into the toilet bowl as YOU instructed and took one of the smaller turds into my hand and then shoved it into my mouth.  While holding that mouthful of shit, i took the long turd in my right hand and began stroking my little tiny sissy clitty.  i had just finished shooting my seed all over my shit covered hand and into the pot when i heard the front door open.  i quickly spit my mouthful of shit into the toilet and began trying to wipe the shit from my cock and balls and pubic hair.  It was very messy down there.  i heard my wife call my name and i told her that i was in the bathroom.  i quickly wiped the little slivers of shit from the toilet rim and front of the toilet bowl and jumped into the shower.  She came to the door, which was locked and asked what i was doing.  i told her that i had just had a very messy diarrhea BM and had to clean myself.  When i got out of the shower i quickly dried off, again cleaned and flushed the toilet and got dressed and took the brown stained wash cloth and towel i used to dry to the laundry room.  My wife went into the bathroom and came out yelling at me about how much it stank in there and told me to turn on the exhaust fan and light a candle.  i am sure she thought something was going on, but i don't think she would ever guess that i was wanking myself off with a hand full of shit, or that i would have my mouth full of my own shit while i was doing it.  Only YOU could come up with something as self degrading as that, and only someone as worthless and in need of humiliation as myself would actually do it. 
                      YOUR sissy faggot shit eating slut

 

03-18-05: Dear Miss Patty
i am sitting here writing YOU with a shitty taste in my mouth.  i do hope that my self-degradation and total lack of self respect brings YOU some comfort and joy, and that YOU and YOUR girlfriends are getting a good laugh at my expense.  i did not have a BM on Friday, but just had a small one about 20 minutes ago.  It was one turd about 8 inches long and about an inch in diameter.  It was two medium size mouthful's.  Like always, after holding each one in my mouth for the required 3 minutes it softens up to the point where it coats my tongue and the roof of my mouth pretty well.  The taste stays for a while and it makes me wonder if anyone has smelled my breath this week but has been too polite to say anything.  Playing in the toilet is going to be difficult this week with everyone here for Easter.  i was wondering if YOU could limit my assignment in the bathroom to only once or twice this next week.  (That is if YOU plan on keeping me as a shit eating slut for now, that of course is up to YOU) Of course i will comply with whatever YOU decide.  YOU know much better than i do about how my self debasement should be handled. 
 
i have only smoked about three packs of my faggy Capri Menthol 120s this week, as my throat was sore most of the week.  i seem to be much better now. Just to remind YOU i have work Mon, Tue, and Wed, this week and then i am off Thu, Fri, and next Mon.  i am hoping to be able to see YOU soon, but have not been able to come up with any excuse to come to Columbus or to be gone for the three plus hours or so it will take to make a visit.  i am hoping that some excuse or reason will present itself soon. 
 
i am anxious to hear from YOU and to know my next assignment.  i am also anxious to know what YOU and YOUR friends think about how i degrade myself for YOUR amusement.  i anxiously await YOUR next e-mail. 
 
YOUR shit eating slut

 

03-17-05: Dear Miss Patty
i did not hear from YOU last night or today, so i have been following YOUR original instructions.  i had a smaller BM last night after my wife had gone to bed.  It was only two mouthful's which i did not have any problem holding in my mouth for the full three minutes each.  Afterward my mouth and breath smelled so bad that i watched TV for about an hour then went to the garage and smoked two of my faggy cigarettes before going to bed.  i don't know which would be worse, my wife waking up and asking what smelled like shit, or why did i smell like smoke?  i did not eat or drink anything until this morning. 
 
i just got home from work and had been holding a BM all the way home.  i am home by myself so i did my business and again this was a large one.  It took four mouthful's and i again held the first three for the full three minutes each, but on the fourth one, i think i crammed too much in (i didn't want a fifth mouth full) and i could only hold it for about a minute or a little longer and then i started to gag.  So i am sitting here with a shitty taste in my mouth and shitty breath for sure writing to YOU.  my wife won't be home for about an hour and a half so i will not eat or drink or gargle until after she arrives home. 
 
Regarding next week, i am off Thursday, Friday and the following Monday for Easter.  i thought YOU would want to know.  i have not been able to come up with anything for an excuse to get to Columbus so far but i am working on it.  Should something come up unexpectedly on one of those days that i am off, could i call YOU on a short notice and see if YOU are available?  i don't know that anything will come up, but that is how it usually works, something out of the blue.  Only fly in the ointment is that my kids will all be home this weekend for Easter.  i am sure that YOU have plans as well, but i was thinking about one of those week days, not Sat. or Sunday. 
   
03-16-05: Dear Miss Patty
i had my first BM this morning about 7:10 AM and it was a dozy.  There were two large turds,  each about 10 to 12 inches long.  i did as instructed and ended up having to take two mouthfuls for each turd.  i had to take half of the first turd and fold it over on itself to fill my slut mouth, then held it for the required 3 minutes, then spit it back into the toilet and took the other half and did the same.  After that i took half of the second turd and repeated the process holding it for the full three minutes, the fourth mouthful, the second half of the second turd i could only hold in my mouth for about a minute and a half and then i started gagging.  i could feel the shit running down my throat for the last half of that third mouthful and all of the fourth mouthful.  When i spit out the mouthfuls they were no longer turds but big wads of shit.  It stuck to the roof of my mouth and i could feel it between my teeth and all over my mouth, even under my tongue. i tasted shit all morning, even to a lesser degree in the afternoon.  i could even smell it on my own breath.  Luckily i didn't really have to talk to anyone everyone knew that i have had this sore throat and cough so i just pointed to my throat and pretended i had laryngitis and couldn't talk. 
 
i was wondering since it took me almost 25 minutes to complete the assignments counting the time to shit and then the 10 and a half minutes i had my mouth full and then trying to spit out as much of my brown saliva as possible afterwards,  if we could alter this assignment somehow, say holding only two mouthfuls or chewing one mouthful for 3 minutes or something so that i am not taking so long in the men's room and do not gag?  At least if i have another BM at work?  If YOU say i must complete the assignment as ordered i will of course comply,  i was fine for the first two mouthfuls and even for most of the third, but that last one really gagged me.  Please advise and i will comply.

 

03-14-05: Dear Miss Patty
i have finished my period today, i used another four pads and tampons.  my throat is still sore and i still have a sore throat, so i have only smoked 4 of my faggy little Capri Menthol 120s today.  my doctor is supposed to call in a prescription for me to pick up, but it will probably be tomorrow after work before i can get it.  i just got home from work and wanted to send YOU this before my wife comes home.  i was hoping that i would have my assignment for this week.  i am anxiously awaiting. 
 
i have discovered something about myself that YOU may already know, i want to not just be YOUR slut and pig, i want to be YOUR total bitch, YOUR whore, YOUR bootlicker, YOUR total submissive.  i want YOU to make me do dirty disgusting things just for YOUR amusement, i want to be so totally submissive to YOU that YOU know that i will humiliate and degrade myself in any way that YOU may desire, on any whim YOU may have.  i want YOU to let all YOUR friends know that YOU own this silly bitch that will do whatever YOU tell it to do.  i hope that they all find it very amusing.   
 
i hope that at some time in the near future i can come to Columbus so that YOU can allow me to prove my devotion and total submission to YOU in front of YOUR friends and any one else YOU may choose.  i crave to become so obedient to YOU that i almost become boring to YOU.  i am sure that YOU do not need any ideas from me, but if YOU want to hear some of mine, i will be happy to tell them to YOU.  But i don't want YOU to think that i am trying to top from the bottom.  So i will keep them to myself unless asked.  i am to serve YOUR whims and desires, not my own disgusting fantasies. 
    YOUR devoted slave

 

03-12-05: Dear Miss Patty
i have been on my period since Tuesday.  i have used 16 tampons and pads.  i know that i am to continue my period this Monday.  i believe that i will probably use 3 or 4 more tampons and pads Monday.  i have been smelling the brown end of my tampons when i remove them.  i even put my tongue up to it a couple of times.  i don't know why but that smell now makes me sexually excited.   i wonder if the custodian at work ever comes across any of my used pads when they empty the trash containers from the men's room.  If so i wonder what they think.  The afternoon custodian is a woman.  i bet she chuckles about it if she does ever see them.    
 
The flame red lipstick leaves my lips a little pinkish when i wipe it off.  Must be something about the red die that just doesn't wipe away as cleanly as other colors.  i had two people at work tell me that my lips looked red or pink and my wife told me the same thing yesterday when i got home from work.  i told them that my lips were chafed and sore.  They were sore from rubbing them.  Everyone seemed to accept that explanation.  i have had a really bad sore throat and cough since Thursday and so i have not been smoking as much, it seems to irritate my throat.  i had smoked two and a half packs since last Sunday through Wednesday, but have only smoked six on Thursday and six on Friday.  My throat is feeling better today and i hope that i am over it. 
 
i am very anxious to hear from YOU, how did YOUR weekend at lake hope go?  Were YOU there to play or just to relax, or both?  i do hope that YOU are enjoying my willingness to debase myself for YOUR amusement and i do hope that YOUR girlfriends are getting a good laugh as well.  Thank YOU for taking the time to make me YOUR personal joke. 

03-06-05: Dear Miss Patty
i guess YOU and YOUR friends already know what i really am. (a shit eating faggot) As i sit here writing to YOU, my wife is away for the rest of the day, and i am wearing my panties, bra, stockings, cock harness, lipstick, ear rings and i found an old bottle of green nail polish that belongs to my daughter and i have painted my nails with it and i also found a bottle of mascara so i went ahead and darkened and lengthened my eye lashes with it. my tongue is brown from licking three very long turds from a BM i just had about 10 minutes ago. i am also smoking a Capri 120, so i will have to air out the house when i am finished.

On Thursday i had three BMs and licked the turds each time. i must tell YOU that i had one right after lunch while at work and when i got back to work i was talking to a group and one person (a female) said she could smell crap, another person asked who farted and the first person said "This doesn't smell like a fart, it smells like someone has shit their pants." i had to tell them to end that conversation and then stayed about 10 feet away from everyone for the next hour or so. On Friday i had two BMs and the first one, right after i got home from work was very soft and about the consistency of oatmeal, there was no turd to lick, so i took the toilet paper that i had wiped with and with the smeared shit side to my tongue ran it up and down over my tongue. It put a lot more shit on my tongue than when i lick the turd and i could even feel a little pasty shit on the roof of my mouth and had little gritty pieces on my tongue. That taste and smell stayed with me longer than normal. The BM i had before i went to bed was still softer than normal but there were soft turds so i went back to licking them as YOU instructed. i know that my assignment ended Friday, but since i am home alone writing YOU this report and i had to go to the toilet, my first today, i figured that YOU would appreciate me having a brown shit painted tongue and a shitty taste in my mouth while i was writing to YOU.

i still have not had an opportunity to look for a new lipstick but will be trying to do that later today or tomorrow. i have smoked over four packs of my sissy Capri 120s this week. i am up to about 12 to 15 cigarettes a day now. And because i apply and reapply my lipstick for each one i am definitely using a lot of lipstick.

i know that i am a worthless piece of shit and that my willingness to do any disgusting thing YOU order me to do makes me a big joke to YOU and YOUR friends, but for whatever reason that thought excites me. i am anxious to get my next assignment. Thank YOU for using me as YOUR lackey and allowing me to humor YOU and YOUR friends.

YOUR slut

03-02-05: Dear Miss Patty
First let me wish YOU a Happy Birthday! i do hope that YOU had a great day and that YOU will have many more.

i know that it is only Wednesday, but i have been home from work for the past two days (due to the weather) and since i know that YOU will be out of town this weekend i thought i might send YOU a partial report now. my wife is gone for a few hours, so i am home alone and i not only am wearing my red panties, cock harness, and stockings but my bra and ear rings as well along with my wine lipstick. Yesterday (Tuesday) i had my first BM in the morning and followed YOUR instructions. After wiping, i reached into the toilet bowl and lifted out the longest of the three turds. i ran the front tip of my tongue down it's length from end to end. i kept my mouth open with my tongue stick out for five minutes as YOU instructed. i must say i was salivating very heavily for this period of time. When i looked in the vanaty merior i could see a slight brown streak down the center of my tongue. i did not eat or drink anything for two hours as instructed. The bitter taste of the shit only lasted for about 20 minutes or so. i repeated this exercise twice more before the day was over the third and last one right before bed at 11:00 PM last night. Since i had to go to the bathroom again right after my wife left just thirty minutes ago, i decided to continue my assignment today even though YOU had instructed me to do this on Tuesday and Thursday. i decided to e-mail YOU about it (knowing that YOU would be out of town Friday throurgh Sunday) so that YOU might be able to share this information with YOUR girlfriends and anyone else YOU might like. i wanted to be sure that my tongue was coated good and that the taste would last while i was writing YOU this e-mail so i did it a little different. i licked all four turds that were in the bowl and i even stuck each of them into my open mouth as far back on my tongue as i could so that i would cover the whole thing. i figured that i think i know where this is headed anyway so i had better get used to putting a turd in my mouth even if (for now at least) i am keeping my mouth open. Now about a half hour later i can still taste the bitter shit in my mouth. Turning around after a BM and reaching into the toilet bowl to retrieve what i just deposited there is begining to feel like a normal thing to do. i know that my willingness to follow YOUR instructions for these past three asignments involving my own waste makes me a totally worthless excuse of a person, but i get so excited doing the disgusting things that YOU have me do. my greatest hope out of all of this is that YOU and YOUR friends are getting a very good laugh at my expense and that YOU know that i want to be YOUR personal joke, i want to execute any whim YOU or YOUR friends may have just for YOUR own personal amusement.

02-27-05: Dear Miss Patty
This weeks assignment has me finally realizing what a pathetic loser i am and how i deserve every humiliation and degradations YOU are so generously willing to heap upon me.
As instructed, i wore my panties and cock harness all week. i did not have to work on Monday because of it being President's Day. i wore my panties and cock harness here at home from around 9:30 AM until 11:00 PM. i also made several trips to the garage and out in my car so that i could wear my lipstick and smoke my Capri Menthol 120s. i continued my assignment at work Tuesday and Wednesday, then on Thursday i was home again because of the snow. i basically repeated my actions of Monday with one big exception. Around 4:00 PM my wife left the house to run some errands over in Lancaster. i felt a BM coming on and it was then or never. So i did as YOU instructed. i took my clothes off and took off my cock harness, i still had on my fuchsia panties so i dropped them down around my knees and sat on the toilet. After i had wiped i stood and turned to the toilet bowl and bent over and slowly reached in and grabbed about half of a long floating turd. i then sat back down on the toilet and began massaging my little tiny sissy clitty with that hand full of shit. i had it everywhere. It was not only all over my little cockett, but smeared into my pubic hair around my cock, all over the front of my scrotum, and between my fingers and all over the palm and even some on the back of my hand. It took about five minutes of rubbing for me to finally cum. Brown shitty water from the turd had dropped all over the toilet seat, on my panties, and even on the floor in front of the toilet, not to mention the little slivers of shit that had fallen as well. i put my shit and cum covered hand up in front of my face, about five inches away from my nose and it stank to high heaven. The cum began sliding down the palm of my hand and down my wrist, little slivers of wet gooey shit and cum also began to run down my arm. When the five minutes were up i flushed the toilet and then washed my hand in the toilet bowl. i next stepped out of my panties and jumped into the shower and scrubbed myself clean. Then i had to clean the floor around the toilet, the toilet seat, and even the inside of the toilet bowl from the brown slivers that were high up on the inside of the bowl. Then i washed my panties out in the toilet and took them to the garage to hide and dry. my hand still smelled like shit to me the rest of the day no matter how many times i washed it. After last weeks assignment, and now this assignment, the smell of shit, while not pleasant, does get me sexually excited.
i have smoked almost four packs of Capri Menthol 120s this week, i seem to be smoking more and more. That brings up another situation, since i always put on a thick layer of lipstick for each and every cigarette, my wine lipstick is getting wore down. i now have less than an inch of it above the edge of the tube. i think that i am going to have to get more. Is there another color that this pathetic sissy could buy that would please YOU? i seem to have enough of the lip gloss left, though since it is a liquid in that tube with the wand it is hard to tell.
i had a fantasy that i would like to tell YOU about since i believe that it could be a good idea for humiliating and degrading a slave. i got this idea from a couple of different places. A television show where someone used a stocking as a gag and then a knot in my own knee high one day. The idea is to take a knee high or stocking and tie a knot in it about half way up the leg, then insert something disgusting, shit, used menstrual pads or tampons, dog food, anything the Mistress would be amused by. Then tie another knot just above what ever has been packed into the middle of the stocking. Then shove the ball of disgusting material that is caught between the two knots into the slaves mouth and then bring the toe end and the open end of the stocking around behind his head and pull it tight and tie it into a knot holding the material in the slaves mouth. i am not suggesting that i would want this done to me, but that is for YOU do decide, not me. i just thought YOU might like to know that my imagination is always at work. i hope that i am not over stepping my position by offering a Superior Goddess such as YOURSELF ideas on how to degrade worthless slaves. It just got me very excited yet very scared when i put it together in my head.
i anxiously await next weeks assignment.
YOUR worthless pathetic slave

02-18-05: Dear Miss Patty
i must say that this has been one of the most humiliating and degrading weeks i have had yet. From Monday night until today i have had 9 BMs and so have spent at least 45 minutes with my head in the toilet bowl smelling my own waste. While having my face about two to three inches away from my floating turds and soggy shit smeared toilet paper i have had some time to contimplate my situation and place in life. i am no longer just YOUR sissy slut and whore, but i am now also YOUR pig/dog who will do anything YOU order just so that YOU and YOUR frineds can laugh at me and make my life and existence YOUR peronal joke. At first i was wondering why i was willing to degrade myself so, but the answer to that is simple, i need to be YOUR "thing" for YOU to use to amuse YOURSELF with. i began to fantasize that YOU and YOUR friends were standing over me laughing and that YOU even had the toilet plunger on the back of my head forcing my face down into the toilet and ordering me to bring up mouthfulls of what was in the toilet so that YOU could laugh even more. i thought of myself as YOUR pig/dog that would not only give YOUR other male slaves a blow job but who would also smell and lick their ass if YOU so ordered and from that (being a pig/dog) my fantasies expanded to licking the bottoms of YOUR shoes and boots to smelling and licking a pig or dog's ass and licking their genetals so that YOU could laugh at me. i fantasized about eating YOUR garbage from a dog bowl or pig trouth. By Wednesday morning i was including salads and fresh fruits in my diet so that i would get enough ruffage into my diet to make sure that i had enough BMs to preform the assignment as often as possible. i used the men's toilet in the employee lounge because the door locked and i would not be having to jump up if someone came into the regular public restroom. So i could keep my face down there for the full five minutes as YOU ordered without being disturbed. i do hope that this amuses YOU and that YOU and YOUR friends will think of other ways to make me show my devotion by being YOUR pig/dog.
i am also smoking more now too. i have smoked three and a half packs of my Capri Menthol 120s this week. Always wearing lipstick and or lip gloss. i am to the point where i almost don't feel right in the car if i am not wearing my ear rings, and when i don't have my panties or cock harness on i feel like i am not dressed properly. i am decending rapidly, it is like i am on a train that keeps going faster and faster and there is no way to get off.
i am very anxious to hear what YOU have in store for me next week, and i am still trying to figure out some excuse to come to Columbus sometime soon. i do hope that this pleases YOU and i hope that i am not trying to be too philisophical about all this.
i had a dream the other night that i was in front of a group of people wearing my ear rings and didn't realize that i had them on until some people began laughing at me and then asked me about them. i had another dream that YOU and another woman took me to a greasy spoon diner and that the two of YOU ordered breakfast and then ordered me just one slice of french toast. YOU told the waitress to make it dry, no butter and no suryp, then when it came YOU said that it looked too dry, so YOU began to spit on it, then offered it to YOUR friend to spit on and then to the shocked waitress to spit on. When it was covered in spit YOU had me eat it and then tell the waitress how great it was.
i hope to hear from YOU soon.
YOUR sissy, slut, whore, pig/dog

02-13-05: Dear Miss Patty
i followed YOUR instructions and had my period this week. That is a lot of extra work we sissies have to go through to have a period. On Tuesday i went to Target as instructed and bought my tampons, pads, condums and panties. They are a bright pink bikini style panty. They have little pink strings around the side holding the front and rear triangles that form the front and back together. They also have a pretty pink bow in the front. i was hoping to get a lacy, pail pink pair of regular panties but in my size 12 i couldn't find a pair like that. So these are a hot pink bikini style. i went to the rest room and changed my pad and tampon. YOUR e-mail didn't say anything about the condums being worn but i figured YOU would want me to wear one so i put one over my itsy-bitsy teeny weeny any way and then left Target for Speedway. i went into the mens room and played with my clitty but didn't cum since YOU did not tell me to. Then i disposed of my pad and tampon and chewed the condum anyway. It did have some pre cum in it.
i feel like a teenager who's mother will not let her leave the house dressed as she wants to dress when i leave for work in the morning. So i must take matters into my own hands. As soon as i pull away from the house i am putting on my long dangly ear rings, then applying my lipstick before lighting my first Capri Menthol 120 of the day. Just before ariving at work i remove my ear rings, and wipe the lipstick from my lips before entering the parking lot. Then when i get into the building i hurry to the men's room to change into my thigh-highs and panties. Then i reverse the process right after work. i am a very naughty girl.
i can't wait to see YOU again. i am not sure how soon it will be before i can come up with another excuse to get to Columbus. i am racking my brain on trying to come up with something though. i keep fantesizing about standing before YOU wearing my panties, bra, thigh-highs, heels (that YOU have so generously kept for me) and wearing my ear rings and lipstick and smoking a Capri.
i used 16 tampons and pads this week and again smoked three packs of Capri Menthol 120's. i hope to hear next weeks asignment soon. Between trips to the hospital and work i am busy, but the hospital trips do give me a reason to be home late from work or to go back over to town. (Arn i being a terrible person?)
YOUR slut

02-06-05: Dear Miss Patty
Only one exciting event occured this week, though it did not cause to much suspicion. At least that i know about. i droped my tube of wine color lipstick into my lap while driving and trying to turn a corner and open the tube to reapply my lipstick. It left a wine color smear on my pants right by the zipper. (my pants were kaki) It must have come off the edge of the tupe and not the lipstick itself because i didn't even notice it until my wife saw it and asked me about it. i told her that i had dropped a marker and that is how it must have got there. She did say that it looked more like blood than ink. But never mentioned it again.
i wore my fucia panties and my new beige thigh-highs at work as instructed every day last week and i wore my wine lipstick and smoked my Capri Menthol 120s all week on the way to and from work as instructed. i will say this about pantyhose and thigh-highs, they do help keep one's legs warm on cold days. They also feel so smooth on my legs inside my trousers, though they are a real pain to have to put on every day.
YOUR girlfriends suggestions about going out in public shopping scares the hell out of me. As for sucking cock, it both scares and excites me. Worshiping YOUR'S and YOUR girlfriend's feet would be a great honor.
i have six pads, about six or seven tampons, no wipes, and no condums left in my stash. i have also smoked three packs of Capri Menthol 120s this week.
i am anxious to hear from YOU.
YOUR slut

01-30-05: Dear Miss Patty
This has been a very interesting week. One that i am sure YOU and YOUR friends will find amusing. i wore my red panties and cock harness to work every day this week. As usual i got there early and put them on in the restroom. i also wore my ear rings and lipstick to and from work smoking my wonderful Capri 120s all the way there and all the way back.
On Thursday i had a Doctors apointment to check blood pressure and blood sugar in the afternoon. i lef work a little early and went to Target. When i walked in i saw two people who know me working. (former students) so, i hope this is okey with YOU, i left and drove up to Meijer to make my purchases. i bought two pair of beige knee highs and one pair of beige thigh highs. i went to the cosmetic isle and picked out a wine color lipgloss, then a new lipstick caught my eye. Revlon lipstick in a small slim tube. i picked out a wine shade of it and went to pay. i was very self consious standing in line at the check out counter and didn't ralize it until i had my purchases on the counter and was being rung up, but the woman who was running the cashregister was a woman i had went to school with, she is one year ahead of me. She smiled and said hi, asked me how i had been and then said how lucky my wife was that i would buy these items for her. My wife dosn't know her and i havn't seen this lady in years so hopefully it will not get back to her.
This story even gets better, though i can say that now, i was definatly cursing myself at the time. When i got to the car i couldn't wait to apply my new lipstick and smoke one of my Capris. So i opened the box it came in and applied it. As i was pulling out of Meijer's lot i noticed that there was no lipstick smudge on my cigarette butt. So...stupid me...i applied more, looking into the miror to make sure that the color was indeed on my lips. It was. This time taking another drag on my Capri there were only small flecks of color on my cigarette with the butt still being mostly white. i quickly discarded my cigarette out the window and began to try to rub off the lipstick. it did dull down a little and lose it's shine, but my lips were still definatly wine color. i pulled over and looked at the box and the name of this brand of Revlon was "Color Stay Lipstick" it said it could be romoved with some kind or makeup remover or baby oil. i was afraid i was going to be late for my doctors apointment but i couldn't go into his office with lipstick on. i pulled into the WallGreen Drug store on Memorial Drive and pressing my lips together, hoping no one would notice my wine colored lips i went in and bought a small bottle of baby oil. In the parking lot i applied baby oil to my wipe off rag and much to my joy and relief, the lipstick came off. i did manage to get to my doctors apointment on time, barley.
On my way home from work Friday, my car started acting up. i didn't know if i would make it home or not. By the time i got to my mechanics garage i was only going about 20 mph. He said he could look at it on Monday, but until it is fixed i am without a car. i had to call my brother in law to come and get me and take me home. That ment hiding my ear rings, lipsticks, and cigarettes in my coat pockets while i rode home with him. Fortunatly i was able to concele my sissy parfanailia. When i got home i went to the garage to compleat my weekly assignment. But it was too cold out there. i could not get my little sissy clity hard and even when i got it semi hard i couldn't keep it hard. So i went back into the house and since my wife was not home yet i brought myself to a climax in the bathroom with the door locked. Then i removed the condum and put it into my mouth and began chewing as YOU ordered. i then returned to the garage to smoke a cigarette as ordered. i got my panties and cock harness off and hid, and returned to the house to throw away the condum just as my wife came home.
i have been scared and excited about suckng a cock for YOU. i fantasize about YOU and others laughing at me and calling me names while i am on my knees with a real cock in my mouth. But i am also scared. Do YOU know for sure that this person is clean and does not have HIV or use I.V. drugs? i guess i need to be reasured. i will let YOU know about my car and when i will be able to make it up there for my date with destiny. Hopefully by the end of this week or early the next week.
i do hope that YOU get a good laugh at my sissy activities and that YOUR friends get a good laugh at me as well.
YOUR slut and faggot

01-23-05: Dear Miss Patty
The assignment this week went smothly. i didn't have to work Monday because it was MLK day. So when my wife left to go to town, i was able to not only wear my cock harness and panties, but i got to wear my bra and dangly ear rings for a couple of hours as well. Then on Wednesday we had a snow day. That was difficult because neither one of us left the house. i didn't get my cock harness or panties on until noon. But i did wear them until about 11:30 that evening.
i have not been able to get a new tube of lip gloss yet, so i have been wearing my old pink lipstick and mauve lip gloss (what is left of it) in town. But am putting the Wine Lipstick (which is much darker) on while driving at night and in the country, i am also wearing my ear rings then. i have smoked two and a half packs of my sissy Capri Menthol 210s this week. Though it was bad on Wednesday as i had to go outside in the cold and snow or into the garage to put on lipstick and smoke. i also wore my dangly ear rings in the garage while i was smoking.
i was able to surf the web for Female Domination stories for a while on Monday and became very horney. my little clitty is ready to bust, i do hope that YOU will allow me to play with it until it squirts this week.
i am working on an excuse to get to Columbus to see YOU soon. i am thinking sometime the second or third week in February. i am supposed to go to a meeting after work up at OSU sometime in early Feb. But i don't know the exact date yet. If the weather is bad they will canciel so i will have to play it by ear. i will let YOU know as soon as i hear anything.
i am looking forward to hearing from YOU about my assignments for next week and to hear from YOU about what a pathetic loser i am. i do hope that YOU and YOUR Girlfriends are getting a good laugh at me. i can't wait for YOU to humiliate me in front of them so that they will know what a sissy fat pig i am. i am anxious to kiss and suck on YOUR beautiful feet and toes, and to be used for YOUR amusement. i would like for YOU to feed me YOUR table scraps in one of YOUR dog's bowls. Would that make a good picture on YOUR web page, a picture of YOUR garbage in a dog bowl and then a picture of my face down in that garbage licking it up? That is for YOU to decide though, i am just thinking of one of the stories i read that got me horrney.
YOUR sissy slut pig

01-15-05: Dear Miss Patty
i am writing this to you sitting here at home wearing my panties, cock harness, panty hose, and bra. i also have my new wine Este Lauder lipstick on and i am wearing a pair of my new long dangly ear rings.
This has been too exciting of a week. i am home and writing YOU today because i had to take today off to do some things around the house and a plumber is comming this afternoon. We have water in our basement and the sump pump has quit working. We will be gone this weekend, so i won't be able to e-mail YOU on Sunday as i usually do.
First let me say that whoever invented panty hose should be strangled with a pair of them. They are such a pain putting on and taking down everytime you have to go to the bathroom. i almost got caught changing my pad and tampon this week. i would have been out of that toilet stall if i hadn't been fussing with those panty hose trying to get them pulled back up and straightened up where they twisted around my thighs when i tried to pull them back up after changing my pad and tampon. The used pad, the tampon aplicator, and the used femenine wipe are a lot to have to carry out of the restroom unseen and then disposed of later. Periods are a pain!!! Would it be possable to get a pair of nice pretty Thigh-Highs and wear them instead? That would make it a lot simpler to go to the toilet.
i fear that i am getting too bold in wearing my lipstick and ear rings in the car in daylight. Last night coming down Memorial Drive in Lancaster around 4:00 PM i was wearing my wine lipstick, and my longest pair of dangly ear rings and smoking one of my Capri cigarettes, it was still very long as i had just lit it. i stoped at a light and a car full of teenage girls pulled up beside me in the left hand turn lane. i didn't realize that until they honked their horn, when i turned to look a girl in the passanger seat was pointing at me and laughing. She pulled on her own ear rings and then pointed at me again, then she must have seen my lipstick coverd lips and began pointing at my mouth. i turned back staring straight ahead but she rolled her window down and began yelling something at me about my lipstick. When i turned to look all the girls in the car were gawking at me with open mouths. Finally the light changed and the car behind her started honking and they turned left while i stared straight ahead and waited for my light to change. i really paniced and thought about removing the ear rings, but then didn't. i went down to the next intersection and turned off Memorial and took back residential streets across town. may i remove them when in town where i have to stop at lights and can be looked at by other cars sitting at the intersection? Or do YOU have some other suggestion? Of course i will do what ever YOU decide no matter what the decision. i just keep thinking what if that was a car with people who know me.
i have used 13 tampons and pads so far this week (counting the ones i am wearing right now) and will definatly use two more before today is over. i have smoked two packs of my Capri Menthol 120s and just opened a third pack this morning after my wife left for work. i bought it yesterday afternoon on the way home knowing that i would need it for today since i only had four cigarettes left in my old pack, i smoked two of them on the way home and the other two in the garage last night.
It is so exciting being YOUR slut sissy, but sometimes i do get guilt feelings and feel really stupid, wondering what would people think if they knew that a 56 year old father of three, maried for thirty years was wearing lipstick, ear rings, panties, panty hose, sometimes a bra, and smoking femenine cigarettes, all to amuse and please his Mistress. i don't know why but i crave YOUR attentions and being YOUR toy to play with and amuse YOURSELF and YOUR friends with.

01-10-05: Dear Miss Patty
i wore my panties and cock harness to work every day this past week as instructed. On Thursday i put a condum on before leaving work and then went to Target and bought the tampons, pads, and Femenin wipes. Then headed for the public restroom where i had to set on the toilet and play with my little sissy clity for a long time to get it to shoot my sissy sauce into the condom. Every time i seemed to get close to a climax, it seemed someone would come in and i would get scared and stop pulling on it. After about 15 or 20 minutes i finally shot my load into the condum. my little sissy clitty deflated pretty fast and i had to pull the condum back toward my body. It was very gooy. i then left Target and headed for Speedway. i was wearing my maroon lipstick and when i went inside i tried to keep my lips pressed tightly together. There was a female clerk stocking some shelves and i was nervous. i didn't see the restroom sign off to the right and had to aproach her to ask where they were. i put my hand over my mouth as i asked her and she didn't understand me, so i had to repeat my question. She pointed towards the sign and i headed straight to the restroom. i got inside and dropped my pants and i could feel the gooy cum that had leaked from the condom into my panties and when i pulled my panties down much to my horror the condum had fallen off my pathetic little dicky. i scooped up as much of the gooy mess in my panties as i could and put it into my mouth, then i took the condum (which was down in the crotch of my panties) and put it into my mouth and began chewing. When i had been chewing it for about five minutes someone tried to come into the restroom but i had locked the door. i kept chewing for another five minutes and was removing my panties when they tried again. i told whoever it was that i would be out in a minute. After i got my panties and cock harness off, i spat the condum into the toilet and flushed it twice. Then left.
On Saturday i had to run up to Eastland Shopping Center up on Hamilton Road. i entered the mall through Lazarus. Walking through the cosmetic counters i couldn't help but look at the different shades of lipsticks and nail polishes. A large dark haired young woman asked me if she could help me. i had intended just to take a quick look at the different shades of lipstick, but for some reason i told her that i was looking for a lipstick in a Wine shade. She took me over to the counter and began pulling out samples and swiping the color along the back of her hand. She showed me about six different Wine shades. She never asked me who i was buying it for and i never told her. i ended up paying $22 for a Wine shade of EsteLauder (sp) lipstick called Scandalous. i then headed to Sears but on the way i found a Clairs in the middle of the mall and went inside. Just to look around, i ended up buying two more pair of long dangly clip on ear rings. i wore my ear rings and my new lipstick all the way home smoking about six of my sissy capri cigarettes on the way. The Department store lipstick sure is a lot more expensive than drug store or Kroger and Target prices. But it does feel so creamy on my sissy lips and has such a nice aroma. i know that it is probably too nice for a sissy faggot like myself, but i did like the experience of having a well groomed and well made up young female helping me to pick it out. It was such a better experience than standing at the lipstick displays in the drugstoor on my own looking at the different shades on the display case and then grabing a tube and heading for the check out counter.
i smoked two and a half packs of Capri Menthol 120s this week. i am looking forward to hearing from YOU though i am not too excited about getting my period next week and having to contend with wearing and changing tampons and pads. i guess that is the price a sissy has to pay. i do hope that YOU and YOUR girlfreinds are amused by my adventures at Speedway and Lazarus. Please let me know about how stupid and worthless they think i am and if they are getting a good laugh at my willingness to obey YOUR comands.
Thank YOU
YOUR sissy slut

01-01-05: Dear Miss Patty
my asignment this week was fairly easy except for Tuesday afternoon. we were to meet frineds for diner and my wife followed me up into the bathroom when i was getting ready to take my shower. i couldn't undress in front of her because i was wearing my panties and cock harness as ordered. i took my time and shaved and brushed my teeth hoping she would leave the bathroom so i could lock the door and take my shower. She wouldn't leave. She was brushing her teeth and applying her makeup and i don't know what else. Finally i had to make some excuse about checking something in the garage and then i went out there and removed my trousers and panties and harness, hid them, put my trousers back on and started back into the house to go take my shower when just as i was leaving the garage she appeared in the door looking for me wanting to know what the hell i was doing and why i hadn't started my showe yet. Luckily i had hid the panties and harness. i made up some excuse about looking for something in my car and headed for the shower.
Wednesday we went shopping in Columbus with some friends all day and then out to diner, and then back to their home to watch some the OSU game and drink some beer and wine. i had my panties and harness on from about 7:30 AM until until we got home around 2:30 AM.
i have checked my stash and i have 2 pads, 4 tampons, 6 wipes. and two condums in my hiding place. i have also smoked the rest of that awful pack of manley Virginia Slim Menthol 120s and two other packs of my wonderful faggy Capri Menthol 120s.
i have looked for Mabyline West lipstick and have not found it yet. i have found Mabyline but none that say Mabyline West. Do YOU know what color or shape the tube would be?
Also i told YOU that i want to be able to make my lips say "i want to suck a cock" i got on a couple of web pages that give instructions on applying makeup and i think from my reading and looking at the pictures that it is more shaping the lips with lipliner and using a shiny lip gloss that does that and not necessarly the color, though i believe that many colors are much more sexy than many other colors. With my limited time to put on my lipstick, especially in the car while driving, and then having to remove it so often, i guess those "cock sucking lips" will have to be done only on occasions where i will be home alone and have plenty of time to wear my lipstick.
i am anxious to hear from YOU.
YOUR slut whore

12-26-04: Dear Miss Patty
i do hope that YOU had a wonderful Christmas. my assignment for the week went very smothly, i had to work Monday and Tuesday and wore my panties and cock harness all day both days. i have been wearing my panties and cock harness here at home since Wednesday. Yesterday (Christmas Day) i put them on when i got up around 8:30 and wore them until i finally went to bed at about 2:30 AM this morning. We had company that came for diner and stayed until after 2:00 AM. my cock harness has left some chafe marks from wearing it that long. Otherwise the week haa been a good one with no problems.
Yesterday i smoked my last Capri Menthol 120 about noon. i had to take some presents over to my mother.s and tried to buy a pack at a convinience store that was open. The only place in town that was. i didn't have time to drive to Lancaster. Anyway, they didn't have my Capris, so i had to buy a pack of Virginia Slim Menthol 120s. They seem to be as fat as a cigar after smoking my femmy slim Capris. i definaltly like the Capris better. Anyway i thought i had better let YOU know, since i am only suposed to smoke my faggy Capris. This week i have smoked two packs of Capri Menthol 120s and 4 Virginia Slim Menthol 120s out of the pack i had to buy yesterday.
One other thing i would like YOUR advice on. Since i reaply my lipstick before every cigarette i smoke in the car and even when i am smoking in the garage, i am going through my two tubes of lipstick (red and dark maroon red) pretty fast. Both are down to only about a half to three quarters of an inch left when i twist the tube open. i definaltly am going to buy a new tube of the dark maroon red, but i was wondering if YOU or perhaps one of YOUR girlfriends might have a suggestion on a new shade for me? Something that will definatly leave a lip print on my cigs, but something that says "these lips want to suck cock" i feel like a teenage girl experimenting with different shades to find the one that is really me. Thank YOU for any suggestion. i am anxious to hear from YOU.
i do hope that YOU had a wonderful Christmas and that YOU will have a great New Year.
YOUR sissy faggot slut

12-19-04: Dear Miss Patty
i continued my period for Monday and Tuesday as instructed. Then wore my paneies and cock harness the rest of the week as well. i have been smoking my faggy little Capri 120s all week as instructed also.
Thank YOU so much for seeing me Monday. i don't like to admit it but i was very turned on by YOU fucking my sissy fuck hole with YOUR hard rubber dildo. i was even more turned on by YOUR promises to make me suck a real cock sometime. Especially when YOU told me about the bi couple who live close to me. i keep fantasizing about YOU and the wife of this couple watching me suck off the husband. All the while laughing at me and calling me names. my sissy ass was sore for three days from the spanking YOU gave me. i don't know how YOU accomplished that without leaving tell tail marks, but Thank YOU so much. i also want to Thank YOU for the "special gift" YOU gave to me. i do hope that sometime that can be repeated. YOU honored me greatly by allowing me to use my worthless mouth and tongue to suck YOUR feet and lick YOU. i am forever greatful for that priviledge.
i have smoked two and a half packs of my faggy cigerettes this week and have used 5 pads and 14 tampons this week. (since the Monday i saw YOU) Thank YOU for allowing this worthless sissy slut to experience a period.
i had a situation now that my two college age children are home for the holidays. my son was snooping around in the basement and found my locked tool box i keep my bra and panties in along with some other things. i had to make up some story about antique tools from my grandfather being in it and then after getting him out of the basement moving everything to another toolbox which i locked and hid in the trunk of my car and put my grandfathers antique tools into the original box to cover my story. He is still wondering why it took until the next day for me unlock the box and to show them to him. Though he has seen them before.
Both my son and daughter are home for the holidays and it is going to be difficult to do much with everyone around. i do hope that YOU will make it easy for me for the next couple of weeks. my son goes back to college on the 2nd and my daughter dosn't leave until the 16th. i only have two days of work this week and am off the whole week between Christmas and New Years. Then i go back to work on the 3rd. Things should be back to normal somewhat after the New Year.
i would like to tell YOU that i am very excited about being made into a cocksucking whore, but i do hope that YOU will consider allowing me to do it in some private place, and not in a public place at least the first couple of times. i would love to have others there to watch and laugh and make fun of me, but others who YOU know will not be offended and who will not recognize me and who i am. Thank YOU for any consideration YOU give to this request. i am owned by YOU and must submit to YOUR whims and desires. i must go now, my wife and daughter are at church and i can hear my son getting out of bed and going into the bathroom.
Thank YOU so much for allowing me to serve YOU and i do hope that i keep YOU amused. Have a Merry Christmas if i don't get a chance to e-mail YOU again before then.
YOUR sissy slut whore and hopefully cocksucking faggot whore to be.

12-12-04: Dear Miss Patty
Having a period makes for a very long week. First of all there are no waste baskets in the mens room, they have done away with paper towles and gone to hot air blowers to dry hands. i was afraid to wrap my used pads in toilet paper and flush them because i was afraid that they would stop up the toilet. So i wrapped them in toilet paper and stuck them in my pants pocket and then put them in my coat pocket and stoped at a gass station on the way home each night to throw them into the trash can there. i not only had to worry about disposing of the used pad but also the wrapers and the strip of paper covering the sticky back of the pad and the wrapper of the fem wipe. i did flush the fem wipes though. . i did not get YOUR e-mail with my assignments until Tuesday night so i only had a three day period, Wed, Thur, and Fri. Thursday was the worst by far. After wearing the condum on my little shriveled up clitty all morning it was almost off by lunch. i had a heck of a time getting it rolled back onto my short soft little clit. Then it took me most of my lunch time to play with it enough to get it to shoot. It seemed every time i was close someone would come into the restroom and i would have to stop pulling and try to be quiet and hope that they would not notice me in the stall. Finally when i did get my clitty to squirt it shrank so quickly that i thought the condum was going to fall right off. (It eventually did.) i put a new pad in my panties and a new tampon up my fuck hole and then pulled my panties up and then my trousers and went back to work. i had a gooy mess in my panties in no time. i went back to the rest room about 40 minutes after leaving there and found that my pad was all wet and gooy and that the condum had worked its way off of my teeny tiny clit. i removed the pad and put the condum in the middle of it and rolled it up and put it into my pocket. Then again replaced my tampon and put a new pad in my panties. Then after work i took the gooy pad and used condum back into the restroom with me and chewed the condum as instructed and also licked as much of the cum from the pad as i could. i took off my panties and cock harness and finally left for home. Friday was much better not having to deal with the condum and only having to keep changing my pads and tampons and using the wipes.
i used 9 pads and 15 tampons last week on my period. i also smoked two and a half packs of my faggy Capri Menthol 120s.
i am very excited about coming to see YOU on Monday. i can hardly wait. i am also very anxious to find out what YOUR treat for me is. i can't wait to see YOU. Thank YOU so much for the skirt. YOU are just too good to me.
YOUR bimbo sissy slut faggot pig

11-28-04: Dear Miss Patty
It has been a very long week. i wore my panties and cock harness as instructed this week. Monday and Tuesday at work it was as usual, but it was quite different wearing them at home Wednesday through today. i had to hide them at the back of a high shelf in the linin closet to be able to get quick access to them each morning and have somewhere to put them quickly when i took them off each evening. Thanksgiving day i was not able to remove them until 11:30 PM. To tell YOU the truth by then i had even forgotten i had them on until i went to get undressed for bed, it was a good thing my wife was already in bed when i was getting undressed.
On Wednesday before Thanksgiving i had to go to Carnival Foods to buy a list of things we needed. i wore my red lipstick and smoked about four of my faggy Capri 120s on the way. When i got into the parking lot i wiped my lipstick off and went into the store. After i had been in there for about ten minutes, buying lunch meat at the deli counter, and getting some help at the bakery, a very tall blond shopper was looking at me and smiling and i smiled back. She came up to me and said, "you have something red smeared across the corner of your mouth, it looks like lipstick." i put my hand to my mouth and wiped and looked and sure enought i had red lipstick on my fingers. i thanked her and she just smiled a big smile and i pushed my cart toward the rest room in the front of the store and went into the mens room and looked in the miror and there was red lipstick on my bottom lip at the left corner of my mouth. i wiped it off really quick. When i was checking out that tall blond lady was in line ahead of me. She never said anything but she did keep smiling at me.
Then i almost blew it Friday night. i wanted a smoke, so i went out into the garage and got my lipstick and a cigarette from my car. i smoked it quickly and wiped the lipstick from my lips but i had no where to put the butt. i stuck it into my pocket and went back into the house intending to flush it down the toilet. But something happened and i didn't get to the bathroom right away and i forgot about it. When i was taking my keys and wallet out of my pants pocket before going to bed later that night, i felt the lipstick stained cigarette butt. i sat to pee like a good girl and droped the but into the toilet. When i finished i flushed. Then i went to bed. My wife was already in bed. When i got up to pee at ablut 2:00 AM i opened the toilet lid and there to my horror was that lipstick stained cigarette butt floting in the pot, it had not gone down. i quickly dropped some toilet tissue over it and flushed it again. Then i sat to pee.
i have used only 7 tampons this week at work and 3 here at home for a total of 10. It is hard to dispose of the plastic aplicator here at home, i am afraid it will clog the toilet if i flush it and i am afraid it will be found in the trash, so i hide them and then dispose of them when i am out somewhere and can throw them in the trash at the gas station or somewhere like that. i have also smoked three packs of my sissy faggot Capri Menthol 120s this week. Always wearing my lipstick.
i do hope that YOU had a great Thanksgiving and that all is well for YOU and YOURS.
i am very anxiious to here form YOU and i do hope that sometime soon i will be able to make arangements to see YOU again. i am very egar for YOU to use me for YOUR amusement. Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU.
YOUR sissy faggot slut and property

11-19-04:

Dear Miss Patty,This was a very exciting week. i went to Spencers Gifts last night (Thursday) as instructed but they didn't have any wigs or hair pieces, though they did have a lot of adult type toys. i wondered around the mall and ended up at a place called Clairs. There i found a redish brown hair piece that has a head band that the hair is attached to. The girl that waited on me was very amused and i am sure she noticed my mauve lip gloss. i got the hair piece, it was the closest thing to a wig i could find and i also bought a pair of spring loaded hoop ear rings that look like pierced ear hoops but are not. They make me feel sooo sexy with my hair piece on. It is shoulder length and does cover the top of my head. i think that a real female would have her own hair showing in the front. The girl that waited on me was giggling when she helped me find the pair of hoop ear rings. The other girl that was working with her kept watching her wait on me and i know that the two of them got together and had a good laugh when i left because i went out of the store and looked back in. i just hope that neither of them know who i am. After leaving the store i went to the assigned rest room and took the stall in the far back. It was very scarry because there was about a half inch gap between the door and the frame in the stall and anyone who really walked back there and looked in through the crack could see me. i put my new hair piece on and my new hoop ear rings and then had a heck of a time getting the condum on my little sissy clit. i was very scared and it took me almost 15 minutes to stroke my little sissy faggot clit to a climax because people (real men) kept coming in and out of the restroom and i could always hear them comming and going. i finally shot my load and then peeled the condom off careful not to spill any of my cumy creamy climax and then put it into my mouth and started chewing. Once i got the hair piece and earrings off and my panties back up i headed for the car and chewed my cummy condum for about ten more minutes in the car.

When i left the mall i went to Krogers and bought two new lipsticks, a really red red and a dark burgandy shade of red that i thought would look good with my new redish brown hair piece. i also bought another box of super absorbant tampons and a pack of Capri 120s. The woman at the checkout asked me if i found everything alright and then with a big grin said that she wished her husband would buy her lipstick and tampons. i think she may have had some suspicions about who these items were really for. i just noded and then left quickly. i really apreciate all that women go through when they have their period. It is getting so tiring of having to set and remove a tampon and put a new one inside of me every time i go to the restroom. i am not complaining, i am just letting YOU know how hard i am working to be YOUR sissy slut.

i have smoked almost three whole packs of my sissy faggot Capri 120s and have used 18 tampons this week. i was still starting the day with two inside of me Monday and Tuesday because i did not get YOUR e-mail until Tuesday night. i really like the red lip prints and the burgandy lip prints my new lipsticks leave on my cigarette butts. i am anxious to hear back from YOU. Thank YOU for allowing me to serve for YOUR amusment. i do apreciate it.
YOUR sissy faggot slut

11-13-04:Dear Miss Patty
It has been a pretty hohum week. i didn't get YOUR e-mail until Tuesday evening. i did wear my panties and cock harness to work every day and keep a tampon in my sissy fuck hole all week. i tried two on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday as YOU ordered but i am not sure that i did it right. The second one always seemed to be pushing the first one up farther inside of me. i could not get them in side by side, perhaps i need some lub of some kind. It seemed that they worked as some kind of suposotory because i kept getting the feeling that i had to have a BM really bad about 20 to 30 minutes after inserting them.

The trip to Krogers wearing my lipstick to buy a new box of super absorbant tampons was scarry. i was scared to death that i would run into someone who knew me. i may have and just don't know about it yet. i kept my head down and my lips perssed together hoping that i could get out of there without someone seeing me and calling my name. The worst part was standing in line at the check out counter waiting my turn. i just kept my head down and didn't look at anyone. Just the floor. i made it though and afterwards i felt very sissyfied and good about my sissy slutty self.

i want to ask YOU if i could buy a new lipstick? i really want to wear something more slutty than the pink i am wearing now. i was thinking something more red, but i don't know what would be sluttier, a really red red, a rose red, or some dark burgandy or almost brownish shade of red. Do YOU have any suggestions? If YOU say i can buy something new i would greatly apreciate it. If YOU decide to let me buy something new please tell me what shade i should buy. Mayby red would not be the best, i have been looking and i also have seen many shades in violet or plum and even a really glamorous looking gold and another that is bronz. What do YOU think? i am not trying to top from the bottom, i am just asking YOUR permission. i will do what ever YOU tell me to do, as i always must. i am YOUR panty waist sissy faggot.

i used 22 tampons this week and will no doubt have to buy more next week. i have also smoked a little over two and a half packs of my faggy Capri 120s. i just bought a new pack Friday and will have to get another before Monday i am sure. i think i am becoming adicted. i can't wait to get in the car every morning so that i can have my three faggy cigarettes on the way to work. i am just as anxious to leave work every afternoon so that i can smoke all the way home. i also enjoy being able to put on my lipstick every day on the way to and from work.
Thank YOU for allowing me to serve YOU and for allowing me to be YOUR sissy faggot slut. Thank YOU, Thank YOU. Thank YOU.
YOUR sissy faggot slut

11-07-04:Dear Miss Patty
i am setting here at my computer with a tampon shoved up into my sissy fuck hole today i do hope that pleases YOU.
Monday through Wednesday i compleated my assignments as ordered, wearing my new fusia panties and my cock harness to work. and keeping a tampon in my pussy every day. Nothing much ecxiting happened except that i was leaking pre-cum all those days eagerly awaiting our meeting on Thursday.

Thank YOU so much for taking me shoe shopping at PayLess. i do believe that clerk had a good story to tell her friends about the big sissy who's Mistress brought him into the store to buy a pair of heels. She seemed to be quite amused by me trying on and walking around in my pretty pointy toed three inch heels. i thought that i was going to die of emberassment when YOU called her over to ask which pair she thought fit the best and then asked her if she thought those shoes didn't look cute on me. i can not get the thought of that big smug smile on her face as i paid for the shoes out of my head. And then her telling YOU that she had a pair just like them at home. i bet she was laughing her ass off after we left.

my sissy fuck hole feels all stretched out from the dildo YOU used to fuck me with after we got back to YOUR house. i do believe that i got plenty of practice sucking on the heel of one of my new shoes while YOU were occupid with my pussy. i have never cum so much in all my life, and to think that you were not paying that much attention to my sissy clitty but fucking my faggot pussy and shocking and mesaging my little ball sack. How did that much cum come out of me?

The highlight of my visit though was being given the honor of licking and kissing YOUR beautiful foot and being allowed to suck on YOUR toes. i do believe that i got a lot of practice at sucking Thursday.

On Friday i wore my now very dirty panties to work and they were quite hard and crusty from all that cum. Plus i added more pre cum all day long just from the feel of my panties and the thought of the day before. i hope that YOU do not mind, but after work when i changed out of my panties i took them into my mouth and sucked the dried cum out of them for about ten minutes. They needed to be cleaned and i thought YOU would approve, i do hope that i did not over step my bounderies. i am very scared that i could easaly become YOUR cum slut. i keep thinking of YOU having me on my knees wearing my panties, bra and heels with my face all painted up and a thick coat of lipstick on my lips sucking some stanger's cock. i would never do such a thing on my own but the thought of YOU making me does excite me. YOU being there to supervise me and to laugh at me and make fun of me while i am doing it excites me. If it were to ever happen i would hope that YOU would even invite a girlfriend to watch and help YOU make fun of me.

i am very anxious to see YOU again and i do hope that YOU will allow me the honor and priviledge of being used as YOUR toilet paper as YOU said YOU were going to do. i also am very excited about the prospect of YOUR girlfriend measuring me to make me my very own skirt.

i have used 15 tampons this week including the one that i have inside me now. i have also smoked two and a half packs of my faggy capri menthol 120's this week. i smoked six on the way home from YOUR house Thursday.
Thank YOU for using me for YOUR amusment and i do hope that YOU and YOUR friends are having a good laugh at my expense.
YOUR sissy little fag bimbo

10-30-04:Dear Miss Patty
i had a scarry time with my assignments this week. On Tuesday i was almost caught before work putting on my pantyhose and thong. A co-worker came into the restroom while i was in the stall and i had my shoes and socks, my boxers, and my pants off and was pulling my pantyhose up over my thong. When i heard the rest room door open i tried to step into my pants and pull them up so quickly that i lost my balnace and fell against the side of the stall, causing a lot of attention to my presence in the stall. i stepped into my shoes without having time to put on my sox and tried to lower the cuffs of my pants to hide the hose around my ankles and quickly sat on the pot. They asked if there was a problem, i answerd that i was fine, that i had just slipped, i sat on the pot hoping that they would leave. When they finally did, i pulled the pantyhose up over the thong, buttoned my pants and ziped up and buckled my belt, then slipped out of my shoes and put my sox on over the hose and then put my shoes back on and tied them. i jamed the boxers into my coat pocket and left. i avoided that person the rest of the day, and on Wednesday when i did se him, he said nothing, so i think that i am okey. i hope!

i had a meeting after work on Wednesday and did not get to Catherines until Thursday around 5:00 PM. i walked in and went right to the panty rack. While i was standing there looking a woman who looked a little familiar, but who i did not recognise and who was clearly working there came up to me and acted as though she knew me and asked if she could help me with something. She said it had been a long time since she had seem me. i paniced and said i was just looking and truned and walked away from the panties and bras and started looking at sweaters. She asked if she could help me find something and if i had an idea what i was looking for. i said no, just brousing. Then when she walked back toward the cashregister i left. i went to my car and got vary scared about who could she possably be. i still have no idea. i just hope that this chance encounter does not get me into trouble. For the past two days i have been scared to death my wife is going to ask me what i was doing in Catherines. Anyway i did finish my assignment after about ten minutes of being scared and gathering my courage i went into the Fashon Bug Pluss store next door to Catherines and bought a fusia pair of panties. The color matches my bra exactly, though the material is not quite as shiney as the material the bra is made from. i do hope that YOU will allow me to avoid Catherines from now on.

i am scared that my sissy training is happening so fast and that things are spinning out of control, but i can not help myself, i must obey YOUR assignments and i do want to be YOUR bimbo slut and play thing. i just don't want to be found out by my family and friends. i am worried and scared but at the same time very excited and aroused. i am constantly fantisizing about being humiliated and used by YOU for YOUR fun and amusement. Most of these fantasies are extreemly degrading and disgusting scenes in my head of YOU debasing me. i hope that my telling YOU this does not cause YOU to be angry at me. But i must obey YOU, and just hope, trust and believe that i can do so without being found out by my family and friends.

i have smoked two and a half packs of Capri Menthol 120s this week and have 12 left in my pack. i will be smoking most if not all of those tomorrow and will buy another pack tomorrow as well. i believe i am going to be needing some new lipstick soon. my tube of pink is worn down about one third to a half and my liquid lip gloss is not coming out so thick on the wand lately. Also i used 17 tampons this week and will probably be needing to buy another box of those as well this week.
Thank YOU so much for allowing me to be YOUR sissy bimbo faggot slut and for using me for YOUR amusement. i do hope that YOU and YOUR friends are getting a good laugh at my expense. Thank YOU
YOUR slave

10-24-04:Dear Miss Patty
On Tuesday i did my Monday assignment and wore my thong, ball harness, and panty hose. After putting the condom on my sissy faggot clitty i went to Krogers as instructed and bought my box of tampons then headed for the men's room. i sat on the potty and pulled and rubbed my sissy clitty until it sperted it's silly sissy sauce into the condom. i carefully removed the condom, careful not to spil or drop any of my cum and then put it into my mouth and began chewing. i felt like everyone was looking at me as i left the store. When i got to the parking lot i sat in my car for the 15 minutes YOU instructed and chewed on the condum. i was very nervous. While sitting there i saw three people who i know going into Krogers who waved at me. i was scared to death that one of them was going to come over to my car to talk to me, but fortunatly none did. When i was done chewing i got out of my car and took the chewed condum up to the front of the store and deposeted it into the trash can. i had a strange feeling of excitement and relief that i had compleated my assignment. i felt a little proud that i had acomplished it but also a little stupid and foolish that i would do it. i don't know what i would have done if someone i knew had aproached my car to talk to me while i was sitting there chewing that condum and greedally sucking and swallowing my own cum. i left Krogers and headed down the street to the drive through to buy another pack of Capri Menthol 120s. When i left the drive through i went through the alley behind it and put on my lipstick. i took a long way back home and smoked 4 Capris on the way home. i only used two tampons that day because i was confused about the assignment and kept the first one in until i had to have a bm in the afternoon and then put a fresh one in after that. i thought that i was to try to only use one all day. i don't know why i thought that.

On Wednesday i put on my thong, ball harness, and panty hose and used 4 tampons. But then Wednesday night i didn't feel well and that night i was nausious and had some diareah, so i did not go to work on Thursday. i got up about 10:30 or so and layed around the house the rest of the day. i was able to keep some toast and coffee down that morning so i was feeling better. i knew that YOU would want me to continue my assignment though so while laying on the sofa i was dressed in my thong, ball harness, bra lipstick, and panty hose. i used six tampons that day. i also found a bottle of red nail polish in the bathroom cabinet and painted my fingernails with it. It looked a little slutty, and i thought that pink would probably be a more appropriate color for me. i knew that there was some nail polish remover in my daughter's room and used it to clean my nails before my wife got home from work i am glad that i started a little early because it took some time to get all the red polish removed from my cuticles down by the edge where the skin of my fingers meet the cuticle. i even had to take a pocket knife and do some scraping.

On Friday i went into the boys room after school and pulled down my panty hose and thong and inserted my little pathetic clitty into a condum and began playing withmyself. Someone did come into the restroom and use the urnal, but i sat very quietly and i don't think they knew that i was in there. Right after i came, (not nearly as much this time as at Krogers on Wednesday) one of the female custodians stuck her head in the door and asked if anyone was in there. i answered back that there was, hoping that she could not tell that i had something in my mouth. About ten minutes later she yelled in again and again i had to answer that i was still in there, again hoping that my voice did not sound too strange with the condum in my mouth. Finally when i finished and flushed the condum and removed my harness, thong, and pantyhose, i wadded them all into a ball and jamed them into my coat pocket, and left feeling very anxious, excited, and foolish and worried. i saw the female custodian in the hall and told her that the boys room was empty now. i said that i had not been feeling well and apologed for keeping her from her cleaning. She said that it was no problem and hoped that i was feeling better. i used 4 tampons at work that day.
YOUR sissy faggot slut

10-16-04: Dear Miss Patty
i wore my pretty thong and kept a tampon in my sissy fuck hole as YOU ordered all week at school. i have also been wearing my lipstick and smoking my Capri cigarettes on my way to and from work all week long. my ball harness has made my little ball sack full and in need of release.
i really had some emberassment these last few days. i went to Fashon Bug Pluss as YOU instructed to buy my bra on Thursday. It was quite emberassing. After standing looking at bras for about ten minutes and not being able to find my size. (48-C according to the measurments i took and the bra fitting chart i found on the internet) i went to the counter and asked a woman who looked to be in her fortys if she could help me find the size i needed. To my utter horror she hollored to a clerk on the floor, Can you help this gentelman find a bra? Three other women were standing close by and my face must have turned a deep red from emberassment. The woman on the floor, who looked to be in her fiftys tried to help me but all the bra's we could find in a 48 were double D cup. She suggested i go next door to a store called Cathlines to look. i left and after gathering my courage, went into Cathlines. There i found a fucia collor bra that was the right size and took it to the counter. The woman who waited on me asked if i found everything i needed. i told her yes and that i only needed this. (the bra i had laid on the counter) She then said, if you open a charge account with us you can get this for just $3 today. Then she called me "dear" i told her that was okey, i didn't want a charge account. She then said, Well "sweetie" we have matching panties to this bra if your interested. She giggled when she said it. She was a heavy set woman who looked to be in her thirtys. i was really emberassed as two other women shoppers were standing right there at the counter at the time. i said just this for now and paid full price $18 plus tax and left.
On the way home i went throught the drive-through where i have been buying my cigarettes and the two young women who work there in the afternoons and who i have bought my last 4 packs from, were standing by the cash register. i asked for a pack of Capri menthol 120s, and the one, a blond who looks to be in her late 20s, asked me if i smoked these, as she handed me my cigarettes. i was emberassed and must have turned red but answered "yes". The other girl a tall thin redhead also in her 20s (i would guess) then said, I tried those and don't like them, you should try Marlboro Lights they also come in a long length and are not as femenin, don't you know those you smoke are for women? i just said, well i like them. and drove away leaving the blond keep my $1.04 in change. When i went back this morning to buy another pack, the same two women were working and they just looked at each other and giggled as the red head sold me my cigarettes. After handing me my change she just said, have a nice day. i have used 14 tampons this week and only have 4 left in my box, so i will need to buy more of those on my way home from work Monday. (i still had some left from my first pack when YOU told me to buy a 24 pack and my douche and rubbers two weeks ago.) my wife went to Columbus to go shopping today so while she is gone i have been here at the house wearing my thong, my new bra and my lipstick, i have also smoked more than half my pack of Capris. She is not home yet and i have been airing out the house for tha past half hour and am going to use some air freshener as soon as i shut the windows and turn off the fans and put them back in the hall closet. She called about 20 minutes ago to say she was on her way. (just after i started this e-mail, so i must now hurry to finish so i can get the house warmed back up before she gets home. It is cold in here today with the windows open.)
i do hope that YOU will allow me to spew my silly sauce cum form my sissy clitty soon, my little balls are aching. From past experiences i know that my release will be small, i don't have much of a load any more, even when i have not squirted for a while. i wish that it would be more so that if YOU make me eat it i could have some of it dribble down my chin. Though it felt like it was running out of the corners of my mouth last week when i was chewing my cum filled rubber in Target.

i must hurry and go. i do hope that YOU are getting a good laugh at my expense and that all YOUR girlfriends and the people who read YOUR wonderful web page are shaking their heads and thinking what a stupid bimbo slut i am. i hope someday that YOU will introduce me to some of YOUR friends so that they can all see what a sissy faggot i am for YOU.
YOUR slave slut

10-14-04: Dear Miss Patty
In my excitement over reporting to YOU last Sunday i forgot to tell YOU that i am off work Thursday and Friday this week for the County Fair. i got YOUR e-mail and am going to go do my shopping for a bra later this afternoon. i am very excited and very scared. Luckily my wife is not home this morning so i was able to put on my lipstick and smoke my three sissy faggot Capri 120s with my morning coffee today. i just had to wash the lipstick stains off of the coffee cup. Right now i am wearing my thong and have a tampon in my sissy fuckhole. i am also wearing my lipstick and my panty hose. i so enjoy wearing my lipstick and leaving my mauvy pink lip prints on the cup and on the Capri cigarette butts. My wife left me a list of chores and errands to do today and i look forward to doing the chores wearing lipstick and taking occasional smoke breaks. i will have to get a can of air freshner and use a fan to try to clear the house of lingering cigarette smoke oder. i will also need to get another pack of cigarettes while i am out today. i do wish that YOU could se me, i know that YOU would get a good laugh. i will report to YOU about my shopping trip Sunday as usual. Thank YOU for using me for YOUR amusement.
YOUR sissy faggot slut

10-10-04: Dear Miss Patty
i carried out YOUR instructions this week. Every day i wore my cock harness and my nice pretty red thong that YOU so generiously gave me. On Wednesday i went to the boys restroom at noon and douched. Sitting on the pot squeezing the liquid up into my sissy fuck hole just as YOU instructed. Gravity caused some of it to run out of me before i got the whole bottle empty, but i know that i kept the most of it inside of me. Some one did come in while i was squeezing it up inside of me and caused me to freeze and try to make no noise while they were in there. i just clamped down tight on the nozel and squated there over the toilet bowl holding onto the bottle hoping that nothing would run out of me and that i wouldn't drop the bottle. Some douche did run down the backs of my legs. After i emptied the bottle and sat there on the potty, it was the longest five minutes of my life. Finally when the time was up i expelled the douch, wiped myself as dry as i could and inserted a fresh tampon. i used a total of ninteen tampons this week. i must tell YOU that i had to leave work early for a dentist apointment on Friday afternoon and wore my thong, cock harness and a tampon to the Dentist office. While waiting for the doctor to see me i went to the restroom there and changed my tampon in the Doctor's office. So i was still wearing my harness, thong, and a fresh tampon when i left. So i ended up wearing everything home. my sissy fuck hole ass now feels very empty when i don't have a tampon in it.
Also i would like to let YOU know that this week, on my way home from work Monday, i stopped at a drug store and bought a pack of Capri Menthol 120mm cigarettes and a tube of pink Covergirl lipstick and a Maybeline liquid lip gloss that is a mauve collor. All week long i have worn the lipstick and smoked the cigarettes on my way to and from work. Wiping the lipstick off just before getting to work and just before getting home. i keep the cigarettes and the lipsticks locked in my glove compartment. i even had to buy a second pack after school Thursday because i only had two left in the first pack. i do hope that this is alright with YOU. i also bought some Altoids to try to cover my breath at home with my wife. i have discovered if i drive 55 to 60 mph i only have enough time for two each way, but if i drive 40 to 45 i have enough time to smoke three each way. Of course driving 40 to 45 gets traffic behind me and passing me at every opportunity. But i just love using the little vanaty mirror on my sunvisor to put on my lipstick while i am driving. i also have learned that the liquid lip gloss is very messy, It is also harder to put on with that little wand than just twisting the tube and applying, and unlike the regular tube of lipstick, when it comes off on the cigarette butt it will also come off on anything that the cigarette butt touches. i get the mauve gloss on my fingers and one place on my jacket. i had to wash it with a wet paper towel at school. There is still a pinkish-red stain. Luckilly i sometimes get red ink stains on my clothing from grading pens, so if my wife says anything that will be my excuse.

i do hope that i have pleased YOU and that YOU are amused at my sissy bimbo adiction to humiliating myself for YOU. i am very anxious to receive YOUR next assignment.
YOUR sissy bimbo slut

10-03-04: Dear Miss Patty
i must say that my shopping experience was very scarry. i went to Target as YOU instructed and went directly to the men's room. i have not used a condum for a long time and it took me some time to just get it on. Especially since i can not get a full erection due to my blood pressure and blood sugar medications. It was quite an unsatisfactory wank trying to pull on my little sissy clitty with that rubber over it. While i was in the stall the restroom door must have opened at least a half dozen times. i was in there for about 15 minutes, and in my mind at least, i was sure someone must know what i was doing in that stall. i finally did cum and it was a lot. It was a gooy mess to chew and again out in the store i was sure that many people realized what i had in my mouth, though i know that they could not possably. i kept wiping my face with my hand scared that some of the cum was somehow escaping my mouth and squirting out across my chin or drooling down the corners of my mouth. It is very difficult to chew a condum and keep your mouth shut tight while doing so.


While i was in the Femenin Hygine section of the store looking at douches, i noticed a woman i know, so i headed for the mens department and got a t-shirt off the rack and then went back for the douche, after i put it in my cart i didn't cover it compleatly but i did kind of drape it around the box of douche so that it wasn't by itself in the cart. Next i bought the pack of tampons, (i opened it and used a couple on Friday at school since my other pack had run out) The final thing on my list was the pack of condums which was probably the easiest thing to stand and look at before buying. The douche is a pack of Summers Eve Island breeze. i returned to the mens department and put the shirt back on the rack and made a mad sprint with my cart to the checkout counters. i ended up having to stand in line and there was a man wearing a NASCAR hat behind me. i am sure he noticed what was in my cart but he kept looking away from me, and i was glad. The check out lady didn't say a word about my unusual purchases, but she did ask me if i found everything alright, with a bit of a smirk i think, it was difficult to answer yes with the condum in my mouth and i was scared to death that she would see what i was chewing so savagely on when i gave her that short three worde "yes thank YOU" When i got to the car i took the condum out of my mouth and licked the slobers off of it, making sure that there was none of my sissy sauce still left on it. Then i took it in my hand back towards the store and threw it into the trash can outside the enterence, i did not want to have it laying there in the parking lot for some kid to see.
YOUR sissy faggot slut

9-26-04: Dear Miss Patty
This past week i have followed YOUR instructions and only wore my thong and leather cock harnes to work. my wife left for work before me one day this week, (i usually leave before her) because she had a meeting she had to be at. That gave me an opportunity to put my thong on at home that day. i hope that was alright. i have become somewhat addicted to it. i just love the way the thong feels between my butt cheaks, especially where it covers my sissy faggot slut hole pussy. i actually miss that sensation when i am not wearing them. The harness has my little nugget balls hanging very low in their sack and i am very horney. i am constantly fantasizing about YOU humiliating me in front of YOUR friends and others and laughing at what a stupid bimbo i have become. i am getting very very horney and am desperate for some release. i have not spewed my silly sissy sauce from my very tiny sissy clit since i got home from seing YOU, and that has been three weeks. May i have YOUR permission to relieve the pressure in my ball sack? Thank YOU for any consideration on this matter.

i am very excited, and scared a little, about receiving YOUR next assignment. But i can't wait to get started on whatever YOU decide to do with me. i desperatly hope that YOU will enjoy great amusement at my expense with whatever YOU have me do, and i do hope that YOU will share that information with YOUR friends so that they can know how desperate i am to serve YOU and what a stupid shit i am as well.
YOUR sissy faggot bimbo slut

9-12-04: Dear Miss Patty
i thought that YOU might like to know that i almost got caught putting on my panty hose in the boys restroom at 7:00 AM on Friday. i was in the stall with my pants and boxers hanging on the hook on the stall door and my thong already on and one leg in the panty hose and the other one just started to be pulled up my leg when a group of boys came into the restroom. It was about 15 minutes before any students were to be upstairs. i yelled from the stall for them to get back downstairs or i would give them detentions. i think, i hope, they left the restroom before any of them had a chance to look under the stall door and see my shoeless, sockless feet, with one covered in nylon. i am such a stupid bimbo slut for taking these chances, but i can not help myself, it is such a turn on to me just hoping that YOU and YOUR friends are having a good laugh at my expense and that i am pleasing YOU. i hope to receive an e-mail from YOU with new instructions soon.
Thank YOU for making me YOUR bimbo slut whore
YOUR slave slut

 

©2004-2006 The Leather Realm

1